The exuberance she emitted was lighting. In that moment i knew she was for me. The contrast between her red fiery hair and her cool calm face made her that more appealing to the eye. Her face was firm, confident and smug. Her eyes pale blue- grey in colour. She was utterly breathtaking as she layed on my lap. She continued to read her book as i caressed her hair. A cool breeze brushed through as we sat in the garden swinging back and forth on the swing.
Although my face looked calm my mind was lost in thoughts. High in panic. I couldn't help it but felt threatened, afraid, like im losing her.
Why are you leaving me. There are so many universities in the country,why go to France. Why not somewhere i could see you everyday. I know all those French man will be fighting for your attention and it pains me that i won't be in a proximity where i could hook my arms around your waist to show them that you're mine.
What will happen when you meet somebody better than me? One that won't cause you so much stress. Who will love me apart from you? ...............
********end of flashback******
Every corner of this house held a memory about her. I have had to tolerate it for over one week now because my mom doesn't want me to leave. News got to her that i was with girl in bed. Damn you Beth and your disloyalty. No matter how hard i try to convince her that i was only with a friend, she doesn't want to hear it. So im locked in here. I return to my room hoping to escape this memories that have haunted me for all this days i have been here.
*******flashback******
I watched as she slept beside me. I have developed a creepy habit of watching her while she is sleeping. So gorgeous and mine. So perfect, if only i could show her off to the world.
"I want to be successful on my own Jack" is all i hear everyday.
"Jack if they know im dating you, all my achievements will be credited to you. Media will say im successful only because YOU are my boyfriend. I don't want that, i want a name for myself , by myself."
Apparently im blocking her success.
Apparently im selfish and only think about myself and my career.
Apparently i am a chauvinistic bastard and i want to tie her down.
What if she meets a man who gives her undivided attention in Paris? One that did not challenge her stubbornness everytime. After all i have done to her she wont think twice before leaving me. I can't let that happen.
The knock on my door alerts me that the breakfast i asked them to prepare is here. My mom's servants are reliable afterall. They place the tray on the table and leave. My plan is set.
I kiss her all over her face until her eyes fluttered open followed by a smile.
"Morning " she says sweetly with her raspy morning voice.
"Morning "
"What's all that?" She asks after noticing the food on the table.
"Our breakfast ."
"Mmmh Mr Romantic " she says placing a peck on my cheek. "Let me freshen up, give me a sec " she says and leaves the room.
Jack breath this will work out. Why are you nervous, you are Jack Bolten. Today you make her yours.
While we are busy eating quietly enjoying the serenity, i could feel the awkwardness that lurked in the silence. Its been hard trying to patch up the distance that has continued to grow between us.
"You okay?" She asks while holding her cup of coffee.
"Yes" i say and smile "Actually i have something for you." I add and open the drawer taking out the little black box that contained a jewel that i spent a fortune on. A jewel that holds power and meaning .
As it came into view, the little excitement that was dancing in her eyes is replaced by shock and nervousness. No words, absolute silence as she analysed the little black box i held in hand. The exact moment i opened the box her eyes shot up and stared into mine. In the continued silence i take out the sparkling jewel out of the box. With my other hand i take the coffee she held in hand and place it aside while she sat perplexed.
Slowly i take her left hand and stare at it for a good minute before slipping onto her finger the ring. We both stared at this act as it happens. The world around us absorbed by it, completely non - existent to us. Before the ring completely sits on her finger, her godly hand was snatched away from my hold. She takes off the ring and starts breathing heavily. Fury burnt through her i could feel it
"Jack i know what you are trying to do and its not happening." She calmly says but i could sense the anger laced around her tone.
"What's wrong with what im trying to do? ........There is absolutely nothing wrong wrong in what im doing" I spit back calmly in a whispery tone. No need to alert the entire house that we are somehow fighting.......... again.
"Jack i know what you are trying to do." She doesn't even make the effort to quieten her voice.
"What the hell is wrong with you Jenny?"
"Your petty acts won't stop me from going to Paris to pursue my dream. Why do you want to tie me down?"
"What?! Is that what you're saying ? All i want is just to marry you, is that a crime wh................."
"Oh and make me a house wife in the process." She cuts in.
"What?!"
"This is not about you loving or wanting to marry me. We both know how you detest the idea of marriage. This is about your ego and selfishness. Its about your insecurities ......"
"Don't you dare go there" i say feeling frustrated.
I could see the uncertainty in her eyes, the fear that with the ring i presented i would have power over her. My sweet fiery wanna be feminist. She knows how to push all the wrong buttons.
I should calm down. She is freaking out, i guess this is how all girls react to a proposal.
"Jack we are still young. I am twenty two years, i don't want to rush into such commitments."
"Jenny we are not getting married tomorrow okay, calm down." I say this in my most soothing voice. My face nearing her horrified one. Her face looked fresh with her fiery hair tied back into a high pony tail.
"I promise." I whisper and place a trail of sweet kisses from her lips down to her neck. After that hug her, comforting her.
"My sweet little feminist" i whisper in her ear . I could feel her calming down.
"Im proposing because I want to spend the rest of my life with you."
We release from our embrace and looked into each other's eyes
"I love you."
"I love you too." She says in agreement.
As we agreet on this i took her hand again and started slipping the ring on her finger again saying a few words in a husky whispery voice.
"Im not tying you down, i don't want to hold you back. I just want you to remember that you are my world . And now my fiance."
"Jack im not ready for that. I don't want to be you fiance......... yet. I could wear it as a promise ring." She smiles slightly.
"Think of it or call it whatever you like. All i know is that we are engaged." I sat grinning like a freak.
********* end of flashback********
It feels like it happened a hundred and twenty years ago, infact it feels unreal, completely non-existent. I actually proposed, kinda.
The memories are becoming unbearable. Everyday i spend in this country house shined a light on an old memory. It sucks, it makes me feel bad for the way i have been acting.
I have been acting like she doesn't exist, now that im here i remember all she has done for me and what she means to me.
Aaaaaaand Rosy.........
I feel so guily that i have been ignoring her as much as i can. The fact that she hasn't called or sent a text hurts, i don't know why. Im a jerk. Why do i have to be so complicated, i always complicate everything.
I say this and pick my car keys. If i stay in this house for another minute i will go crazy.
I walk out of the house in my black jeans, white t-shirt and denim jacket. Although it's early, sun was out so i take out and wear my sunglasses .
"Meek get me the Ferrari!" I say to my mother's driver. He doesn't hesitate and a few minutes later the beauty is packed infront, he gets out and i get into the driver's sit.
"Meek, tell my mother that i left. I'm going back to Mosselbay and i will be driving myself back, tell her im sorry for taking her car." I say seriously. I was not in a good mood and it was clear.
"But sir............."
"That suit looks nice on you by the way. Bye Meek" i say, smile and drive away.
The windows were down and i was surrounded by the green of the countryside. I switched on the radio. I was the only car in the road and it felt amazing. I zoned out and just kept driving .
"And now on 98.2 FeelIt FM the hour you have been waiting for. Yes we are about to travel back in time. Playing our olden jams. Luther Vandross, Lionel Richie, Prince you name them all. Now we are going to play Bryan Adams - Everything i do, i do it for you. Enjoy" the radio presenter says and the sound fills the car.
The lyrics, the rhythm , i heard and felt everything.
15:36
I'm some how driving into the a parking lot of Roe's hostel. So far I have just been driving without thinking. My heart led me here. I must be honest that freaks me out a bit but i just go with the flow. I get out and walk straightto her room, completely ,ignoring the attention and the peole following me.
Knock knock
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