(Chae pov / Mature content)
Chaeyoung laid awake in the hospital bed. She had tried to sleep but without Lisa's presence and knowing she was gone, it had left her unable to drift off.
She had this weird feeling, and was left slightly un well. Every now and then she'd get slight pain in her stomach but she was chalking it up to the medicine and pills reacting to each other.
Since Doctor Lee decided to switch her back to her old medicine, but the dose he gave her seemed like a lot, leaving her arm slightly numb.
Her eyes were closed as she breathed in, wishing Lisa would hurry up and return so she could lay with her.
And if almost on command... or thought, the door to her room slowly creaked open. The light from the hallway filling it as Chaeyoung opened her eyes and sat up with a smile.
Who she saw enter though, was a red eyed, red cheeked Lisa. With an emotionless look on her face.
Was Chaeyoung dreaming? Lisa just went out for dinner. What happened?
"Lisa?"
"Hey." She released airily, stepping in.
"W-What happened?"
"Huh? Nothing." Lisa spoke, mustering a smile.
"No it's not." Chaeyoung frowned. Lisa walking up to her and beginning to crawl into the bed. Her cheek getting darker by the second. "Babe, your cheek. Did someone...
"Can I just hold you please?" Lisa whispered, stuffing her face into Chaeyoung's neck and wrapping her arms around her waist.
"No." Chaeyoung stated, pushing her off. "Tell me."
"Rosie, I really don't want to get into it. Not right now."
"But Lisa... y-you've always been there for me. Let me-"
"Please." Lisa begged. "Please, it's okay. Just let it go."
"Just let it go?" Chaeyoung asked. Hearing her voice raise a bit.
Lisa quickly put her hands up in defense, reaching for Chaeyoung's hands. "No baby, that's not what I meant, I just-"
"Lisa, your hand!" Chaeyoung gasped, noticing her girlfriend's bruised and slightly bloodied hand.
"It's..." She said looking down at it, sighing.
"It's nothing right? That's what you're going to tell me... you go out for dinner and come back with a messed up hand and bruised cheek."
"I've been in that situation before you know? I know what it looks like after getting hit. So answer my damn question." Chaeyoung spoke. "What happened?"
Lisa just stared for a moment. Chaeyoung knew that the blonde was letting her words sink in.
"I... got into a fight." She said, looking down her fingers, twiddling them.
"A f-fight? How?" Chaeyoung
"I started asking someone questions... and I hated the answers."
"You... started it?"
"Yes." Lisa said looking up. "I did, now can I please just hold you and forget about it?"
"No."
"No?"
"No. Tell me why."
"Why?"
"Yes. Why did you fight s-someone? I thought you were eating dinner with Jisoo and Jennie? Why the hell did you have to go and get yourself hurt?"
"Because of what he did to you... and because I couldn't stand it."
He? Who was Lisa talking to? "Who?" Chaeyoung questioned.
"I... um..."
"Lisa. Answer me. Please."
"He... crap." Lisa spoke. Chaeyoung kept her eyes on Lisa. Getting more upset by the second. Why did she feel like Lisa was hiding this from her.
On purpose.
"Lisa who dammit?!" Chaeyoung broke. She needed to know the truth.
"Favors!" Lisa exclaimed, suddenly looking down right after.
Chaeyoung's eyes went wide. "Favors... Lisa... how?" Her mind started to fade as Chae could feel her body wanting to drift.
Black flashes clouding her vision until Lisa's pleads brought her back.
The pills must be working, because Chaeyoung felt numb. Like she should be getting hit with something... but she wasn't.
"I'm sorry Rosie." Lisa cried. "Please don't hate me. I love you. I shouldn't have met with him. I should have asked you. Please don't go. I'm here! Don't remember him."
"Lisa..."
"I j-just wanted to know for myself, see him with my own eyes. Jennie had talked to him first. He w-was there, watching us outside of the studio, during your seizure." She continued. Holding Chaeyoung's hands.
Chae looked down to them slowly. Lisa's hand felt weird against hers, in its current condition. "Lisa..."
