title from Leona Lewis
I watch on my peripheral as Hope make her way toward Chance’s room, still keeping a watchful eye on Dean.
I knew that Eric and Cole didn’t trust him, but I never expected this.
The moment I heard the door slammed close I knew I had much to explain.
I wasn’t planning to tell her now, maybe not during an emergency or in a couple of years, when I finally had the guts to do so.
Not like this.
Never like this.
Cole and I were on our way back after a day of well deserved alone time.
I was dead tired but I for some reason I wanted to come home to the Pierce. There was an unsettling feeling in me that didn’t sit quite right with me.
“You ok?” Cole asks me from the driver seat.
I turned to him from the window and forced a smile, “Just tired, that’s all.”
He chuckled, “Can’t blame you there.”
I rolled my eyes and hit him on the arm playfully. He caught my hand and kissed my knuckles again, just like he did earlier, and the whole day- only on other parts of my body.
Before I thought sex was the best sedation and pain killer, but somehow, the unsettling feeling was killing my bliss.
“Hey, what’s wrong?” Cole frowned.
“Your shaking.” He says, as he grabbed the coat that was hanging at the back of his seat and set it over my legs, trying to warm me up. I already had his hoodie on over the minimal clothing I planned to leave on earlier.
“God Jean, you’re shaking.” He says, about to pull over.
The moment he took my hand an image of Hope flickered to my mind, a very scared Hope.
“Hope…” I gasped.
“What? Where?” he looks around.
I’ve watched how Cole and Hope grow close the past few days. I don’t know if it was because Cole lets her do anything she pleases and calmly explains to her when its too much.
Or it can be the connection. I thought and my wolf growled in agreement.
I sighed and shook my head.
As long as I don’t think about it Cole wouldn’t find out.
“Sorry, I just…” I sighed and closed my eyes as Cole finally pulled over and gave me his full attention.
“Baby, what’s wrong?” he asked worried.
“It’s nothing…” I forced myself to say and looked up at him, wishing now that I didn’t.
His face was covered with fear, disappointment and guilt.
“Are you regretting that…”
“No!” I sat up quickly and reached for him, wanting to be in his arms again, “God, no Cole… never think of that, please…”
I heard him gave a sigh of relief.
“Then what’s wrong?” he ask after pulling away from my hug and looking me deep in my eyes.
“I don’t know…” he rolled his eyes, “I’m serious Cole, I’m antsy and nervous all of a sudden.”
“Maybe your just hungry.” He said. “Scared of what your brother will tell you once you step through his door?”
I stared at him thinking of what he just said.
I knew his scent with mine was more prominent now. It was all I can smell on me after all, but it isn’t that at all.
Eric and Serenity would probably throw a party once they found out we’ve made ourselves official and exclusive.
“No, it’s something else…” I close my eyes, then another flash of Hope crying flickered in my mind. “Something’s not right.”
“We need to get home.” I said.
\Then as if on cue, Eric’s voice confirmed my guess.
Hearing Hope call for her mother broke my heart, I knew it wasn’t me she was expecting.
She waiting for Serenity.
But that was my fault wasn’t it? I begged Serenity to do the impossible.