(Lisa pov)
As they continued walking up the road towards her car, Lisa found herself struggling to hold back her tears.
Or even more tears she should say.
Lisa closed her eyes and bit her lip. Breathing in and out, trying to keep herself under control. But the lump in her throat let her know any word she tried to utter, would just end in sobs.
She had tried to apologize again to Chaeyoung. That one, she was hoping would be a real apology. Since Lisa couldn't deny anything anymore...
Yet her apology sounded the exact same as her ones before. 'I am really sorry'. They were just statements...
But this time, being so close to crying, was different. Because she truly felt like she was going to have a break down. And Lisa couldn't.
She couldn't because she needed to drive home, lay in her bed, and let Chaeyoung talk to her about everything.
Do exactly what her baby wanted.
"Lisa?"
Nope. Ignore her. You're almost there.
They finally approached her car. Lisa opening the passenger side door for her and holding it open. Chaeyoung stepping up, but not in, looking at her.
"What is it? Babe?"
Lisa just shook her head and smiled sadly. Reaching a hand around and patting Chaeyoung's lower back, motioning to the car.
"O-Okay?"
Chaeyoung sighed and got reluctantly into the vehicle. She was looking at her the entire time she did.
Lisa felt Chaeyoung's eyes on her still as she walked around to the driver's seat. Moving her stuff that she had thrown in earlier to the backseat and starting the car.
The drive back was going to be silent. Lisa knew that. And also filled with the feeling of Chaeyoung watching her.
That part she didn't really mind though. Because she loved her and was happy knowing Chaeyoung wasn't mad at her. Or at least, angry enough not to care.
As Lisa continued paying attention to the road, she felt delicate hands creep onto her cheek. Chaeyoung wiping a lose tear away, caressing her face.
"Don't beat yourself up." Chaeyoung whispered. "It's me... that's really to blame."
Lisa glanced over to Rosie and caught her eyes. She shook her head and muttered "No" before paying attention to the road again.
How dare Chaeyoung say she was to blame. Lisa even knew it was her own.
"Lisa?" Chaeyoung spoke again. "Why won't you talk to me?"
Lisa ignored her question again. She really didn't want to, but she didn't have a choice. She was driving.
But they were almost home. Everything would be fine if they could just get up to the bedroom.
Chaeyoung suddenly scoffed and looked away from her. Lisa glancing over and seeing her with folded arms, looking out the window.
"Feels like some nice fucking déjà vu right now." Chaeyoung huffed. "You ignored me like this when you figured out I was Roseanne. I thought I pissed you off. Made you mad. But no, you just keep everything in, all your emotions. Yet you expect me to tell you everything about my damn self."
Lisa just listened to her as she continued the drive. Turning on to their road with slightly wider eyes than the previous seconds ago.
"You know, there's still a lot I haven't told you about myself. And with these past few weeks, I was thinking maybe it would be a good time to sit down and truly tell you about what I went through. Seeing how much closer we've got." Chaeyoung spoke quietly. "But then I see you get those fucking texts. And lie about them... straight to my face."
We're almost there Chaeyoung. Please wait. Just so I can speak... please. Let me apologize for this. Let me make this right.
"Maybe I'm not supposed to say anything else? Maybe I shouldn't say anything at all? Go back to being a mute? Seeing how much I've fucked up your life too."
"S-Stop..." she spoke quietly. Every fiber of her strength being used to keep everything in.
Lisa felt like a fish tank with a crack down it's center. One tap and it'd break.
"Stop what Lisa? Stop talking?" Chaeyoung questioned. "Is that my answer?"
"No!" Lisa yelled, tears escaping her eyes. She slammed a hand on the top of her steering wheel and bit her lip. "No Chae."
Chaeyoung didn't say anything else. Lisa just cried silently while pulling into the garage. Still focusing all her energy on not letting everything out.
Just small tears and sniffs.
Lisa opened the door. Slowly walking to Chaeyoung's side, just to see her opening the door herself.
"I've got it."
Chaeyoung's words stung in a type of pain Lisa couldn't really pin point. It wasn't rude of her to open her own door, but it was something Lisa would always do for her.
And Chae knew that. In turn, letting Lisa know.
They still weren't okay.
They both just stood there awkwardly. Lisa not knowing what to do or say. Chaeyoung not seeming to either.
So, Lisa turned and walked towards the door. Opening it slowly and being immediately greeted by bright lights and the smell of food.
Ami turning to her from her spot in the kitchen and releasing a worried breath.
"Lisa... you didn't tell me you'd be late." She spoke, walking over. "Sweetie? Were you crying? Is this about Chaeyoung? She mentioned something happened between you two."
