Song of the Chapter- Stay ft Mikky Ekko
'But funny you're the broken one but I'm the only one that needed saving'
"You know what fool. I'm fucking inlove with you."
I looked up at Oscar with wide eyes. He wanted to spend the day with me. He took me to the beach.
He knew how much i loved it. How much it calmed me.
And then he said it.
I felt a sting in my heart. I didn't want to say it back. I didn't want to profess my love for him.
Because I knew he would change his mind once he found out about me.
But i was in too deep.
I was in too deep with him.
I wasn't drowning. I was floating in him and everything about him.
I loved him way before he knew he loved me. Way before i knew what it meant to be inlove.
"Guess what papi. I'm inlove with you too." I wrapped my arms around him and kissed him.
This kissed had so much meaning.
Passion
Love
Everything two people inlove should share.
It was all in that kiss.
I felt a tear run down my cheek.
These were the memories that haunted me.
Memories that turned into nightmares.
That taunted me.
I missed it.
I missed us
And with everything that happened tonight
All the things I shoved behind closed door.
Masked.
Was spilling out.
"Hi I'm Robyn, Welcome to Joe's Diner." I said with a smile on my face.
This was my very first job.
I needed the cash to buy myself a car.
Half from me and the other half from my mum.
And then I'd have my baby.
"You smile too much." My smile faltered a little bit as I stared at the boy infront of me.
He had a buzzed hair cut and he was just sat there looking at me.
"I didn't tell you not to smile. You have a beautiful smile."
I blushed at that.
"I'm Oscar." He held out his hand.
Did people still do that.
"Robyn, but most people call me Rhi." I shrugged.
"Well I'm going to call you Robyn."
That was when I fell inlove with him.
A gang leader
Too young to understand
But still managed to do it.
That was the day I knew if I had to spend forever with someone it would be with someone like him.
And over the years he proved that to be true.
But then everything came crashing down.
My spinning word stopped spinning.
Everything was happening so fast.
Everything bad was just unfolding.
His little brother was kidnapped.
The Prophets did a drive by and killed everyone.
Everyone i knew.
Everyone he did too.
He was stressing out.
He wanted to retiliate and fast.
He was acting out on pure anger, hurt and sadness.
He was not in that right mind to be making any decisions
But he was also not in the right mind to listen to anything I had to say
I was stressed he was stressed
I had things to get off my chest
But he hasn't given me the time to say anything.
I needed to tell him.
But he needed to avenge the dead.
I heard knocking at the front door.
I frowned.
I turned on the lights to see who was at the door.
That was my mistake.
The door was then kicked off the hinges and men in green walked in.
Prophets.
They grabbed me.
Beat me down.
Their fist connecting with my face and their feet with my whole entire body
They Kicked me
Even as I curled myself into a little ball.
Trying to protect myself
I needed to fight, I tried to fight but they were stronger than me.
They were going to rape me and then kill me.
I wonder who was going to find my body.
Was it going to be Oscar?
Would he feel guilty for ignoring me.
This was the grey that came with being affiliated with a gang, especially being a girlfriend of a gang leader.
You were a target.
I was the target
Just to get back at him.
Which is why I wanted nothing to do with my brother.
I felt myself slipping into darkness.
I needed to keep my eyes open.
They stopped kicking me.
I heard grunts
Followed by gun shots.
I couldn't see properly
My eyes was started to swell.
My vision blurry
Chico stood over me
"Fuck."he muttered bending down.
"You're bleeding fuck. Oscar's gonna fucking lose it."
My hands went to my stomach then lower. I frowned.
I touched in between my legs and brought my hand back up.
"Take me to the hospital." I was shaking.
This can't be..
"I cant-" He was going to protest.
"Take me to the fucking hospital Chico. I'm pregnant!"
He stared at me with wide eyes
I lost it.
I didn't even get the chance to enjoy it.
To tell him.
And i lost it.
That was the reason I left.
I was scared.
He couldn't protect me.
Losing my baby was the worse thing that could have happened to me.
It was a wake up call.
I couldn't live here anymore.
He had so much on his plate.
I didn't need me to be another thing for him to worry about.
It was the best thing to do.
I needed to distance myself from him.
He needed to do better.
(Edited)