"He told me what he'd make you d-do and I lost it okay? I'm sorry. Jennie and Jisoo were there, I wasn't alone. And I won! I won Chaeyoung! I'm okay! He won't force you to do anything anymore."
"Lisa it's fine."
"I'll protect you! I'll keep you safe!"
"Lisa! Stop crying... I'm... I'm not mad."
"Y-You're not?" Lisa sniffed surprisedly, through her tears.
"No.. I'm not. I can't be mad at you. I can't hate you. I'm just... w-why didn't you tell me?"
"I... was scared."
"Scared? To tell me? Ask me about him?"
"Yes."
"Why?"
"Because I know how much it hurts you. And I'm tired of seeing y-you in pain." Lisa spoke, looking down, squeezing Chaeyoung's hands a little.
"Bathroom."
"What?"
"Go to the bathroom."
"But-"
"Lisa. Go."
Lisa looked to Chaeyoung timidly, slowly climbing off the bed and walking into the bathroom with a sigh.
Roseanne looked to her bedside and pressed the small, circular button. Waiting for a certain nurse to arrive.
"Chaeyoung? Baby what's wrong?" Ami asked. Chae thankful that it was a Friday night, since Ami worked them.
"I need a first aid kit."
"Why sweetie?"
"For your daughter."
"What happened to Lisa?" Ami asked worriedly, looking around.
"She's fine. Just being stupid."
"Well... that does sound like my daughter." Ami chuckled, light heartedly. Ami turned and unlocked a drawer in the room, taking a first aid kit out and placing it in Chaeyoung's hands. "Tell her not to be stupid again." She smiled.
"I will."
Ami asked her if there was anything else she needed where Chaeyoung replied no, kissing Ami on the cheek and waving goodbye before climbing off the bed and opening the bathroom door.
Lisa was sitting atop the toilet seat lid and stood up immediately. Chaeyoung went to walk in, but then winced at the pull on her arm.
"Your monitor!" Lisa said, quickly running over and holding Chaeyoung's arm in place. She gently pulled the taped cord off her arm, releasing Chaeyoung from the heart rate monitors grasp.
They then made eye contact. Lisa not leaving Chaeyoung's side, still holding onto her arm. Their faces only inches away.
Lisa went to lean in but Chaeyoung moved her head back. Lisa's eyes widening.
"Sit." Chaeyoung spoke.
"Where?" Lisa questioned sadly.
"On the counter."
The blonde turned around slowly, walking over to the counter and getting up. Facing Chaeyoung.
"I'm sorry Rosie."
"I know." Chae answered as she walked over to Lisa, pushing against Lisa's legs. The blonde changed her position, spreading her legs so Chaeyoung could lean in between them against the counter.
"This was stupid." Chaeyoung huffed as she began disinfecting the girl's hand."You're stupid."
"Yeah."
"You won't do it again right?"
"No. I promise."
"I don't want you to see him again."
"And he doesn't want to see me. Not alive at least." Lisa spoke. "But I won't. Never."
"Good." Chaeyoung whispered as she began wrapping Lisa's hand with bandages.
"Baby?"
"Yes?" Chaeyoung questioned.
"I love you."
"I love you too."
"I'm sorry."
"I know."
As soon as Chaeyoung finished bandaging Lisa's hand, it and Lisa's other found their way to the back of Chaeyoung's neck.
Roseanne smiling lightly as Lisa hummed and pulled her closer. Chaeyoung's own hands found the blondes waist as Lisa stared at her.
"Your forgiven." Was all that Chaeyoung said, because Lisa was. Chae could never not. Not when Lisa was so cute and so afraid of loosing her.
Lisa leaned down and kissed her. Their lips connecting and moving slowly before parting. A smirk on Lisa's face.
"What?" Chaeyoung questioned.
"I can see down your gown." Lisa grinned, biting her lip as she took another peek.
"Hey!" Chaeyoung chuckled. "Not fair."
~
Chaeyoung awoken and sat up quickly with Lisa waking too. She probably felt Chaeyoung's jolt.
"What is it? What's wrong? Do you feel sick again? Do you need me to get the bowl?" Lisa questioned her worriedly.
