I hope the video isn't in another language. It wouldn't load on mine, but hopefully it does on yours.
Natalie's POV:
I hurt standing up.
"That was amazing bae." Nayeli smiles walking into the room.
I sigh." Thank you bae." I mumble.
She stops walking and turns to look at me." Hey are you ok?"
I shrug.
"Natalie it has been weeks since you became depressed again, please tell me whats wrong. I don't want you to be sad anymore."
I slightly groan putting my camera up in the closet.
"Natalie!" Nayeli raises her voice.
I roll my eyes." Matthew."
She shakes her head." He broke a promise?"
I shake my head.
She groans and sits on the edge of my bed.
"Its noting important bae, I'm just stressed. We leave in a month in a half, I'm nervous."
She nods. "It'll be fun, you should be happy."
I slightly smile." Yeah I guess."
She smiles and walks in the closet. I just whimper and crawl to my bed.
I lay down and stare at the ceiling.
"Hey bae I'll be home around eleven. Don't wait up on me ok?" I sit up and look at her.
(Nayeli's outfit)
"Oh ok. Have fun, use protection." I laugh.
"Hah very funny, love ya."She walks out the room.
"Love you too!!" I yell as I hear the door open and close.
I sigh. "I'm alone again."
I grab my little blanket and spread it on top of me. I grab my laptop and turn it on. I log in and go on YouTube.
"Ha Cameron posted a video." I chuckle.
*A positive message| Opening up.*
I look at my laptop confused.
I get comfortable and click on the video.
-At the end of the video.-
I wipe a tear away, I had no idea be felt this way.
Ahh I'm such a horrible sister.
If only I wasn't so stressed.
All of these things that are happening to me keep me distracted from reality.
I just have to much on my mind starting with Matthew and April.
Yes I still have feelings for him, but I'm not exactly sure. I forgave him, but I haven't truly forgave him. Its hard to forgive someone who betrayed you. I mean he knew we had a tight friendship and he just threw it away. Not to mention he forgave April and treats her like a princess. He lets her boss him around. She looks at me and threatens me every time I'm around him. Like fake bitch alert.
Next Axel.
He has been, distant. I'm not sure why. Every time I want to talk to him he seems to be 'busy'. I'm not sure about that, we've known each other for a pretty long time now and I can tell when he's lying.
lastly is me.
I can't keep control of myself. One day I'm happy then the next, I'm in bed crying. I guess you can say its all about my past. That would be true. I've been depressed lately. Almost once a week, Cameron comes to check on me, or should I say wrist. I hate how they make me feel. They can't trust me and don't even get me started on what they tell me.
"It'll be ok."
"Stop being sad, you're to young."
"Keep your head up."
Promise this promise that. Ahh, stupid promises.
I snap out of my thoughts when my phone rings.
*These hoes ain't loyal.*
ID- Baby Axel 😘😍
(A-Axel+N-Natalie)
N- Hello.
A- Hey Natty.
I smile, he's talking to me.
N- Hey Ax.
He chuckles.
A- How you been babe?
Did he just call me babe? Omg, I feel my heart pound. My stomach flips.
I giggle.
N- Eh good. Sad, but good.
A- Hey whats wrong?
I groan.
N- Tour crap.
A- Oh, that's not that long is it?
I shake my head, wait he can't see me. I need to stop doing that.
N- Yeah, it is. Crazy huh?
I chuckle.
He returns one
A- Yeah it is. One day you barely start your channel and then the next you're already famous.
N- Yeah, so did you need something?
He groans.
A- Can I not call my best friend?
I slightly laugh.
N- Axel you've been distant, what do you expect me to say? This whole week you've been ignoring me.
He lets out a very deep sigh.
A- Natalie, you're leaving on tour soon! My best friend is leaving for a lot of entire mouths! I'm sorry that I'm sad and I don't want to make you sad!
He raises his voice.
I just stay silent.
A- I'm sorry Natalie.
N- Hey it's ok.
A- I just don't want to lose you.
N- Axel, I made a promise.
A- That doesn't mean you're not leaving me.
I huff.
N- Axel, I was going to ask you this in person- wait where are you?
I ask sitting up.
He takes some time to think.
A- Oh yea, at my parents.
I roll my eyes.
N- Axel where are you at?
I ask in a more serious tone.
A- I'm with my parents!
I hear his Xbox game start.
He's home.
I hang up and stand up. I fix myself in my mirror and slip on my black vans.
I walk out and out of the apartment. I walk over to the door next to me.
I hear Axel mumble to him self.
"No no, I don't want her to be mad at me."
I sigh and knock on the door.
"Who is it?" Axels voice cracks.
"Its me Ax, Its Natalie."
He opens the door slowly and hides his face.
"Axel whats wrong?" I ask removing his hands.
I gasp. "AXEL who did this to you?" I ask looking at his black eye.
