Hold on || dreamnotfound

chapter thirty two

dream's point of view

tw: main character death

jkjk dw haha nobody dies here

tw: throwing up, little panic, swearing

It was midday when I finally woke up, still laying in George's arms. His hand was occasionally brushing through my hair while he seemed to scroll through Twitter. It took me a few seconds to realize the tense atmosphere in the room, Sapnap sitting at the end of our bed.

"Guys? Is everything alright?" I asked, trying to take a glance at George's phone, but he immediately turned it away. What the hell was going on?

"Yup. How about we go to the beach today? Just to get some time off of our phones and enjoy the great weather a bit?" Sap asked but I was already annoyed at their tries to switch the subject.

"What were you looking at?" I wanted to know while sitting upright. George grimaced shortly before putting on a really poorly acted smile that didn't even make his eyes light up. As if I couldn't see the difference between fake or real smiles on his face...

"Don't treat me like I can't handle some bad news!" I huffed and searched for my own phone, which wasn't where I left it yesterday.

"Dream... I- I think you shouldn't worry about it. Let's just have some fun," Sap's voice rang out, which caused my thoughts to start racing.

What the hell were they keeping from me?

The glances the two shared made my chest tighten, but the panic I was feeling wasn't as bad as the anger that shot through my veins.

I needed them to stop treating me like I was going to break every fucking second!

"Dream, calm down," George said, his hand stroking through my hair again to calm me down, but I snapped.

"No! You! You out of all people should fucking tell me what's going on! I trust you so much, George, at least I did after last night... but you can't even tell me what you were looking at on your phone? Why should I believe you you really love me when you do this the next morning?!" I screamed, forcefully grabbing my head.

"Just tell me for fucks sake! I can't handle people lying to me and both of you know that! So just- just- why?"

My screams slowly morphed into sobs as I started gripping my hair.

Why the fuck did they need to hide things from me?

"Dream, hey... I need you to breathe alright? We will show you but please calm down first," George whispered while pulling me close and resting my head on his chest. He carefully removed my hands from my head and held them in his own, pressing a soft kiss onto them.

"Can you hear my heartbeat?" he asked and I quickly nodded, listening to its even rhythm until I was able to sit back up again.

My questioning gaze brushed them both, before settling on George's face. It hurt me that he tried to keep something from me which was obviously upsetting both him and Nick.

They shared another glance before Sapnap finally spoke up.

"Twitter is going crazy..." he carefully said, still not revealing what was actually going on.

"And that means?" My voice sounded strangely dull.

"It already got taken down and we're trying to report everyone that reposted it," he continued on rambling, the panic in my chest growing again.