Lisa just nodded.
"Awe, well why don't you go up and talk to her? I tried to get her to come down but she never answered me and I thi-"
Ami stopped talking when she seemingly saw Chaeyoung enter the room from behind her.
Lisa listened as the floor boards creaked from the girl who brushed past them and walked quietly up the stairs.
"Chae...?" Her mom spoke. Clearly confused. "How? She was here with me?"
"I... need to go." Lisa whispered, turning from her mom and walking up the stairs after Chae.
"Okay? Um... come down for leftovers then?" Her mom spoke. Lisa nodding as she trudged up the steps.
When Lisa entered their room, Chaeyoung was in the restroom. The sound of the sink running and crickets chirping filling the space.
She sighed and took off her jacket. Laying it down on the ground as she walked over to the bed and face planted her pillow.
The bathroom door creaked open quietly not long after. Lisa not bothering to look up as she listened to the sound of Chaeyoung's feet against the carpet.
The feeling of the bed dipping on her right as Roseanne's body filled the empty space.
Lisa wanted to look up, but she knew that Chaeyoung's face would probably send her over the cliff. The sea below would be purely made out of her own tears.
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean it." Chaeyoung whispered.
Lisa furrowed her brows into her pillow. Chaeyoung was... apologizing? "Hm?"
"About not talking. I... I know me talking is good. I don't want to become the person I was again. I want to be better."
Lisa flipped quietly around. Sitting up and looking over to Roseanne. An unreadable expression was on her face.
Lisa tried to figure it out, but the more she looked at Rosie, the more her heart hurt for making Chae go through this.
"I shouldn't have said what I said earlier. In the car."
"It's okay... I needed to hear it." Lisa smiled sadly. Light tears already streaming down her cheeks again.
"Why are you crying?" Chaeyoung asked her softly. Looking at her with soft and confused eyes.
"B-Because..." Lisa started, crying even more now. Like she knew she would. "It's all my fault."
"Lis-"
"It's all my fault. That we're like this." She cried. "I should have told you. I know that. I just wanted to protect you. And I thought I was. I r-really did babe."
"I know Lisa." Chaeyoung spoke with sad eyes. "I know."
"But y-you're still mad... and I'm the reason for it. And I never wanted to make you mad or sad. Especially hurt. But that's exactly what I did."
Her tears were big and cold whenever they would hit her skin. Lisa put her head in her hands and cried more. Trying to let everything out.
A minute or so going by as she did.
Slowly, a couple of arms found their way around her back and head, pulling her into an embrace.
She cried into Chaeyoung's shoulder as the Australian ran her soft fingers lightly through her hair and whispered softly to her.
Her voice reminding Lisa of cotton candy. Starting out dense but as soon as the words were taken in, it dissipated gently into what she could only feel was love.
"I am still mad. But not at you Lis." Chae began. "I'm mad at the situation. At Favors. At the world.
"I am disappointed in you... for lying." She added. "I can't really deny that. But I still love you. I always will."
"Even when I'm dumb?"
"Yes babe." Chaeyoung chuckled. "Even when you're dumb. Which is quite a bit actually. Are you sure you're going to pass the final exams?"
Lisa left Chaeyoung's hug and elbowed her. "Meany." She pouted. A light chuckle accompanying after as she looked at Roseanne.
"I won't forget about tonight, or the fact that you keep thinking that because you love me you can do whatever you want. But, I will try to understand it."
"You know what I don't understand?"
"What Lis?"
"That you are upset, and I understand that completely, but you're upset with me for something you, yourself, just did."
"I lied?"
"No, not the lying part. But the dangerous situations part. You didn't tell anyone where you were going, and you went to meet with him. With Favors. Alone. He could have hurt you, kidnapped you. What were you thinking?"
"Says the girl who just met with him again, for a second time, and could have been raped if I wasn't there in time."
"I would have been fine..."
"Yeah fucking right Lisa. You were at a dead end. Don't say shit like that."
"What? You're saying I shouldn't try to look at the bright side?"
"How is saying 'I would have been fine' looking at the bright side? That's wishful thinking."
"So? Can't be hopeful? Why does it even matter. It's in the past."
"It doesn't matter if it's the past. It's the fact there was a chance of a worse outcome. And you being you, decided to not even consider it."
"You too Chaeyoung. Don't forget that you're being a hypocrite right now. Telling me not to be wishful when you were too. That Favors would stop after just talking with you."
"Just talking with me?" Chaeyoung spoke, glaring at her. "I told that him that if he didn't stop messaging you, I was going to tell the police all about him and his fucking deals."
"And...?" Lisa questioned.
