TW: Self-deprecative/Suicidal thoughts, breakdown
AN: The playlist is the same and, idk why, but the playlist is not getting linked. Sorry.
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A few songs had continued playing in her ears as the realization buried Maddy under her pillow and blankets. She cried her eyes out in silence thinking, i'm unforgivable... i want to die now... Now it's obvious why she won't even pick up my phone.
Contrasting the high tempo songs that were playing, a mellow one began.
--> 'Sparks' by Coldplay
It felt like the hug she wanted so desperately, her breathing calmed down. Her tears still flowed out and got soaked into the sheets.
By the time Chris Martin began singing, her mind became silent for the first time that day. The tears receded.
Her brain became a plain white wall and she became nothing more than a kid crying in the corner.
"My heart is yours
It's you that I hold on to
Yeah, that's what I do
And I know I was wrong
But I won't let you down
Oh yeah I will, yeah I will, yes I will"
Is he fucking spying on me???
...There were sparks between us weren't there?
The most you've ever had with anyone.
I really really fucked this up.
Yeah, cuz no one will ever love you like this again.
What do I do?
Say sorry. There's nothing more you can do.
The ball is in her court and all you can do is beg her to change the direction it swings.
--> 'We'll Never Have Sex' by Leith Ross
Really? Is it worth... everything?
Letting go of your pride? Yes.
Dying? No.
Her tears stopped completely.
But... I'm scared.
Of what? Rejection? Well, you kinda deserve it.
More like, hella deserve it
ANYWAYS... don't you want your angel back in your life?
Isn't she the one who kissed you just to kiss you and not to take you home?
It was simple and it was soft, I didn't think love could be like that.
Maybe because it wasn't love, amiright?!
Yeah
NO. It was real love. The kind that you saw in The Notebook, the kind that got her hands bloody for you.
You know that if you told her that she could never touch you, she would've still come over and said you looked lovely.
YOU ARE READING
Maddy and Me
Romance"I really do love you. It didn't start in a good place, I admit, but these feelings I've grown for you are very much real!" said Maddy, crying. "And how am I supposed to know if that's true? This entire thing could just be in my head! Maybe you foun...
