[Ronaeh]
Waking up had to be the biggest blessing . Some people don't even get a chance to wake up , or lay down . All the bad that I have don't I'm surprised to even be here . I ain't fear nothing or nobody but God .
"Raise and grind . Come on yall get the fuck up . " he said
Little did he know I been up. I couldn't stop thinking . It's like my body want to rest but my thoughts said other wise .
Snake was fully dressed . He looked as if he ain't get shot up two days ago . The muthafucka had all the strength in the world he had both Noonie and Brielle in his arms . I wanted to say some slick shit but I'm just bite my tongue .
" Aaight Damn . Shut the hell up ." Nicole said rolling over .
" Exactly . " I added
Somebody entered the room . My back was turned I ain't know who it was and didnt I care . I ain't care until I heard the voice of the person . I jumped out of that bed so fast I almost fell back . I knew it wasn't going be long until I saw her .
" Nae don't start ." Snaked warned me kissing Mya
" Kiss my ass dumb bitch " I said snatch Noonie out his arms .
I told him no opp ass bitch near my child . I don't care what plan he had under control for all I know she was like her buddy . Until I feel like it was okay to be around her Mya was not to be around Noonie or Brielle .
" Hey Noonie " Mya greeted
" Don't speak to her unless you ask me . Got it ?"
" Aww shit " Nicole laughed
" Someone slept on the wrong side of the bed ." She said
" Yeah I slept on the other side of the bed with your man ." I shot back .
"What the fuck is your problem ?"
" Bitch don't act stupid . I could of sworn I made it clear not to be on no bullshit . You know what I'm not goin cut in the fool in front of my kids but stay the fuck away from me before you don't wake up . Try me " I snapped walking towards the door
" What you going do if I do ?" She said stepping towards me
The bitch then lost her mind . May the lord be with her . She had to be off some shit . I knew she knew better .
" Come on dawwwg . Nae go .. Bye " Snake said
" Don't talk to my mommy like that "Noonie said throwing something at Mya .
" That's what we on . You goin let her disrespect me the mother of your child ?" I said getting his face
Noonie grabbed Brielle hand and they both giggled . While Nicole got up and came on the other side of the room . She knew me better than I knew myself .
" Whole time thats not even his child ." She added
I waited a couple of moment before I had to realize what the fuck she just said . Nicole picked the kids up and rushed out the room .I took of couple of steps back and laughed .
" Excuse me ? " I said walking closer . " Repeat what you just said ."
" You h--" she got out before I punched her . She fell clean to the floor . Right when I was about to stomp her Snake grabbed me .
"Get the fuck off me " I demanded snatching away from him .
" Calm down ."
" We done . You ain't got shit else to say to me fuck ." I said before slapping him .
I stormed out the room mad as hell . I can't believe he goin sit there and let this bitch talk to me like that . Who does that ? On top of that in front of our daughter . What a bitch move .
I knew we was better than that . It's like lately me and Snake could never agree on anything .
I walked down to the park lot forgetting all about that Dice driver was picking us up . I spotted the limo straight ahead . As I was walking I heard somebody calling my name . Of course I didn't give a fuck cause I knew the voice . Fuck that nigga . I love Snake from the bottom of my heart . For him not to speak on his bitch mouth really fucked with me . Than he stopped me from tranna to defended myself .
" Naee I'm sorry ." Snake said grabbing my hand
" Yeah right . Fuck you ! " I said while driver opened the door .
" You know you my favorite girl . I'm sorry "
" You always sorry " I said before the driver closed the door
When I got in Nicole and Brielle was sleep . Noonie just sat there with tears in her eyes . I didn't say nothing all I could do was hug her .
As we drove to the breakfast house . We talked and talked . Noonie was so mature and everything . She was more mature than I thought . I could of sworn she was seven not thirteen . I wanted her to stay seven forever . Talking to her just made me want to stop doing ever thing and just spend every second with her .Who knew she would have me feeling like this .
We pulled up to the breakfast house . I ain't even have to wake Nicole up when she smelled food she went crazy . Her ass had a nose of a dog hound . She talking about me getting chunky .