Chaeyoung rolled her eyes. "And then he tried to rape you. So now I'm telling the police. Tomorrow."
Lisa suddenly realized something. Sitting up straighter and gulping. "But... if you tell them... will they try to take you away from me?"
"Who? The police? Probably." Chae shrugged.
"Probably? And you can say that so easily?"
"Lisa. I'm not going to tell them who I am. I'm not going to give them any information about me. I'm not leaving you that easily."
"Good." She whispered, looking down. Chaeyoung did too, leaving the both of them in an uncomfortable silence.
Each party not sure what to say next as they took in breaths and tried to calm down. Lisa, finally gaining the courage to speak again.
"Listen, I'm sorry. About lying to you. About meeting him both times. And I know what could have happened. It was the same thing that almost happened to you..." She whispered, looking to her.
"I'm sorry too." Chaeyoung spoke quietly, still looking down. "You're right, I went out without telling, and it was dangerous. I'm mad at you for doing something I did too. I'm a hypocrite, like you said."
"It's still my fault. About all of this."
"No Lisa." Chaeyoung sighed, finally looking up and meeting her gaze. "It's mine."
"How is it yours?" Lisa questioned her. Not understanding how Chaeyoung could feel that way. Blame herself? Still. After everything.
"Because I came back."
"What do you mean 'came back' babe?"
"I came back... to life." Chaeyoung spoke, tears in her eyes. "If I wouldn't have, then this would have never happened. Any of it."
Lisa gulped and thought about her words. Putting things together in her mind the best she could. Not knowing what to say, but trying her best to say something.
"I know you were hurt baby. I know you felt alone and like you were... dead. But you getting better is not the reason for any of what has happened to be your fault. I decided to help you. We went into this together."
"Y-You don't understand Lisa." Chaeyoung cried lightly. "I wasn't supposed to live. This shouldn't have been what happened."
Lisa knew the crash was what she was referring to. She knew it was bad from what her mom had mentioned from her file.
But she was never told how bad it was by Chaeyoung. Not yet.
"Are you... referring to the accident? When you guys were rear ended?"
Chaeyoung nodded.
Lisa scooted up next to her and wrapped her arms around her. "Baby..." She whispered. "You surviving is the greatest gift the universe could have ever give me. I truly feel complete now that I have you."
Chaeyoung just kept crying. Lisa wanting to cry all over again too. Seeing how her wanting to apologize only ended up with Roseanne breaking down.
And not the other way around.
As Chaeyoung wet her shoulder. Lisa kept thinking about her words. 'I came back to life'. Did Rosie mean that as in she felt dead and was finally living again? Or?
"Roseanne? You came back to life because you didn't feel like you were living before hand right?" Lisa asked her quietly. "Because you saying you came back to life is a odd way to put it and I ju-"
"No Lis." Chaeyoung smiled sadly. Wiping her eyes and looking up at her after interrupting.
Lisa held onto her with a confused face. "Um, I don't understand..."
"I died in that accident."
She caught a breath, staring. "You, um... You mean that metaphorically... right?"
"No..." Chaeyoung whispered, looking back down. "I don't."
The crickets stopped chirping. The room went quiet. Even their sniffs had stopped. Tears no longer falling off their faces as Lisa stopped breathing entirely.
(Chae pov)
Chaeyoung didn't mean to say any of this. The conversation just got away from her.
And as she sat there, looking at her lap. The words of the Doctor who saved her echoed through her mind. Like he was sitting right next to her again.
"Do you understand what I'm telling you? Chaeyoung? Your heart stopped beating..."
Her own voice filling her head as the memory that should be replaying, was being blocked out by the medicine in her system.
"I d-died?"
She looked up to Lisa who was sitting there lifeless. Her eyes glossed and lips parted. A different kind of sadness on her face.
"Yes, you did." The conversation continued in her head. "For approximately nine minutes."
Chaeyoung closed her eyes tight. She didn't want to hear the rest. She knew the rest. But, when she did open her eyes. It wasn't Lisa she was staring at anymore.
But herself.
A beaten up brunette with her head, torso, and legs wrapped. Arms covered in bandaids and face painted by cuts and bruises.
"I-I couldn't have died... I was awake... I r-remember." The newly fifteen year old cried. Chaeyoung crying now too as she watched.
The young Roseanne reached her hands out, holding on to both her arms and staring at her.
"Chaeyoung... Even if you died, that doesn't mean that you coming back is any different than if you never died to begin with. You're meant to be here."
Her eyes widened looking at herself. Not believing the words she was hearing from her own mouth. "B-But it's not just the fact that I died. I shouldn't have come back. The doctor told me that..." She cried.
