Tutoring The QuarterBack

Chapter 61 ( False Hope)

                        Bliss
I can't believe that Grant kissed  me , it was not supposed to happen . I just know that Jax is hurt .
I am glad that I didn't see his face when Grant kissed me .
I can picture him . His expression going from mad to sad .
I have to find him .
I look all around I walk right into Grant .

              " Hey" he says
I am still mad at him he kissed me without my permission.
And I know Jax is hurt by it this was a bad ideal Thai fake boyfriend thing what was I thinking .

           " hey" I finally say

               " I am sorry I should have kissed you but Jax was being a jerk I just wanted him to believe it " he claims

             " I am sure he did I have to go find him " I say and move pass him

            " Wait why are you going to find him " he asks
And he looks confused

               " I think he maybe hurt and I don't want him to be " I say

            " whatever I am going home for
Tonight see you Monday in school " he says

He walks in manner that makes me think he is mad
But I don't have time to think if he is mad I have to find Jax

I see Eric and Cassie making out

I walk over and pull them apart

                " have y'all see. Jax " I ask
They both say no

I walk off fast but I can hear
Cassie ask why are you looking for him

                 " I will explain later" I yell back
I forgot Cassie thinks I am with Grant for real .

I look in every room in this house .

Then I see a door that I had not noticed before

It is a door that is in a room so I might have thought it was a closer but it looks more like a room so I go and I open it up and I see him sitting on the floor with a bottle in his hand .

He looks at me but he don't speak .
I sit down next to him .

        I feel nervous . His eyes are on me but I can't begin to imagine what he is thinking .

He probably hates me right now .

I hate myself right now .

I can't believe I made up a fake boyfriend and he kissed me on front of Jax .
I don't want to kiss Grant or anyone I just want to kiss Jax .
I know we should not be together but I just have to see he is ok .

             " Are you ok " I ask

         " Yea the love of my life has moved on and I get to watch them kiss like I just did for the rest of the year " he tells me

Love of his life .
His words makes me feel happy because that is amazing but also they break my heart because I can tell they are in pain .

          " It is not like that " I tell him

He take a drink from the bottle