{Belle's POV}
The echo of the doorbell ringing sent chills down my spine and tears threatening to spill. They're here. By they I mean the boys.
I'm going to be yelled at, given speeches, maybe even hit. But would they actually hit me? I've thought plenty of times that if I mess up big enough that I'll get him; but is that even true? Would these boys that I've loved before they even knew I existed hit me?
Once I heard Zayn's pain filled voice asking where I am, I don't know what to think anymore. I'm not sure if he's mad or sad. I don't know if I should hide or hug him. I just don't know.
I stayed seated on the couch not moving; not even shivering. I'm too scared and too confused. Either way I'm in trouble. It doesn't matter if he's mad or sad. There's five boys which means five speeches.
Oh joy.
"Where is she?" Zayn asked again, his voice cracking. It didn't crack from anger, but from agony. That's when a tear broke loose. It slowly slipped down my cheek all alone. No others followed its actions. "She's in the living room; but be gentle. She has barely spoken all day. You can tell how upset and scared she is." Anne warned the boys. She's not wrong.
I haven't really spoken at all today. Only when questions are asked directly towards me, and even then I would only say one or two words.
No one replied to Anne, instead I heard feet running down the hall towards me. Part of me wants to jump up and run out the back door, while the other says run towards them. I didn't have time to choose because soon enough Zayn picked me up in his arms.
"Thank God you're okay! I love you so much baby doll."
That's when I completely fell apart. All the tears fell down my cheeks and the sobs broke our. I wrapped arms tightly around his neck and cried into his chest. "I-I'm so s-sorry. S-so so s-sorry." I repeated over and over again between my sobs. Another pair of arms tore me away and carried me the same way Zayn did.
Once I smelt the honey scent I knew it was Liam. My eyes are closed shut, trying to hold in the tears but they continue to pour out. "Never scare us like that again. I was so scared." Liam's words that contained anger are mixed with the pain I brought him. The guilt stung against my heart as I uttered apology after apology.
Next was Niall that tore me away. I only knew that because of how warm his embrace is. He keeps a tight grip, as if he's going to lose me. Which I guess he did for a little while.
Harry called Anne at three in the afternoon. All day her and I have been talking. Well mostly Anne talked; saying how I shouldn't of left, how I should've talked to the boys, stuff like that. I nodded along to everything she said until she got to the part where she apologized for the boys not believing me. That's when I spoke my first real sentence of the day. I said she didn't need to apologize. That's when Harry called asking if he knew where I was.
"P-please don't d-do that again. I-I was so s-scared." Niall sobbed into me. My already heart just felt like it was stomped on. I was so freaking stupid! I was being so selfish that I didn't even think how the boys would feel. But I still have two more to tell me how much I hurt them. I continuously said how sorry I was to Niall until someone took me from Niall's grasp.
The boys hair tickled against my ear making it obvious that it's Harry. "I'm so happy you're safe! You scared the shit out of me!" Harry whispered into my ear before placing a kiss on my head. I did the same as the last three, muttered apology after apology.
Lastly was Louis and my tears still haven't stopped. Louis has always been the scariest when he'a angry. He yells and his face turns bright red. But he didn't yell today. Instead he hugged me as tightly as I could and whispered "Out of all the lot, I missed you the most. Remember that." A small smile found its way to my slips as I realized that Louis is trying to make me feel better. "I'm still r-really sorry." I whispered back as another sob broke out.
"It's okay. Lets just go home, alright?" I nodded as Louis turned around and walked towards the door. I look over his shoulder to see Harry hugging Anne and everyone else following us. Each boy has tears streaming down their cheek as they try to wipe them away.
Instead of Louis driving he sat in the middle with me on his lap. Harry sat in the back, Niall sat beside us, Liam's driving, and Zayn is in shot gun. "Lou. It's not safe with Belle on your lap while we drive." Liam said with a gentle tone to his voice, but you could still hear the sadness mixed in. Even with what Liam said Louis kept me on his lap. He turned me so my back is towards the window and I'm cuddling into his chest then pulled the seat belt across us. "There." Louis stated with a chuckle and he wrapped his arms around my waist.
With the heat that radiates off of Louis my eyes begged to fall. I couldn't sleep at all last night. I'd shut my eyes but I sleep wouldn't come to me. All night I flipped, tossed, and turned. Nothing helped.
The sound of the car engine was the only noise there was. The tension in here could be cut by a knife. I know all of them want to tell me how bad of an idea it was to run away. But I'm not sure if I'm ready for it. I'm kinda scared that they'll yell; even though they all know I'm not good with people yelling at me.
I watched as Liam put a CD in and pressed play. Thank God! The awkward silence will go away and everyone can zone out into the music.
"Where is the moment we needed the most?
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey."
My voice flowed through the car making me groan. Louis' chest vibrated with laughter as I placed my cheek against it. "Can you please put something else in?" I begged, but that only made everyone laugh. Damn it. But seriously why do they have to put this in. "Li, put on the next song! That's my favorite!" Harry cheered from being us. I groaned again. But that one is probably my favorite too.
"I can't win, I can't reign
I will never win this game
Without you, without you
I am lost, I am vain,
I will never be the same
Without you, without you
I won't run, I won't fly
I will never make it by
Without you, without you
I can't rest, I can't fight
All I need is you and I
Without you
Without you
Oh, oh, oh!
You! You! You!
Without
You! You! You!
Without you
Can't erase, so I'll take blame
But I can't accept that we're estranged
Without you, without you
I can't quit now, this can't be right
I can't take one more sleepless night
Without you, without you
I won't soar, I won't climb
If you're not here, I'm paralyzed
Without you, without you
I can't look, I'm so blind
I lost my heart, I lost my mind
Without you
Without you
Oh, oh, oh!
You! You! You!
Without
You! You! You!
Without you
I am lost, I am vain,
I will never be the same
Without you, without you
Without you"
I wrote that on the anniversary of Erin's death a year ago. Surprisingly I didn't cry while listening to it. Maybe I'm done grieving. I should think of the good times I had with her and not cry every time I think of her. But before I do that, I need to apologize for leaving. I know I did when they came to get me, but this time without shedding a tear.
"I'm really sorry for running away. I should've just talked to you. When I'm upset I just run away from my problems. Back when I was with my mom cutting was my way of running away, trying to kill myself was my runaway from cutting, and literally running away was for when you guys didn't believe me. I'm really sorry for doing all of that." After my small speech no one spoke. It's like they're all soaking it in.
"We understand, but like you said just talk to us. You scared the wits out of us. Never do that again, alright?" Niall spoke from beside Louis and I. My eyes traveled up to his and I nodded. "It's all okay now. But when we get home you're going to stay on the couch. It wasn't smart at all to leave while you have hypothermia." I nodded to Louis' demand and cuddled into his chest. Maybe know I can sleep. Now that everything is settled I can relax. "We love you Belle. Always remember that." Zayn said softly. I smiled while looking towards Zayn. Liam quickly sent me a smile before turning his attention back to the road, and Zayn did the same.
I shut my eyes and listened as Zayn swapped CD's. Yes! He's not playing what they recorded of me. But once I heard what started to play a large smile formed on my lips. A recording of all the boys singing Blackbird.
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Author's Note
This weekend I'm not sure if there will be any updates. My cousins are coming in from California and I have a few graduation parties to go to. But now that I graduated from 8th grade and it's summer I'll be updating more frequently! Don't forget to comment and vote! Love you all!!!
Love, Isabella