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Chapter 51

SHORT CHAPTER BEWARE! I DID A DOUBLE UPDATE SO...

Songs for the chapter

Explosions- Ellie Goulding

Maybe you're right- Miley Cyrus

Unconditionally- Katy Perry

"Fuck!" I yell all over the house

She left. Why did I say those things? Hell, I don't want her to go back to America. She's only 18 and she doesn't even have to go to college now. I'm such a fuck up. I guess her friends talking about college got to me and I wasn't even thinking straight. Now she's gone and I have no idea where she is.

What if something happens to her? What if she gets jumped? There's endless things that could happen. Soon I start crying. Why did this happen? I have to be dreaming. Dreaming? Fuck, this isn't dreaming! This is having a nightmare!

I should call her even though there's a 98 percent that she won't answer my call. I quickly dial it and as to my knowledge, it goes to voicemail.

"Alex, baby, I'm really worried. I fucked up and I'm sorry. Please come back home or call me and I can pick you up. Please talk to me. I love you" I say into the recorder

I start to shake. I have never been like this. I'm going frantic. I have nobody to call. I forgot all numbers in my other phone. I decide to call my mom. She won't tell where my whereabouts are.

"Hello?" my mother questions into the phone

"Mom, it's Niall" I say shakily

"Niall! Heavens sake! I have been so worried, son!" she says into the phone

"M-mom I messed up" my voice cracks at the end of the call

"What has happened? Where are you? Is Alex with you?" she rambles on

"That's the thing. We're in Paris and we got into a fight and she ran out of the house" I say frantically

"Niall James Horan! What did you do?" she says angrily into the phone

"It was stupid! I fucked up, okay? I'm worried that something is going to happen!" I say

"Have you called her?" she asks

"Yes, she won't answer and I left her a voicemail"

"Go out and look for her! She's the best thing that has ever happened to you and I'm not going to let you mess it up! She loves you Niall and I know you love her!" she exclaims into the phone

"She won't take me back I think" I say sadly

"Change that! Go look for her. Bye Niall. Incase you didn't know its 3 in the morning here but it's okay" she huffs

"Alright. Love you" I say

"Love you too" she says and ends the call

I rush out the door. I go in the direction that she left and run down the sidewalk..

It seems like I have been running for hours.

"Alex!" I yell down the streets

"You lookin' for a young brunette girl?" a guy behind me asks

"Do you know where she is?" I ask

"She went into that jiffy store 2 blocks down" the guy says and takes a drag of his cigar

I jog two blocks down and see the store the man is talking about. I see Alex picking up stuff. I spy on her until she goes to the register. Her eyes are bloodshot from this angle. She has asprin and Arizona tea. I see that she thanks the man and then walks out.

I run up to her and wrap my arms around her. She squeals and hits my arm.

"Get off of me!" she yells

"It's me, Niall!" I say soothingly

She stays calm for a minute and then tries to wiggle out of my grasp.

"No! I'm not going to let walk away from me. What I said is stupid!" I yell and grab her arm

Her eyes well up with tears and it breaks my heart.

"You obviously meant what you said" she says

"I didn't though. You don't need to go to college. We can live happily in Paris. I love you so much" I say and she stands there wide eyed

We stand there silent for a moment.

"I need some asprin" she says and dumps out 3 tablets

"Come home. I'll take the couch and you can take the bed. I don't want you to be out in this weather" I say and grab her hand but she snatches it so it's out of my reach

Ouch.

"O-okay" she stutters

"I love you" I say but she just nods

That hurt.

A lot.

God I'm so stupid.

We arrive home and Alex gets a glass of water.

"Goodnight, I love you" I say and kiss her cheek

She backs away and goes into the bedroom. I stand there feeling hurt and despair. I did this to myself. I don't know what tomorrow will bring but I'm scared. I'm scared that she will stop loving me. I'm scared she will go into depression. When I called her emotional I didn't mean that. I love when she shows her emotions, even when she's sad. I hate to see her cry but I like to comfort her. There would be sometimes when we would just be in the bed. I would have her wrapped up in my arms and sometimes we would make small talk. There would be no TV on. Just the quietness of love. But now she has fallen out of love. I need to make her fall in love with me. The girl that I plan on marrying, raising a family with, growing old together... she's the one I want to do that with.

I pour myself a glass of orange juice and sit at the dining room table. I begin to hear crying noises from the bedroom and then I begin to cry myself. I did this. I caused all of this shit! I hate this. I absolutely hate this. I hate myself at this moment.

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I wake up with a headache. I remember last nights events and I cringe. I groan and I decide to go to the bedroom. I could talk to her maybe?

When I go to the door, it's locked. It's 10:30 and maybe she's still sleeping. I quietly knock and I hear shuffling from the other side.

She opens the door and another disappointment comes.

She isn't wearing my shirt.

"Can we talk?" I ask quiet

"Later" she mumbles

"Okay" I whisper

"I love you so much" I say straight into her eyes

She looks down at the ground. This hurts a lot.

"I'm going back to bed" she mumbles and closes the door

Alex's POV

It's not that I don't love him anymore. It's just that I don't know what to think. Does he really love me? What has my life came too? I begin to cry some more and it hurts. My heart hurts. The things he said. Him. You know what, screw him. Screw him for making me sad. Screw him for making me fall in love with him.

Screw him for making me see what real love is like.