"And when I did come back, I lost my family. By making them go out. I lost my mom for killing my family. I lost myself by becoming an addict. I nearly lost my girlfriend to a dealer. Tell me that this wasn't my fault... How could it not be?"
"It's not your fault. It's life. There's nothing you did to cause this. You weren't a bad daughter Roseanne. You were a great daughter."
She stopped crying and looked down. The hands of her younger self still on her. The words she just spoke, resonating with something inside her.
She wasn't a bad daughter.
Chaeyoung closed her eyes and felt the weight of the hands shift as she tried to understand what she was seeing and hearing.
Deep down. She knew she did nothing wrong. But it was buried beneath all her hurt. Everything that had happened to her. Those years of feeling guilty stopping her from being able to forgive herself. The world.
Making these conversations even harder for her to come out of with a different outcome then those in the past. She'd just have it all over again later.
Continue blaming herself.
The hands on her arms squeezed her. She slowly opened her eyes, expecting to see her brunette self. But instead, she was greeted by a beautiful blonde.
The Thai woman's hands releasing her arms and cupping her face. "I mean it. You didn't do anything wrong. You're the greatest gift, not just to me, but to the world."
Her mouth parted a bit as she realized she didn't imagine both her younger self and the words she spoke. Instead, Lisa was the one who told her those things.
"Have you seen the way people look at you now? They don't look at you in disgust, or in not understanding. They see you, for you. The way people stop and sway to your guitar? The kids loved you. You gave them something to love by existing. By living."
"But Lisa..."
"Don't But Lisa me." Lisa smiled sadly. "What's there to but? If you wouldn't have came back, I wouldn't have gotten to meet my beautiful girlfriend. I wouldn't have been able to achieve maximum happiness."
"M-Maximum happiness?" She chuckled a bit. Lisa laughing and nodding her head.
"Yeah, maximum happiness." Lisa smiled as her eyes flicked from what Chae could only assume was her lips, then back to her eyes. "I love you. And I need you to stop blaming yourself."
"It's... hard."
"I know. But you promised me you'd stop. Understand baby. Understand that what I'm telling you is true." Lisa pleaded. Taking up her hands and squeezing them.
Chaeyoung looked down and nodded, not sure how to feel or what to do.
Soft lips soon kissed her forehead, then her two squeezed hands. "Hey, if you want someone to blame... blame me."
"No Lis." She chuckled.
"No, really." Lisa nodded, letting go of her hands and straightening her back. "I lied to you. Be mad at me, not yourself. Honestly baby, how can you try to flip your own anger onto yourself?"
"I don't know." She shrugged. "And who said I wasn't still disappointed?"
"Oh so you still are? Would some dinner make it better?"
Chaeyoung smiled. "Dinner..."
"Mhm." Lisa smiled, leaning in for a kiss.
"Wait. Do you mean real food? Or you?" She interrupted her.
"Both." The Thai winked.
"Real food."
Lisa looked at her with a pout. "And me?"
"No. Just real food please. I'm hungry."
"But..."
"I'll wait here." She stated. Leaning back against the headboard. Crossing her legs and pulling the blanket up over her knees.
"Okay... yeah okay, you'll feel better. I'll be right back." Lisa smiled, sliding off the bed and making her way out of the room.
Chaeyoung watched her leave and sighed. There was so much more she wanted to say to Lisa, but instead, she fucked up. Again.
Making Lisa comfort her when she didn't need to.
"Fuck." She whispered exaggeratedly as she leaned down deeper on the bed. Putting her hands over her eyes and keeping them there.
She listened to the faint sounds of talking and drawers being opened and closed downstairs as she laid there quietly.
Footsteps soon making their way back up and through the opened door. "Hey... I have your food." Lisa spoke softly. Sitting down on the bed beside her.
Chaeyoung lifted her hands away and smiled softly. Sitting up and taking the plate in her hands. "Thanks Lis."
"Of course baby."
Lisa leaned in again for a kiss. Chaeyoung giving in and pecking her lips before she started eating quietly.
Lisa moved over to the other side of the bed and crawled up. A plate of her own in her arms. The Thai seemingly taking it upon herself to sit right up against Chaeyoung's side.
She glanced over at her and saw the smile on her face. Chaeyoung finding herself smiling a bit brighter as she ate her food too after seeing hers.
"How can you be smiling after we argued?" She questioned aloud. Still looking at her food as she ate.
"Because we're no longer arguing." Lisa smiled toothlessly. "And I wouldn't really call it arguing. Just stating facts and disagreeing."
"But agreeing that we're both dumb right?" She joked, realizing they both were kind of stupid.
Stupidly in love I guess?
