Tutoring The QuarterBack

Chapter 63 ( Tutor no more )

Jax
When I arrive at Bliss' house she is waiting for me down stairs. She looks cute like always .
But I try not to notice .
If I do look at her for too long then I will not go threw with what I came here for .

             " so what subject do you want to start with 1 st " she asks me

     I just look at her I don't speak and I feel like a really stupid person I look down at my shoes .

              " Jax we have to talk I am your tutor " she says in a playful way

           " About that " I stutter
She crosses her arms

             " I talked to the principal and we agreed that I am doing alright , I only did this to get close to you I don't really need your tutoring " I tell her

Her eyes fill up I don't want to cause her no pain but I have to do this .

  She has caused me so much pain she might not had always realize but she did .

               " It is strange I liked you and schemed to get to you and You lied and schemed to get away from me " I tell her
Her mouth flys open
Then she says

            " It is not like that I just "

         " You don't want to be with me so much that you invented a fake boyfriend " I interrupt

         She is full on crying now , but I won't show her that I care

             " Bliss it is over so we will just let it go , but I can't be around you that is why I don't want you to be my tutor." I state

She wipes her tears and it is breaking my heart

                    " I never meant to hurt you but I was trying to protect myself " she says

          " Protect yourself from what ?"
I ask

She don't answer

She looks scared .

            " Answer me " I demand

             " from you" she shouts

        " from me I would never do anything to hurt and I might have messed up but it was never Something I    Did on purpose ." I state

             " you are right , " she says

            " but you are also a quarterback " she adds

       " what dose mean , what is your deal with football did you date another football player and he broke your heart " I yell

Then I think I hope her mother and. Father is not home

               ". No but I seen them in action" she says

          " you can't judge me on others actions just because we play the same sport ." I say a little bit calmer than earlier

                 " you want to be just like them all just like Foster " she says

           " You really hate this boy who you don't know and somehow the future of our relationship has something to do with him , that is why you broke up with me before and. You bring him up now it makes no sense" I say to her

                  " Just leave " she screams

Her voice is so loud that it scares me .
I take a step back .

                 " I will leave I need to be away from you " I say
Though I don't believe it I need to be with her , but she won't let that happen and she don't want to be with me or other wise she would not made up a fake boyfriend to not be with  me .

            " Go on you are doing what I want you particularly made me tutor you both times so " she says

Her words cut me like a knife .

I know she was not happy about tutoring me either time , but I thought after we did at 1 st tel he. She started likening it and likening me .
And this time I did go behind her back but I thought she was getting better with the ideal .

      I just look at her and shake my head .
Maybe I don't know her maybe I never did .
Maybe she is just mad .
Or maybe she is just hurt now .

But she has hurt me time and again .
I leave .

I feel so upset that I don't really know how I feel .

I love her but I am so mad at her .
I am sad about not being around her but I am proud that I picked up for myself .

My walk home don't help my thoughts are all over the place. The crips air feels nice but I am hurting so I can't enjoy it .

When I get home I can hear my parents in their  bedroom. I don't want to know what they are doing all I can hear is laughing .

I put in my ear phones and out loud music on .

Parts of me is happy for my parents ,but I am still scared he will hurt her again

         I think at 1st my father made a horrible mistake but then to numb the pain he kept on going out with different women .

Maybe I should be like that it is not like I want to
But it would have to feel better than this ache in m heart .

And it would not be cheating if I don't make them my girlfriend , I could probably just go out with them in one date .
When I was with Paisley girls would try to get my all the time and a few did when I was with Bliss but I never even looked at another girl while I was with Bliss .

I did flirt with girls while I was with paisley.

So all I would have to do is talk to them flier a little and I could get a date .

I get my phone and go on Instagram and like every cute girl pic I see .

Then I go on snap and I snap a few hot girls messages .
I wait to see if the reply

It takes maybe 30 seconds
For them to answer me. Back

I start up conversation  and I being very flirty .

I got a date for Friday and Saturday.
Both girls are pretty but they are not Bliss .

This is what I have to do to get over her .

It was easy to get the 2 dates I just talk to them for a few minutes , then I asked.
Of course they know who I am they go to my school .

My mind goes back to when Bliss when I tried to introduce myself to her in the principal office she told me she knew who I was and how she said and how she looked at me made me think of course she knew who I was everyone in school knew me .
I have got to stop thinking of her .

Yea she is pretty
Yea I was in love with her

But it is over she don't want me and hopefully soon I will not want her .

A pretty dark headed girl just slid into my dms

So I message her back .
I never been fully single .
When I got with Paisley we was boyfriend and girlfriend immediately and the same with Bliss .
There was a few girl I had made out with before Paisley but it was like during spin the bottle and stuff .

  So maybe this could be fun .