Tutoring The QuarterBack

Chapter 58 ( Ignorant is Bliss ) 

Jax
I have been counting the minutes until I see Bliss ..
I never felt like this before but I love it and I can't wait until I actually get her back , I know now I will because Alex was never in the picture.
I really think she feels how I do . So I k ow it won't be long until I can help her out of her fear.

I skip down the stair case .

" Well son , you know you are a big enough boy that jumping around like that could tear up the house ." My mother says

" sorry I am just late " I tell her and walk out of the house

I am not late I am just excited to see Bliss.

I am sitting watching Bliss look over my paper
She is checking it extra hard tonight.

" It is all correct,looks like you don't need me " she tells me

I laugh and say
" Oh I need you in more way than one ."

She hands me the papers and gets up .

I know she is nervous but I am not sure why I know she was a little mad at me for going to the principal and telling them that I need her help .

I am doing ok with my school work but I am using it to try to get close to her , and she knows it , that is why she is mad .

" I am going out so you can show yourself out " she tells me

I jump up ,

" Where are we going " I ask
She turns around and slightly pushes my chest my heart skips a beat from her touch .

" I am going to Cassie's you are going where ever "she tells me

" I am sure Cassie won't mind ,or we can go to get something to eat my treat ." I beg

" No thank you " she says rudely and moves her hand .
It is strange how I feel sad that she moved her hand .

But why did she keep her hand on me for so long .

This is to complicated, and too hard .and she is being rude to me .
              " ignorant is  Bliss " I joke
But she don't get it .

Maybe I should just leave give her time to cool down obviously she is not cool with her tutoring me again I know I went behinde her back I could just feel I was losing her

  I walk toward the door but before I reach it .

                 " Wait " she says loudly
I stop immediately.
I knew she felt the same way
I turn around to ding a scared look on her beautiful face I rush to her out of concern.
My arms go to her face and waist .
               " What is wrong " I ask

She gently pushes me away and then she starts walking back and forth .
What is going on with her .

                    " Just tell me what ever it is we can make it threw it " I tell her and I believe that

          " That is just it we can't " she says
There is something about the way she says it , it is like she no for sure that we can't make it sure .

                " Jax I am seeing someone " comes out of her mouth .

My heart feels like it actually stoped beating , I just stare for what feels like a hour but probably only 30 seconds.

             ". No no that can't be " I stutter

           " It is " she says
She seems unaffected but I just don't see how .

           " Bliss we Hooked up on winter break " I say

                " I know but this happened after " she tells me
It it only been. A few days

                 " Who "I simply ask

          " Grant Overly " she answers

            " Grant Overly" I mirror her words

              She just nods

    Flashes of Grant sitting next to her at the bonfire goes threw my mind I knew he wanted her then

                 " Did the
Is happening. On the winter trip " I ask

               " No I met him then I had never really met him before we sort of became friends then when we got back we hung out and then it just happened " she says
               ". But I really like him " she adds
I feel like throwing up and crying at the same time but I will not do that not in front of her .

Another flash of Grant and Bliss sitting together in the bud on the way from winter trip is playing in my head .
That was when I kissed Monica.

Maybe I deserved this .

Ok I hurted  Bliss when I kissed Monica so now she hurt me b going out with Grant but this don't mean nothing.
I know she said she liked him but she probably only went out with him because I kissed Monica .
                    " Bliss lets call it fair " I tell her

           " What " she says

                 " I am sorry I don't mean to hurt you but I just want you to know because we are getting serious " she says

               " serious how can that be " I yell

         " It just been quick he is already calling me his girlfriend " she tells me

I don't think I can hold it all in .
A tear ties to escape
And throw theeatens to come out .

I just bolt out of there
I can hear her scream my name ,
But I don't stop .
I keep on going . She made her choice and it is. Grant overly .

As soon as I get a little pass her house I can't hold on the throw up no more , I hurl right on Bliss's neighbors lawn .

I am proud of my self for not throwing up in her house or in front of her .

But as soon as I was not facing Bliss my eyes had tears running down them .

When I get home I shut the door . I am thankful that my mother has a pottery class.
I would. It want her to see me like this .

So she moved on and they are already boyfriend and girlfriend.
How did this happen so quick
Oh yea because I kissed Monica .
I know if I had not done then Bliss would not had jump into being with Grant .

She still probably wouldn't be with me .

I can't have lost her .
I am not sure what to do .
I had a plan but I was not expecting
Grant to be in the picture .
Now I don't know what to do .

One thing is for sure I can't give up on her .
I love her and I know that for certain.
If not I would be feeling like this
This is love .
But k don't know how to convince Bliss
That I am the one for her .

I know she is the one for me and I will prove it to her some how some way .