"Yeah, but I am a little more."
"Can't argue with that." She chuckled.
"You're smiling too you know."
"I know."
"And why are you?" Lisa grinned, peering in front of her and eyeing.
"Because my girlfriend is cute."
"Oh yeah? Did you like that arguing side of me baby?"
"Not at all." Chaeyoung chuckled.
"So you like dumb Lisa?"
"I guess. Even though she's a pain in the ass."
"Hey."
"What?"
"Language."
"Oh come on..."
"Oh no babe. You cursed a lot just now. Chill out girl."
"Chill out girl." Chaeyoung mocked her while she took another bite.
"Whose the pain in the butt now?"
"Still you. Dumbass."
"Chaeyoung." Lisa scolded.
"Still you. Stupidass."
"Roseanne Park." Lisa gasped.
She chuckled and finished off the remainder of her plate. Lisa, only looking to be halfway done when Chaeyoung started stealing food of hers.
"Hey, I'm not done." Lisa pouted, eating faster.
"But you're too slow." She sighed. "And you have so much."
"This is the same amount that you had." Lisa spoke shocked. "Go get some more then if you're still hungry."
"Excuse me?" Chaeyoung spoke with a high brows.
"I mean, I'll be right back." Lisa smiled, rolling her eyes and grabbing Chaeyoung's plate. "I counted my rice. Don't steal any."
"Yes babe." She replied as Lisa walked out the door. Immediately eating a spoonful of Lisa's rice and awaiting her plate refill.
Lisa returned not long after and passed her plate back to her with a wiggle of her brows.
"Thanks." She smiled, taking it up and digging right back in.
"Yeah yeah." Lisa sighed. "You're lucky I lo- Chae!" Lisa suddenly spoke. "You ate my rice!"
Chaeyoung put a hand over her mouth as she chuckled. Lisa whining and whispering something under her breath at her.
She returned to eating, both of them taking their time and enjoying the comfort of dinner in bed instead of at the table.
"Are you done?" Chaeyoung asked, noticing Lisa stopped eating.
"Yeah, I think I'm full."
"Okay." She spoke, reaching for Lisa's plate. Only to have Lis pull it back. "Hey, let me wash it."
"Why should you?"
"Because I want to."
Lisa sighed and handed the plate over, making her smile.
"Go get ready for bed okay?" She told her whilst getting up. Lisa nodded and got up herself. Stretching before heading off into the bathroom.
Chaeyoung went downstairs with the dishes. Washing them quietly as she hummed a tune at the sink.
When the song she was humming ended, she was left with only the sounds of the water hitting the plates and sink.
Her eyes becoming fixated on the faucet until she looked down at her wet arms that were holding the plates.
Why won't the bleeding stop? It's not that bad... I'm okay...
She rubbed her arm a bit harder under the water. Wincing. The knife she used still in her hand as the pain in her arm throbbed a bit.
The voices in her head only laughing at her. Saying more pain was the only way to relieve... pain.
"Chaeyoung!"
She looked around, startled by the voice behind her. Seeing Lisa staring with worried eyes.
Suddenly she realized what she had done and how stupid it was. "I'm sorry." She sobbed. "I'm so sorry."
Chaeyoung took a deep breath and pulled the plates out of the sink. Turning off the water as she reached for a towel. The scarred cuts on her arms making her gulp.
There was nothing there when she left Australia. Nothing wrong with her. No attempted suicides. No trauma. No loss.
South Korea... it was supposed to be a new beginning for them. Yet, it seems like it was supposed to be her end.
Like it was her Pa's, and Alice's.
She toweled dry the plates and walked slowly up the steps, past the first floor guest room she never once stayed a full night in.
When she walked back into their room, Lisa was already in bed. Roseanne noticed Lisa watching her with a small smile on her face.
Chaeyoung acknowledged her before she continued into the bathroom and brushed her teeth. Taking some time to care for her skin with some of Lisa's skin treatments.
After flicking off the light, she walked out and crawled up the fairy light lit bed. Laying down and pulling the covers up around her.
Lisa looking at her with a soft smile. "Are you okay?"
"We already had our talk Lisa."
"I know. I just want to check on you."
"I'm okay." She spoke. "We've come to the agreement to not put ourselves into dangerous situations right?"
"Yes babe. We will both stay out of them." Lisa replied. "Unless we go into them together... Right?"
"Yeah. Only together."
Lisa smiled at her and leaned in close from her position on her side. Chaeyoung leaned in too and felt their noses brush against one another's.
She'd be lying if she said she didn't miss Lisa's kisses. Not the pecks, but actual kisses. The passionate ones.
