Denying Affinity (Affinity #1)

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"I need to tell you something." I finally broke the silence.

Luke Dashiel removed his eyes from the flat screen television and transferred it to me. His eyes were filled with adoration and a warm smile covered his lips. "Ano yon?"

I was always straightforward. I never hesitated speaking my mind and saying what I want to say. I never cared about what they would feel for my bluntness. But right now, I couldn't even find it in me to move my lips.

It's been exactly two weeks and I'm very much running out of time. I should have done this weeks ago. It's what I'm supposed to do. I need to tell him, but I can't. I don't want to, but I must.

Seeing him looking at me like I'm everything to him is one of the reasons why I couldn't bring myself to get it over with. It makes my heart swell with both happiness and pain. It sends a hardcore pinch on my heart.

Sa nakaraang dalawang linggo ay wala akong ginawa kundi ang subukan sabihin sa kanya ang matagal ko nang dapat sabihin pero sa tuwing tatangkain ko nang ibuka ang bibig ko ay walang lumalabas mula doon. Kapag nakikita ko na ang mga mata niya na masinsin na nakatingin sa akin ay nanghihina na ako.

He unravels me everytime he looks at me with his expressive eyes. I always drown whenever I see the depth of his stares.

Aside from trying to grow some guts, I was busy for the past days too. Ngayon lang ulit kami nakapunta sa unit niya. He sent me a text, asking if I want to watch some movies in his condo. He also said that he was going to give me something. I agreed, thinking that I'd be ready to tell him about it today, I wanted to be ready. But...

Hinigpitan ko ang pagkakapulupot ng braso ko sa gilid ng bewang ni Luke Dashiel. Isiniksik ko ang mukha ko sa dibdib niya. My hand fisted his shirt as my jaw clenched.

"Avis?" tawag sa akin ng maamong boses niya. Inangat ko ang mukha ko bago pa siya mag-alala at ngumiti para sa kanya.

"Savion and I have a night out this Friday." I wanted to cringe as soon as the words escaped my mouth.

Ibinalik ko ang mukha ko sa dibdib ni Luke Dashiel at mariin na isinara ang nga mata. Kinagat ko ang ibabang labi ko.

I still can't do it.

"With?" his chest rumbled against my face. I moved my face and flattened my cheek on his chest to look at him. He was giving me n inquisitive look.

"Just us two." kaswal na sagot ko.

"Can I come?" inosenteng tanong niya. Napangiti ako. Luke Dashiel is very clingy. Hindi niya sinasadyang maging overbearing. He's possessive and he doesn't know it. By nature na sa kanya ang dalawang qualities na iyon. It made him cute.

I shook my head, pursing my lips to hide my smile. "Hindi pwede. Girl time yon and you're obviously not a girl."

Sadness filled his face. He didn't even bother to hide his disappointment. Nakita ko na gusto niyang umangal pero hindi na lang niya itinuloy. Damn it, this kid is so cute. I'll never be immune.

Hindi na ako nakapigil at inabot na ang labi niya para halikan. His body slight jumped in surprise but later on softened. His hand placed on my waist moved to gently caress my skin. I smiled when his tongue slipped inside my mouth. I sucked his upper lip before breaking the kiss.