"No. I'm fine."
"You sure?"
"Yes..." Chaeyoung sighed, feeling the bandaged hand of her girlfriend on her arm. Flinching a bit.
Lisa slowly wrapped her in an embrace, a similar one that they did before bed last night. The blonde stuffing her face into Chaeyoung's neck as she cuddle her backside.
Soft kisses peppering her neck.
"It's him... isn't it?" Lisa asked quietly. Almost too soft for Chaeyoung to hear.
But she heard.
"Y-Yes."
"Did you have a bad dream about him? A memory?"
"No."
"Then what baby?" Lisa pouted, kissing Chaeyoung's cheek.
"A feeling."
"A feeling?"
"Well... t-the feeling. The one I always had whenever I was around him..."
"Which was?" Lisa whispered, pecking Chaeyoung's shoulder and rubbing her back lovingly.
Chaeyoung turned her head back a bit to look at her. Lisa kissing her lips and waiting patiently. "Anxiety and fear." She spoke. "I..." Roseanne sighed. "I w-was always scared of what he might do. He t-told me he wouldn't... rape me... but I was still s-so scared."
Lisa brought her in for another kiss before turning Chaeyoung around and pulling her down on top of her.
Chaeyoung stayed on Lisa for awhile, her head by the blondes neck as she let tears slowly fall off her cheeks and onto Lisa's soft skin.
"You're never going to have to feel that again." Lisa spoke, her hand still completing soft, loving circles on Chaeyoung's back. "We're never going to see him again.
"I k-know." Chaeyoung whispered. "I know."
As they fell asleep again, Chaeyoung didn't drift into darkness. Instead, she was walking down a street she hasn't seen in a month.
"E-Excuse me." Chaeyoung said quietly, to the man standing on the corner of the street. Next to a lamp post with a red sticker on it.
The one she was told to find.
"Yes?" The man asked raising a brow.
"Are you... F-Favors?"
"That I am sweetie. And what's your name?"
"C-Chaeyoung."
"Are you nervous? why do you stutter? Don't be nervous baby. Did someone send you to find me?"
Chaeyoung nodded.
"Hm, I'm guessing you're hopping for some drugs then huh baby? You seem a little young to be an addict... How old are you?"
"Fifteen."
"Wow, only fifteen? Well, it would be rude of me to deny such a cute and innocent one like you wouldn't it?" He spoke, bringing a hand up to her cheek. "You have anything you want in particular babe?"
She shook her head and looked down. "A-Anything." Chaeyoung managed as she stepped back a bit. He released her cheek with a smirk.
"Anything huh? Okay. How much do you got and how much do you want?"
"Um..." Chaeyoung started, reaching in her pocket and digging out what little money she had.
"That's it? Baby you can't afford a single thing with that."
Chaeyoung looked down. Holding the money in her fist. That's what everyone's been telling her, and her headache was really starting to get to her.
She needed something to please it. She ran out of her medication days ago.
"But don't worry Chaeyoung, you came to the right dealer." He said all chipper. "You want the drugs, I'll give them to you. Free of charge."
"R-Really?"
"Well... it's not going to be exactly free. You won't owe me money, but I do have a system that you can use to pay me in... other ways." He smiled.
Other ways? Chaeyoung didn't really like the sound of that. She prayed she wouldn't have to do anything too crazy. But she needed something.
Anything.
Without it, this pain would kill her. Emotional and physical.
"Okay." She whispered.
"Okay? You'll enter my little system?"
Chaeyoung nodded.
"Alright. Well don't worry little Chaeyoung." He said, draping an arm around her and having them walk down the road a bit. "You're sweet, so I'll give you the easiest task."
"T-Thanks." Chaeyoung smiled. Maybe it wouldn't be that bad? Maybe this would actually be an easy way to keep getting her pills?
That idea didn't last long though, as Favors turned them and began walking down an alleyway. It wasn't too dark, since the sun was still up as it was mid evening.
But the looming buildings between them in the tight corridor was blocking out most the light pretty well. Chaeyoung... was now scared.