Their lips met slowly. Lisa's hand on her side as they kissed. Their tongues slowly starting to be used more as each kiss got deeper and deeper.
Soon, Lisa's hand tried to sneak down her side and under her shirt. But Chaeyoung caught it with her own, bringing her hand out and back on her side.
"Hey..." Lisa hummed between a kiss. "Let me touch you."
"No."
"Why nooot." Lisa questioned. Stopping their current kiss.
"Because, I'm still upset that you lied about it being your mom texting. When it was Favors."
"That's the part you're mad at?" Lisa pouted.
"Yeah, it is. Amongst the others."
"So this is like... a punishment?"
"Yup." Chaeyoung spoke, popping the p at the end of it. "No touching."
"So no sex?"
"No sex."
"But I thought you were the one who liked it so much? Why make yourself suffer too?" Lisa whined.
"I'm upset so I don't care. And listen to you whining like a little child." She teased. "You really want to? I thought you set limits?"
"I... did. But we-"
"Don't be a hypocrite..." She smiled. Flipping around in the bed and facing the other wall. "Goodnight Lis."
"Chae wait. Can I have another punishment?"
"Nope." Popped the p again. Bet Lisa wants to pop this pu-"
"Just for tonight right?" Lisa interrupted her thoughts. Chaeyoung rolling her eyes.
"Hmm. I'll think about it."
"You'll think about it?" Lisa groaned from behind her.
"Are you horny or something? From just kissing? Lisa the hell?"
"I would like to touch my girlfriend is that so bad?" Lisa whined more as she put and arm around her and spooned from behind.
Releasing a sigh into Chaeyoung's ear.
"So you are horny then..."
"No."
"Yeah."
"No."
"Yeah."
"Whatever." Lisa shrugged and pulled her closer.
She smiled and closed her eyes, feeling Lisa's breathing against her. Lulling her to sleep.
Chaeyoung began to drift, only to be brought back by the light kissing on her neck. A tug on her skin by the Thai making her smile. Then smirk.
"Stop kissing me."
"But..." Lisa whispered. "I wanna-"
"Stop kissing, no hickeys, I Love you, goodnight."
"What a great poem." Lisa sighed.
~
(Lisa pov)
Several days of Chaeyoung giving her 'punishment' was finally starting to chip away at her. From Tuesday night to this Friday afternoon, Lisa was starving to just hold her in a little less then friendly way.
But of course Chaeyoung was not allowing her to get anything.
They'd kiss and it would be great. Sometimes they could make out, but Roseanne wouldn't allow her anything else.
"It's been days can we just, you know. Kiss and make up?" Lisa whispered to her as they changed out of their gym attire in the locker room.
"Kiss and make up?"
"Yeah... you know." Lisa bit her lip and looked down over Chaeyoung's body.
"You mean kiss and make love? Right? Because we've clearly been kissing." Chaeyoung laughed lightly. Pulling her shirt on and tossing her old one away.
"Well, I like kissing you, after..." She smirked.
"God, you talking like this is not like you. We're in school."
"Yeah I know." Lisa whined following after Chaeyoung when the girl started walking out of the locker room. Lisa having to quickly finish changing and locking her locker to keep up.
Taking her bag off the bench and continuing. "But you're my girlfriend and you're really pretty and I like..." She looked around and then whispered even quieter. "Having sex with you."
"Trust me, I know." Chaeyoung shook her head. "You think you've been starved enough?"
"Yes oh my gosh. I have. Let me tap." She licked her lips as the bell rang and students began filling the hallway they just entered.
"Okay." Chaeyoung smiled, looking to her. "In a day or so."
"WHAT!"
"Bye Lis." Chaeyoung waved, continuing off to her sixth.
"No." Lisa stomped her foot. "I'm distressed." She sighed as students past by her. Lisa watching as Chaeyoung disappeared.
The image of her hips swaying making her sigh in defeat.
"Distressed about?"
Lisa quickly turned and chuckled seeing Jennie staring at her. "You know what about."
"Yeah I do." Jennie chuckled as they walked to their sixth together. "So she's still being all no touchy huh?"
"Yes, and I want to touch. A lot."
"Sounds like you need to win her over."
"Like?" Lisa questioned her.
"Like buy her chocolates or something. Be all romantic again. Instead of whining like a child."
"I have not been whining." Lisa whined, making Jennie turn and give her a 'really' look. "Okay, maybe a little."
"More like a lot Manoban."
They walked into the class and sat down. Lisa sighing and turning to her best friend. "So chocolates?"
"Yeah." Jennie smiled. "At least, that's what I did."
"You didn't use chicken to bribe her?"
"Nope. She said she wanted a desert."
