I don't even know why I'm so upset. I just. It reminds me of when she stopped coming home at night and it scares me not knowing where she is. Even more so at hours like these. It's not that my mom can't have a life I just want to know she's coming back...
That doesn't make any sense does it? I think I've just reached the end of my energy and I need to sleep because I spent a good amount of the day around a lot of people and I'm tired but I can't sleep until she's home.
118 days since I last cut.
My dad and my uncle were joking about my dad having a girlfriend and at first I didn't know it was a joke, it scared the crap out of me. Not ready for that. I honestly don't know what I'd do...probably puke and yell I DO WHAT I WANT THOR and start stimming like crazy.
I'm over-stimulated, over-tired, and I need to take my meds, read John Green and sleep.
Happy Fathers Day
