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25 ➵ Vlog #14

Vlog #14 (Sunday)

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'this michael guy looks horrible'

'omf his hair is so ridiculous i cant stop laughing'

'does he really think calum actually likes him'

'calum deserves better'

'what a fucking freak'

'cal should stop hanging out with an ugly faggot'

These were just a few of the comments that made my eyes teary.

Calum told me not to read the comments but I wanted to know what the people thought of me. I mean, there weren't just hate comments about me.

'aw otp'

'this michael dude is hot'

'cAN THEY BANG THEYRE SO HOT'

'they'd be so cute together'

'mY HEART IS MELTING MICHAEL AND CALUM ARE SO FUCKING SWEET'

They made me smile, they really did but then the hateful comments destroyed my happiness. I didn't know why they hurt so much. I've always said to myself that haters could kiss my ass but now that I actually got haters they were really hard to ignore. 

I started to question myself.

Maybe my hair looked ridiculous and I should just stop dyeing it.

Maybe I wasn't good enough for Calum.

Maybe Calum deserved someone better.

And then I started to cry.

I didn't know why I was such an emotional mess and it annoyed me. Usually comments like these wouldn't affect me that much but this time they did and I was alone, no one there to comfort me.

Well, almost no one.

[to: lukey poo]

are you free im alone and sad 

do you think you could come over

pls try to convince your parents to drive you i need someone

Five minutes later I got a reply.

[from: lukey poo]

it was rlly hard to convince my dad to drive me, i had to promise to clean the whole house but thats okay

ill be there in like two hours

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"Do I need to unsubscribe to Calum or not?" he asked.

"What? No, he didn't do anything wrong," I said and smiled about how cute Luke was.

"Then why are you so sad? Wait, were you crying? Michael, what happened?"

"Let's go to my room and then we'll talk."

Luke plopped down onto my bed and I did too.

"Now, what's wrong?" he asked sweetly, smiling at me.

"It's dumb."

"No, it's not. If it makes my best friend cry then it's very important for me to know what happened."