"That's when you offered yourself right?" Lisa laughed.
"Yup. And she said no. So I got her chocolates." Jennie laughed along. Halting her talking until the bell stopped ringing. "Then I offered myself again and... she said yes."
"Please don't give me the details."
"Oh, some people would love to know. " Jen winked. "They'll just have to be left with their imagination."
"Yeah. Sure..."
"Hey don't be jealous my girlfriend had sex with me, and yours won't with you. Especially after the fact Jisoo and I did after being together for only a couple days."
"You've known each other for years though so that doesn't count. Not like Chaeyoung and I."
"Oh whatever." Jennie scrunched her face and shook her head. "Doesn't matter."
"I still can't believe it actually happened." Lisa spoke with a smile. "You two, ending up together. I was honestly joking about the whole Jensoo thing, but like, wow."
"Right?" Jennie smiled too. "I can't really believe it either. It's perfect."
~
Lisa and Jennie ended up talking for most the class. Not focusing on their review guide since they felt pretty confident for the exam they had next week.
She mainly just wanted to get home and wow her girlfriend somehow. Get her to miss her body too.
"I should dance for her." Lisa smiled as the bell rang and Jennie and her exited.
"You know, that might just work for you. Because honestly, Chaeyoung was mesmerized that day she watched you."
"Really?"
"Yes. She damn near wet the seat."
"Gross Jennie."
"It's the truth." She laughed. "See you later Lis. My girlfriend calls."
"Yeah yeah, see you Monday." Lisa waved.
She continued out to the parking lot where a certain Blonde was awaiting her. Lisa swearing her hair looked longer and fuller every time she sees her.
"Hey baby." Chaeyoung spoke with a smile.
"Hey beautiful. You got here quickly today."
"Yeah, I wanted to see you walk out."
"Why?" Lisa giggled, opening the door for her.
"Because you look cute when you walk faster after noticing me."
Lisa felt the redness on her cheeks as she closed the door and smiled. Walking around to her side and starting the car.
"Don't say that. Now I'm embarrassed."
"But I said it was cute?" Roseanne laughed. "Don't be."
Lisa just kept smiling as she began driving them back to the house. Holding Chaeyoung's hand in hers as they made their way onto their road.
"Baby, I think I'm going to practice my moves when we get home."
"Okay, I think I'll play my guitar."
"Oh, so you don't want to watch me?" Lisa questioned, trying not to sound too suspicious.
"Maybe a bit later, depending on how long you dance. I want to work some more on my playing."
"Okay. I'm sure I'll be dancing for awhile if you ever want to. Or to even dance with me too." Lisa smiled. "I'm sure you're great."
"Yeah, that's a no."
"Have you ever even tried?" Lisa chuckled.
Chaeyoung nodded and laughed herself. "We had the dumbest little dance routine in between cheers back in Australia. I swear, us cheerleaders should not have had to do that."
"I would have thought cheerleaders would be good at dancing? Jennie is?"
"Well. Not us. The only thing they could do was spin and eat shit."
Lisa laughed with a snort and covered her mouth. Chaeyoung laughing at her as they pulled into the garage.
"So what could you do then?" Lisa questioned after pulling herself together. The image of cheerleaders falling on their faces still in her mind.
"The splits and tumbling."
"Hmm flexible huh?"
"Stop." Chaeyoung smacked her arm. "You should already know that."
"But tumbling, that's cool. Like handsprings and summersaults?" Lisa asked, intrigued.
"Yeah, and similar things."
"I want to see."
"Nooo, I'm sure I can't anymore."
"But I want to see you try." She frowned, getting out and walking around to open Chaeyoung's door. Helping her out when she did.
"You'll watch me break my neck."
"Oh that's not good."
"Right?" Chaeyoung grinned.
Lisa led her into the house and sat her things down On the counter. Walking towards and falling onto the couch, pulling Chaeyoung with her.
"Wah, Lisa..."
"You know I can do tumbling too." She spoke, holding her girlfriend in a tight embrace.
"I could only assume so."
"Yeah, even freeze in mid air."
"Like holding your body up?"
"Exactly."
"Woah."
"Would you want to see that?" Lisa questioned her, thinking she found a winning ticket to get her girlfriend in bed with her.
"Maybe some day." Chaeyoung winked. "I know what you're playing at Miss."
"What?" Lisa asked, shocked. "You do?"
"Yup." Chaeyoung smiled as she wiggled out of Lisa's arms. "I'm going to go play guitar while you get yourself all hot and sweaty."
"I'm sure you'll want to see me like that!" Lisa shouted after her as Chaeyoung walked up the stairs.
