YOU ARE THE SUN IN MY DARK NIGHT

CHAPTER 13

The leisure house was beautiful. It had a two story building, a lake, a flower garden and a playground. There were a guard, a gardener, a driver, a cook and a house help. It took us one hour by taxi to reach there and we reached just in time for lunch. After lunch we decided the menu of dinner and Nabarun gave money to the cook to buy the necessary things. Then we roamed in the garden, the flowers were well maintained, there were some fruit trees as well. Nabarun was talking and laughing with other two boys, but I wanted to walk with him alone holding his hand.

So I said, "I want to rest here for few minutes, you can continue walking."

Nabarun asked, "are you okay?"

"Yes, I am. I want to enjoy these beautiful flowers for some time."

They walked away. I sat there and collected myself.

WE ARE HERE TO ENJOY TOGETHER. I CANNOT BEHAVE LIKE A OFFENDED WIFE. TOMORROW MORNING WE WILL GO BACK AND I MAY NOT COME HERE AGAIN. NABARUN IS MINE. WHY SHOULD I FEEL JEALOUS?

I stood up and went to the lake. But what did I see? There was a small boat in that lake and they were on that. But I became furious to see that Nabarun was rowing the boat happily and singing a boatman's song. Dreams and realities were so different.

Surojit called me, "come Nishith, Nabarun is rowing the boat."

Nabarun had brought the boat to the side and I boarded it. "I did not know you can row a boat."

"I never mentioned that," Nabarun said.

"We did not even know that he can sing that well. Please continue your singing," Snehangsu said.

"Suro, do you bring your girlfriends here?" Nabarun asked.

"What? My uncle will kill me," said Snehangsu, "this is a family holiday house".

"My cousin brother has an empty flat at Golf Garden. We usually go there for parties," Surojit added.

"Do you want to go there with your girlfriend or girlfriends?" Snehangsu asked, "How many girlfriends do you have?"

"I don't have any girlfriend, I was just curious." Nabarun was embarrassed.

"With your looks, you can have many girlfriends. Or do you prefer boys? You can get both. I am not into men, otherwise I would like to date you. Anyway, you can go there, but on weekdays. Weekends are for my cousin." Surojit winked.

Nabarun laughed loudly and started singing a love song of fisher men. It was known to everyone that Surojit was a playboy. Nabarun was interested about his affairs with girls.

IS HE DATING MORE PEOPLE? BOYS? GIRLS? OR MAY BE BOTH. DOES HE REALLY LOVE ME? OR I AM JUST ONE OF THEM? I AM AN AVERAGE LOOKING BOY. HOW CAN HE LOVE ME? MAYBE HE JUST WANTS TO ENJOY WITH ME.

After dinner we watched a horror movie in their theater room. I never liked horror movies, but I did not objected. To make it more effective Snehangsu switched off all lights of the hall. We sat in a row. I was at the extreme left of that row and Nabarun was next to me, then Surojit and Snehangsu.

After the movie started, Nabarun held my hands in his hands and leaned towards me and kissed my cheek. I was startled and said, "what are you doing? They will see."

He whispered in my ear, "they cannot. It is dark. You can come close to me if you feel scared."

The horror movie scared me a little bit and I moved closer to him. He wrapped my shoulders with his arm as we watched the movie.

Nabarun shared a room with me, others went to another room. When we became alone Nabarun closed the door and came near me.

"Now, there is no one, can I kiss you now?"

We both were under the influence of alcohol and I had mixed emotions. One half of me wanted to get close to him but another was warning me.

"What do you want?"

"I want to kiss you, baby."

"Only kiss?"

"I want to hug you and want to cuddle you."

"Nothing else?"

"I want your love baby. But you already love me. Don't you?"

"I love you Arun. But do you really love me?"

"Why are you doubting about my love for you? What have I done?"

"Nothing. Arun, what I am in your eyes?"

"You are the sexiest person I have ever seen in my life. See how hard I became." He took my hand and placed it on his hardness. I felt a sensation all over my body.

"So, you want to fuck me tonight?"

"I don't want to fuck you, I want to make love with you throughout my life. But at this moment I just want to kiss you, if you permit me to do so."

I remained silent for sometime as I did not know what to say. Nabarun came close to me and kissed my forehead, then said, "good night, baby". Then he laid down with his back towards me and covered himself with the blanket. I sneaked in his blanket and whispered in his ear, "where are my kisses?"

"Why can't you believe me baby? What have I done?" he turned towards me and looked into my eyes.

"I don't know. I am just scared of losing you."

"I will never leave you. Perhaps you will dump me one day."

I laughed and kissed him. He pecked all over my face and we slept cuddling each other.