Ryan
I didn't mean to...
You made me do it...
It was supposed to go another way...
I wasn't going to resort to anything drastic. Fate doesn't usually need something dramatic to occur to be realized, but I suppose this isn't a normal situation. With the world at an end, sometimes fate needs a little helping hand. And that's exactly what I have given it.
"This might not be what I planned," I whisper to myself as I squeeze my fists together, the knuckles on my left hand aching. "But it will be fine, this will all work out in the end."
There are going to be consequences at first. Things don't take a wild turn without there being some sort of emotional outbreak, but I need to remember the bigger picture. There is always a bigger picture out there, just waiting to be realized.
"At least she's safe," I remind myself. "That's the main thing now."
I keep my head down and wander through the camp, trying my best not to make eye contact with anyone. I'm sure that the moment I open my mouth, everyone will be able to tell I'm different, something has changed, then it'll send people on a witch hunt.
I'm already an outcast here. I don't want to make that worse. I've been hated for as long as I can remember. Probably since the day I was rescued which is ridiculous. People can't just assume that this is the only life we have. We can't ignore the life that happened beforehand. Just because it's a long distant memory now, doesn't mean it didn't happen.
Katie wanted me, long before Oliver, and she still does. He just won't let her go, that's all. Well, he's going to have to now, isn't he? I've left him with no choice. He isn't getting Katie back again and she will finally realize that she's mine.
"She is mine," I growl. "And she always has been."
I'm sure she's resentful because I didn't recognize it before, I always had someone else on my arm, but has she never seen a rom com? The guy never realizes right away. He always has to date the wrong woman, or women in my case, before seeing that who he wanted all along was under his nose the entire time...
Well, here I am, noticing at last, and I refuse to be ignored. Things might have to fall apart for better things to come together. I'm sure that's always the way.
"Me and you, Katie...me and you are meant to be. You'll see."
Thankfully, I make it back to my place without being disturbed so I can use the time to revel in my plan coming to fruition. Once I slam the door behind myself, the laugh bursts free from me. I might sound a little maniacal to an outsider, but that's because no one else knows what I've done and how long I've waited to be here.
No one else gets it, but they don't need to. After all, this is about me.
Me and her.