Lisa only getting flipped off as she heard her laugh. "Roseanne! I love you! I want to sleep with you! Baby! I'm starving!"
The sound of steps coming towards her from upstairs made her giddy, thinking Chaeyoung was turning back around to finally give in.
"And a good afternoon to you too Lis." Her mom laughed as she appeared.
"Awe man..." Lisa sighed, covering her face on the couch.
"I'll pretend I didn't hear that. And have no clue what you're referring to."
"Thank you." Lisa chuckled, getting up and hugging her mom.
"I assume all will be well and, quiet... while I'm at work tonight?" Her mom joked as she pulled out some leftovers from breakfast that morning.
"Yeah, looks like it will be."
~
As Lisa finished up one of her dances. She laid down on the floor of the studio and opened her instagram.
The sweat coming off her like it was it's job.
Her feed was finally being filled again after deleting a lot of her photos some time ago. People not minding since she was posting more selfies now days, along with Chaeyoung.
Whom was also getting some nice attention as people would often comment on pics of her asking for her 'at'.
Lisa, able to finally convince Chaeyoung just yesterday to make one.
She smirked at the newfound idea forming in her head. "Chocolates huh?" She chuckled as she opened her camera and posed on the floor.
Typing in her caption and smiling, knowing Chaeyoung had her notifications on.
'Man... working up a sweat makes me hungry 🍫'
Post.
Not even a minute later, her phone binged. Lisa looking at it, only to frown. But she ended up giggling anyways.
Jen 😈
"Makes me hungry 🍫" my ass. Looking at your girlfriend does.
Jen 😈
Nice try. She won't fall for that shit stupid 😂
Lisa was about to respond when she noticed a comment come through for her post. Smiling at the username.
"Uh huh. We'll see about that." She whispered to herself as she opened up the app and went to it.
chaeandroses commented: @thegreatlisaaa 👀👀
Yes, now just come see me. Come on Roseanne. Lisa began freaking praying in her mind, hoping she would show.
It was already late evening and Chaeyoung had been strumming her guitar all day.
Her mother had already left for work, there was nothing keeping them from enjoying themselves. Aside from Rosie being a rude girlfriend.
Lisa waited... and waited... and realized Roseanne wasn't coming. "Crap..." she sighed. "And I looked hot too."
She pulled up her photo again and smiled at the new comments forming on it. Most, being under Chaeyoung's.
Ones like, 'you're so lucky', 'she's calling', 'you going to help her 👀?', and her favorite, 'you must eat good'.
Lisa laughed aloud at that one. Liking it.
Yet, Chaeyoung still wasn't messaging her. Her footsteps not echoing through the garage towards her.
She finally couldn't take it. Opening her contact and typing away.
Lis 🥺💞
I love you Chae. I ain't ever gonna stop loving you, Chae.
"Please laugh." Lisa whispered to herself as she waited. Noticing three dots appear. Chaeyoung must have been on her phone.
My Baby 🌹🥰
👌🏻
"What!" Lisa gasped. "An okay emoji? Seriously?"
Lis 🥺💞
Me explaining to Chaeyoung that I love her so much and would very much like to express that love and affection to her:
Chaeyoung:
My Baby 🌹🥰
Awe, love you too 😉
Lis 🥺💞
Stop messing with me. I miss you.
My Baby 🌹🥰
We live together. You miss my body bitchhh
Lis 🥺💞
I miss all of you
My Baby 🌹🥰
Don't doubt it
Lis 🥺💞
Babe... I... Am... Struggling
My Baby 🌹🥰
Good... for... you
Lis 🥺💞
Didn't you like my pic? I did it for you.
My Baby 🌹🥰
I know haha
My Baby 🌹🥰
It was alright 🤷🏻♀️
Lis 🥺💞
Girl I-
My Baby 🌹🥰
Lol okay, you looked so hot 💦
Lis 🥺💞
I still do 😏
My Baby 🌹🥰
That so?
Lis 🥺💞
Yeahhh. Wanna come see?
My Baby 🌹🥰
No, I'm good. Thanks though ❤️
Lis 🥺💞
Chaeyoung... how much longer? I'm serious? I love you and would very much like to come and bump
My Baby 🌹🥰
Come and bump? Wtf kind of words are you using as innuendos lol
My Baby 🌹🥰
Just say it Lisa.
Lis 🥺💞
My Baby 🌹🥰
Lis 🥺💞
But you said to say it and I said it in meme form! It counts! Please I beg of you. A crumb is all I ask 😭
My Baby 🌹🥰
I'm kidding. Yes. Come here 👅
"FINALLY!!" Lisa yelled, running out the door and towards Chaeyoung. Faster than any superhero known to mankind.