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🖤👌🏻: Everyone wants an explanation for what happened yesterday. Well here it is. Why did I run off. Why did I stand there making a big deal of it when I didn't even do anything. The answer is unclear to even me. I don't know what it is. But he does something to me. When I am in class I can't help but hear my eyes begging to stare at him. As much as I want to talk the words disappear into thin air. It's like my throat closes and I can't breathe. I can't understand why it's so hard. But it's a big step. Even though I know he knows that I like him I couldn't help running off. I stared into those chocolate brown eyes and saw that I could never be good enough for him. I never will be. When Sebastian got there I wasn't fast enough to keep up with the group, I would never be able to be there for him. I have all these personal struggles and it would be too much for him, even my best friend thinks it's too much. Why would I put him through all of this just for the thought that he might like me too. I know I shouldn't have ran away, this is so freaking clear to me. Yet I knew he deserved more than the quiet shy girl in the corner. Every step away from where he was like shattering my heart even more and now? I just feel numb because I can't stand to bare the emotions that I am feeling. So why did I run off? Because I will never be enough for him. And that's ok. Because I'm used to being second choice anyways.
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🤔🔥🥀: 1. wow, 2. u should be a poet, 3. I talked a lot of ppl outta suicide, 4. I helped a girl get over being raped by her ex, 5. I agreed to help a pregnant teen with her baby, 6. I learned to love that child before it was born, 7. She got an abortion 8. u r a way better person than me, 9. IDK I can handle anything. Also was this about me
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🖤👌🏻: Yes
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🤔🔥🥀: OK look I'm a terrible person
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🖤👌🏻: Not in my eyes.
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🤔🔥🥀: Oh look ur an optimist too
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🖤👌🏻: You aren't a terrible person Everett.
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🤔🔥🥀: Quit it
🤔🔥🥀: stop being nice
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🖤👌🏻: Why? Look Everett face the facts. I like you. A lot. And I don't know why. I never saw you as a terrible person and I never will.
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🤔🔥🥀: I don't like u the way u like me and I don't want to hurt u
🤔🔥🥀: I'm sorry but I don't wanna fake it
🤔🔥🥀: and I'm sick of leading girls on
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Thoughts and Constellations
PoetryA year full of ups and downs, written down to make someone, somewhere feel something. This is my personal journal published for the world to see. All my thoughts and feelings for a year. It has no plot. It has no ending. It just ends. Good luck tryi...
