hELLO TIS GRACE
ok so basically i have this one friend and she's in most of my classes and we're real close like we've been good friends for three years and idk in those three years we've only hugged like twice
idk why but this rly ticks me off like hey.......... i want my hugs.............. but we're both like rly rly awkward and the last time we hugged she went for the hug and i went for the high five and it was just so so so so awkward
but i stalked her tumblr ((it's actually rLY NICE check it out her url is parkwxydrive)) and she answered an ask saying that she doesn't like affection so i guess that's it idk i just want hugs
another thing is that she tells a lot of stories and she usually makes them longer than they actually need to be and goes into a lot of detail and pauses a lot and like i lose concentration sooo easily and like sometimes we're talking to people who i want to keep talking to and i feel them lose interest and then they kinda drift away and like :/
and also she's so so fucking judgemental it pisses me off a lot and like she feels the need to label everything??? so one of my nerd friends went to SMASH ((it's like this anime convention)) and he brought an attack on titan wallet ((cOOL YES)) and he showed it to us and she was like hm........ can't tell if it's tacky or not..........
like not EVERYTHING needs to be labeled as something like hey it was a cool wallet yeah sure it was a bit tacky but who cARes????
also she rly rly disapproves of me writing 5sos fanfiction and it really fucking pisses me off like sometimes i'm all ready to tell a funny/annoying story of something that happened on wattpad and she gives me this Look and i'm like welp nvm then and also when i talk about 5sos she kind of rudely listens if u get what i mean???? like she never even bothers to FAKE interest which is what i do when she talks about her metal bands ((even tho i like some of them but tHAT'S not the point here ok)) and like i just feel like i need to be a certain type of person around her??????? uGH
and i don't even know who i am anymore bc with some friends im a certain way and with other im another way and at home idek anymore
and she's always so scared that people will judge us like "no grace we can't do this rly fun thing that u just suggested people r gonna JUDGE US" like wow who gives a fucking shit about all these people in the shopping centre ((malls to all u americans out there smh)) that wE WILL NEVER SEE AGAIN FFS
also i have this other friend and we were walking to the bus stop and i was talking about how i didnt get what we were doing in science at all and then she was like "well maybe u should study" uM I'M SORRY I DIDNT KNOW U WERE MY MOTHER
also she's friends with all these guys who absolutely hate me for some reason and they all kind of tease me but like not directly but when i walk into a room they groan loudly but like that's ok it doesn't bother me
but like she's friends with them and they all have this internet friend they play league of legends with ((tho he also lives in sydney just on the other side)) and he came to our side of sydney after school once and i've talked to the internet friend before over skype and to put it nicely he is a rly big dick and i never want to talk to him again and anyhow when he came to our side of sydney she fucking wanted me to meet him and dragged me halfway there before i realised what was happening like literally no are you my friend bc i've told her i don't like her other friends and i dont want to talk to them im so ugh @ her
aLS SHE SAYS SO MANY UR MUM JOKES ITS SO FUCKING ANNOYING NO NO STOP PLS
((this is getting so long but i've started and i cant stop))
also i have this other friend and she left my lil group that i sit with at lunch to hang with some stoners and be popular basically and im glad shes following her dreams but i miss her a lot and i want to hang out with her more but she always cancels on me and i'm so not bothered to keep this up i just miss her a lot
like i was waiting for the bus with her the other day and it was so so so so so so so awkward i mean i just kinda choked and i didn;'t know wha to say why do i suck so much there was like a five minute awkwartd silence i just kind oidjewqpekjbfndsn
my laptop is like on 7% so as much as i would like to continue this i cannot so long farewell