"Here, sit over here babe." He said gesturing her down to an old stool that had been left to wither outside.
"So..." He said, leaning against the wall next to her. "It's pretty simple, like I said. I know you're young so don't worry, we can have this one be a little lesson. And by the end of it, I'll give you not one, but a handful of pills."
A handful? That's perfect. But... what kind of lesson though? "Um..."
"Here baby, give me your hand." He spoke, sticking his hand out.
Chaeyoung looked at him nervously, before reluctantly putting her hand in his. Her eyes suddenly went wide and body flinched as he brought her hand to his crotch.
"Feel that? That's how you can earn your precious pills baby. All you have to do is please me."
Chaeyoung's breathing had became fast paced and anxiety filled. She didn't want to. She wanted to go. But Favors held onto her hand, keeping her from leaving as Chaeyoung tried to get up.
"I d-don't w-"
"What Chaeyoung? It's not like I'll rape you or anything. I'm a gentleman. All you have to do, is treat it like candy." He spoke smugly. "Have you ever had a sucker before?" He asked, slowly pushing her back down onto the stool.
"Y-Yes?"
"Great, then just think of it as that." Favors said. Unzipping his pants with one hand while holding Chaeyoung's down with the other.
Chaeyoung shut her eyes as she started to feel some tears escaping them. She really didn't want to, but she needed the pills. The drugs.
She ran out of her prescription and her mom denied getting her more because the hospital said she didn't need to take them anymore. And they costed too much.
"Open your eyes Chaeyoung. Don't be scared."
Chaeyoung kept them shut. Shaking her head.
"Chaeyoung?... don't you want your pills."
She did. She really did. But that's all she wanted. Not this.
She felt a hand on her cheek. "Open up please." He spoke.
Chaeyoung finally did, slowly. And what she was greeted with was something she knew would forever be engraved on her mind.
"There, now all you have to do is..." He put her hand that he'd been holding on his cock, making her do up and down motions. "Just like this, hold it a bit tighter though." He spoke.
Chaeyoung didn't do anything, she was in shock.
"Chaeyoung. Tighter." He huffed.
That's when he forcefully pushed her fingers closed more. Making her grip him harder, just like he wanted.
"There, that feels better. Now just give it some attention, remember it's like candy. Don't bite it, just suck." He breathed.
Chaeyoung didn't move though, he removed his hand from hers. Letting her stop. She contemplated getting up and running away.
"Did I say stop Chaeyoung?" He spoke, in an unpleasant tone. Scaring her more. His dark eyes piercing through his shaggy hair.
She looked down and began continuing, her tears still falling quietly. She watched them as they hit the ground. Fading away onto the pavement.
That's what she wanted to do... fade away...
"There, good girl. You know, you're really cute Chaeyoung. I'm sure you'll be gorgeous when you're older." He grinned. "Maybe we can keep this up hm?"
No please no, just let me get my pills. I probably won't need them for that long... just for now. Just for the time being.
"Now, open up again." He smiled. "Open."
Open what? My eyes are open? What else- wait...
"Chaeyoung... open your mouth. Come on baby, just like candy, give it a taste."
His hand soon moved behind her head, bringing her in closer. "Open."
She shook her head, making him grip her hair and pull harder.
"Just fucking take it Chaeyoung. You can't just take hand outs. This is how the world works. You want the drugs? You pay. One way or another."
Chaeyoung opened her mouth to say something, but she couldn't get it out. He had already closed the gap between her and his cock.
Chaeyoung jolted awake for a second time that night. But it unfortunately wasn't just from a feeling. Her lightless dreams were replaced by the first memory of many.
Many meetings. Many pills. Many pet names and touches that sent chills down her spine. Chaeyoung felt... she felt... broken.
"Babe?"
"Lisa..." Chaeyoung cried, as she tightened her hold around Lisa's waist, still laying on top of the girl.
"It's okay. It's okay. I'm here. I won't let anyone hurt you."
"I... I hate m-my memories." She sobbed, hearing Lisa sniff not long after.
"I know baby. I hate them too. I hate what the universe did to you. The people you've met, everything, what they've all did."