He bites his lip ring. "These guys, they were talking smack about you so I definded you and they ended up punching me."
I slowly find tears falling from my eyes.
I hug him.
"Axel thank you, but why didn't you tell me?" I ask hurt.
He sighs. "You were already stressed. "
I kiss his cheek. "I know this is bad timing but, would you want to join Nayeli, The Jacks and me on tour?"
I watch as a smile appears on his lips. "I'd love to."
I hug him. "I love you Axel."
He hugs back tighter." I love you too."
*8:30pm*
*At Axels place.*
"How the fuck did you beat me at Madden?" He laughs crossing his arms.
I laugh." I'm just to good at it."
"What ever I want a rematch."
I groan. "No Axel, you said that two hours ago."
"Whatever your just a chicken." He laughs.
"Oh really. Last time I checked, you got beat at playing Madden fifteen times!!" I laugh along while eating some popcorn.
He chuckles.
"Ay I've never been in your gaming room before." I say standing up, looking around.
It's a bit cramped, but its cool.
I like it.
(Axels gaming room)
"Really, I thought once I have bought you in here." He smiles biting his lip ring.
"No, this has to be my first time." I say touching one of his guitars.
He looks at me in a nervous way.
I picked up the guitar.
"What? Wait do you play the guitar?" I ask grinning.
He rolls his eyes. "Used to play."
"Oh." I place back the guitar.
"I used to play it all the time." He mutters.
I look over at him. "Do you think you can play something for me? I ask.
He nervously shakes his head. "Sorry, but no."
I toss my hands up. "Oh come on Ax!!" PLEASE!!" I beg.
He rolls his eyes. "Fine."
I jump up in excitement.
He grabs his guitar. "What song?"
I sit back down at the edge of his bed. I start thinking of a song. "Photograph?"
He glares at me. "Fine." He mutters.
I calmly wait, I look at him muttering at himself.
He looks up at me and back down. "Do you think you can look away." He blushes.
I slightly smile and shake my head. "No, you shouldn't be embarrassed. I'm your best friend."
She groans. "Please. "
I give up and turn my back to him.
I hear him touch the stings before he takes a deep breath.
Loving can hurt
Loving can hurt sometimes
But it's the only thing that I know
When it gets hard
You know it can get hard sometimes
It is the only thing that makes us feel alive
My eyes widen. He is voice is so soothing and soft. I've never heard him sing this type of music.
We keep this love in a photograph
We made these memories for ourselves
Where our eyes are never closing
Hearts are never broken
Times forever frozen still
So you can keep me
Inside the pocket
Of your ripped jeans
Holdin' me closer
'Til our eyes meet
You won't ever be alone
Wait for me to come home
Loving can heal
Loving can mend your soul
And it's the only thing that I know (know)
I swear it will get easier
Remember that with every piece of ya
And it's the only thing we take with us when we die
By now, my eyes were a lighter brown. I can just hear him sing and sing.
We keep this love in this photograph
We made these memories for ourselves
Where our eyes are never closing
Our hearts were never broken
Times forever frozen still
So you can keep me
Inside the pocket
Of your ripped jeans
Holdin' me closer
'Til our eyes meet
You won't ever be alone
And if you hurt me
That's OK, baby, only words bleed
Inside these pages you just hold me
And I won't ever let you go
Wait for me to come home [4x]
Oh you can fit me
Inside the necklace you got when you were 16
Next to your heartbeat
Where I should be
Keep it deep within your soul
Someone call the ambulance! I'm ganna die!!
And if you hurt me
Well, that's OK, baby, only words bleed
Inside these pages you just hold me
And I won't ever let you go
When I'm away
I will remember how you kissed me
Under the lamppost
Back on 6th street
Hearing you whisper through the phone,
"Wait for me to come home."
He takes a breath and giggles.
I'm shocked, I can't move.
"Natalie?" His voice cracks up.
I try to say something. I just turn to him. His eyes are lighter than ever. It breaks my heart to see his eye beaten up.
He looks at me for a response.
"Ax-Axel. T-that was amazing. I don't think I have ever heard such a soothing voice. Well other than Shawn, but Axel!Why did you ever stop playing!?" I pause, I'm smiling like an idiot. "You're truly a true artist and singer, you need to create a channel." I say standing up.
He just scoots back and shakes his head.
I give him a confused look. "Why not Ax."
He shakes his head biting his black lip ring. I groan and realize I was probably like this. Wait what am I saying? I was just like this a couple of hours ago.
I slightly laugh. "Will you at least think about it?"
He stops and looks at me. He sighs and nods his head.
"YAS!!" I yell.
He smiles and kisses my cheek.
"Wanna stay the night?"
I nod my head. "Yeah sure thing. Let me go grab some PJs and let me call Nayeli."
He nods smiling.
I give him a kiss in the cheek and leave.
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