*the italics are a song called come home by one republic, and i posted this on the soundtracl book i made for 94 mixtape, and little did u guys know i post little chapters there, and only the readers who read that get to read them lmao, bc no one reads it so yeah check that out*
plus this is a short chpt, bc its a filler lmao
i wont port the next chapter until this gets 150 votes or 100 comments + the first chapter of the prequel will be up by monday :))))
((Michael's POV))
I remember when Bella and I would just lie down on the couches blaring music in the walls of our tiny apartment, while neighbours complain on and on, thinking if they would complain enough about us, the owner would kick us out the building. Unfortunatlely for them, my dad owns the fucking place
Hello world
Hope you're listening
Forgive me if I’m young
For speaking out of turn
There’s someone I’ve been missing
I remember when she'd sing. Not obnoxiously loud, but to herself. As if no one was ever listening to her. She'd start off mumbling the words to herself, then she'd start singing quietly. She'd always stay at the same volume, but i always wish she hadn't.
I'm home alone. Not knowing whats right and wrong anymore. I made the worst fucking descision leaving her there. And now i wonder, what the fuck do i do now? She was the only one i got, yeah I have dad but what does he really care for his only son who ended up being a fucking bus driver?
Even though Bella was always here, but kept herself away from me, I still liked the prescence of; her. The times she kept herself isolated was the times i felt useless. She kept pushing me away. And it fucking hurt.
I hate that I'm always saying the wrong words. I say but never think. I dont think about the possible consenquenses of what could be.
I think that they could be
The better half of me
They’re in the wrong place trying to make it right
But I’m tired of justifying
So I say to you..
Cathy says she'dbeing taken care of. But is this really what she would want? I fucking stabbed her with a needle for fucks sake.
I dont trust whatever the hell i'm ptting her through and thats the truth.
I dont ever want her to leave me, and for her losing her memory..wouldnt she lose me too?
[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
Right now there's a war between the vanities
But all I see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
So come home
Oh
I wish she'd fucking come home already. I miss seeing her tired eyes everyday. And I fucking miss when she'd give me the smallest smiles.
I know she could pull through, because that's Bella, she always finds a way out.
And i want her to come home.
[Verse 2]
I get lost in the beauty
Of everything I see
The world ain’t half as bad
As they paint it to be
If all the sons,
All the daughters
Stopped to take it in
Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin
It might start now, yeah
Well maybe I’m just dreaming out loud
Until then...
I'm going mentally insane. I'm mentally unstable. Physically unstable. I dont think i can live without her. I cant take this anymore.
I love Bella.
I love her with every inch of my fucking soul; if i even have one.
I get so lost, into thinking about her. The flashes of her warm smiles, and the way her eyes would flutter when she slept.
I'm insanely in love with her
[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
Right now there's a war between the vanities
But all I see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
Ever known
So come home
Oh
Come home Bella.
[Interlude]
Everything I can’t be
Is everything you should be
And that’s why I need you here
Everything I can’t be
Is everything you should be
And that’s why I need you here
So hear this now...
I always thought that she'd be the only one hurting because of this. Because of what I've done to her. Every fucking visit i get from seeing her. I'm losing her. And I'm losing myself too.
The way her eyes would look blank and gray.
The way she would talk in the same monotone voice kills me.
She didnt get better.
Not even a little bit. And I fucking made a mistake by sending her there. And I'm going to get her out.
[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
Right now there's a war between the vanities
But all I see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
Ever known
So come home
Come home
She's my home and I'm hers.
And we both need to fucking come home.
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so recap, bellas going all ape shit emo/mental bc of all the memories coming back to her. and she wants it to stop, and she sorta has the descision, of either keeping her memories or nah (next chapter)
and michael, sorta is going a little crazy bc he's v guilty about sending bella to the cure centre and he know confesses that he loves her more than just a "sister like person" and he wants to get her out
and luke is obviously fucked up about all this, bc he was a part of sending her there and he still loves her and all that. and hes v upset that bella just remembers him as a student at her school, and he's very heart broken, plus he still feels like a complete ass from doing whatever he did when they first broke up (it will show in the prequel)
and cathy just got mixed up in all this, and shes bellas half aunt, and she feels like shit for putting her through all this pain too, and shes helping mikey and luke, of whatver theyre thinking about doing
and stacey, became a hooker to .. lmao jk
and mr.cale became an extreme drugdealer .. lmao jk he works part time at walmart and gives out free timbits to homeless children.
any questions from the characters + me i will answer them which is down below :)
bella
cathy
mikey
luke
ash
cal
stacey
mr. cale
bellas dad
me (author)