"... I sit by myself, talking to the moon... Trying to get to you"
(NEW JERSEY BOYS SUPPORTERS YOU KNOW THAT THIS SONG HITS DIFFERENT)
It's been two weeks...two weeks since Mattia ended things with me..
Two weeks since I've even spoken a word to him.. He would occasionally say a "hello" or a "how are you?" but I would ignore him..
He has also been sending me a lot of texts.. But I haven't even looked at them once..
They probably are going to make me feel worse than I already do..
I also managed to switch seats in every class me and Mattia have together..
Want to guess who he's sitting with now..?
Violet.. Yes.. I guess their little "Fling" has started again...
Does it hurt..?
Yes.
Am I able to do something..?
No.
I entered the classroom.. It was last period and we had English..
In this class, I sit alone .. At the very back of the classroom, kairi and Alejandro are sitting at the desk right next to mine.
I was drawing in my sketchbook.. Drawing really helps me get my mind off.. My life.. It's a way of relaxing..
"Goodmorning class!"
Mrs Hall said as she walked in the classroom.. I didn't even look up at her.. Didn't care enough to..
"Mattia and Violet... You guys are late"
I heard her say and that caused my head to shot up...
And after two whole weeks.. My eyes met his beautiful eyes..
"Sorry, we were busy"
Violet said smirking..
But Mattia didn't say anything.. His attention was on me..
Damn he really moved on in a time spam of two weeks..
This is why I avoided looking at him.. Because every time I look into his eyes.. I remember him looking at mine and telling me that he loves me..
But the way I was looking at him right now.. Actually The look I was giving him right now.. It was different.
It showed pure disgust.
"Well I'm letting you go with this one but , don't be late again"
The teacher said.. Mattia's eyes didn't leave mine..
That was till I shook my head and paid attention back to my scetchbook..
"Mattia stop daydreaming and go to
your seat!"
I heard Mrs Hall say making the class laugh a bit..
"Sorry miss"
He excused himself and sat next to Violet..
I sighed and looked at Alejandro & kairi..
"Forget about him"
Alejandro whispered to me.
"What he said"
Kairi said pointing to Alejandro.. I slightly giggled and turned my attention towards the teacher...
How.. How did he move on so quickly.. Maybe it's because he never actually loved me..I've said it a lot of times and I'm going to say it again.
I was just a way to ease the pain he was feeling.. A way to fill the void he had.
I hate him.
It's okay though, he himself said the right people will not walk out of my life..
Guess he wasn't the right one.
I arrived home pretty late.. Because I went on a walk to clear my thoughts..
As soon as I entered my room I spotted a box on my bed.. I gulped..
Great... This day keeps getting worse and worse..
On my bed I had placed a box with Mattia's stuff.. I was going to give it to him but I never really.. Got the chance to?
Inside the box, there were a bunch of his belongings...as well as some silly but cute pictures we took on one of those photobooths..on a separate bag there were a bunch of his clothes.. As well as "the famous" red hoodie.. Also The necklace he had given me for our 1 month anniversary.. That one hurt.
I dug in the box and found a bunch of crambled up papers.. I was confused at first but.. Then it hit me.. He used to write me little notes in class..
I smiled and started unfolding some of them..
You look beautiful today:)
Read one, I smiled and unfolded another one..
The way you smile is driving me crazy
I smiled once again and unfolded one more..
I luv you :)
I let a tear fall from my eye.. Fuck I thought I said no more tears for him.. I quickly put everything back inside.. But I kept the notes...
I stood up and started nervously walking around the room..
Then I decided to do something...
I grabbed my phone and the box.. And headed outside.
I soon arrived at the spot..
I rested my back on the tree and placed the box next to me..
I literally wanted to fucking burn the whole box or throw it off the edge..
I sat there, staring at the moon and the stars..
Hoping I had someone next to me..
A certain someone..
But he's gone and I have to realize that.
Life isn't like a fairytale or a high school movie love story..
But that's just life.
I just have to deal with it.
I stared at the moon as all the memories we had together flashed through my mind..
Our first little moment we had here.. Where he gave me his hoodie.. Our first kiss.. When he actually asked me to be his..
For fuck's sake why does it hurt so bad..?
I placed my head on top off my knees and bit my lip so I wouldn't let the tears fall from my eyes again..
That's when I heard a voice..
"Gabriella?"
I was startled by his voice.. I didn't want to turn around.. But I had to..
I slowly turned my head and was met with his eyes once again.. But he wasn't alone.
"What the fuck is she doing here? Did you invite her..?"
Said Violet with attitude.. Ugh fuck this..
I stood up, grabbed the box and started walking towards them.
"No he didn't.."
I whispered.. I approached Mattia.. He looked at me confused and upset.
"Since you came by, here's your stuff"
I said as I weakly smiled, I placed the box in his hands.. He looked down at it and back at me..
"Thanks.."
He whispered and I nodded..
"Well, have a fun night kids"
That was the only thing I said.. With that I smiled and walked away.. Before I was out of sight, I turned my head and looked back at them..
Mattia was still staring at me.. I sighed and shook my head..
Damn, he really brought her at our spot..
Thought he said he doesn't do relationships..
Guess that was his way of saying he lost feelings.
Okay can we all just appreciate how cute of a baby dino was 🥺?