We got out the car and walked into the place . The bitch was packed I guess we wasn't the only muthafuckas hungry . The waitress seated us and left .
" Mommy you leave school in two days and auntie Cole " Noonie said
" Yes we do . You goin cheer for us ?"
" Yes Me and Brielle going cheer ."
" Good I want Yall to scream so loud for us" Nicole added
" ok we will " Brielle
Since I was going take Brielle as my own . I wanted to know more about her . I know soemtime she feel left out but she ain't show it .
" Brielle so tell me some stuff about you ." I said sipping my water
" Like what ?" She asked laughing
" What's your mommy and daddy name ? Or what yours favorite food . What do you like ? What grade are you in ? Stuff like that baby ." Nicole said
" Ummm ... My mommy is name Denise but but ......umm she died . My daddy is I don't know . I don't like anything . I like you guys . I like being around Yall ."
I noticed after Brielle hesitated to say who her father was . Her and Noonie had exchanged looks with each other . I swear them to looks so much alike I promise it creepy .
" Aww that is sweet . You like living with Uncle Dice ."
" Yeah ." She said shrugging her shoulders
The waitress had came over to our table . I assumed was about to take our order . As much as I wanted to order my bladder had other plans for me.
" Nicole order for me . I gotta use the bathroom ." I said getting up
" Aye COME BACK .!" She yelled
I flipped her off and continue to walk . They hall way was so damn long . Seem like I was on a fucking journey . I finally got to the bathroom . It felt like somebody was dancing on my bladder . I heard someone come in after me . I hated to be in the bathroom when someone else was in there. I hated public bathrooms period . I finished up and walked to the sink to wash my hands .
There was hands place on my hips and head place on my shoulder
" Missed me mean girl ?" He asked
I ain't do nothing but laughed .
" You following me little daddy ."
"Pretty much ." He said " Heard I was Yall target ."
" Is that so ." I said turning around "Look whatever GPS told you to come for me but yo ass better reroute my nigga ."
Swanney really was a brave one . He knew I ain't have no gun or nothing on . That ain't going stop nothing from anything happening . Like I said before nothing or nobody scared me .
" Yes . I don't to much care about Yall little plan to kill me . I just want to make sure my kids alright . " he laughed
" Who is your kids. ?" I asked stupidly
" Natica and Brielle .. Duh " he said peering his body against mine . " You still bad as hell after all these years ."
After all these years ? His kids ? Got to be kidding me .
" Don't do that . Don't involve my kids in this bullshit we got going on " I said trying to push him away .
He laughed like it was so funny . I didn't understand the hell was so funny .
" Nae you gotta be kidding me . They look just alike . They look like me . They father " he said grabbing my neck
" You not they father tho so I'm asking nicely to please stop fucking with my kids ."
He rushed me onto the sink making me slam int the mirror . He tighten up his grip around my neck . The grip was so tight I was almost lifted up .
" Well Brielle is my child . Me and Denise had a little something going on . I was like twelve . She was in Forster care with me and boom Brielle happen "
"Ok and what the fuck that got to do with mine . Congrats for you ." I managed to get out
"Don't tell me you forgot about our special night "
The sound of my head throbbing drowned out whatever the hell he was talking about . I was trying to regain some type of focus . He talked and talked . When he felt like I wasn't listening he would smash my head against the mirror .
When I final came back to the moment . I thought about what I was going to do next . This was the perfect time to kill this nigga . I don't know how but I couldn't let this slip from under me like that .
" I don't care about what the fuck you talking about ." I said before I kicked him in his shit .
He let go of my neck before falling to his knees . I kicked him in the face making him fall . I tried to walk past him I tot the stall . He grabbed my ankle yanking it . I fell to the ground . I tired my hardest to get up but I couldn't . This nigga was stronger than I thought . Maybe I was goin die instead of him .
Than again how when dying was off limits for me .
He got u between my legs pinning me down . I hated being pinned down that was my weakness . I felt so weak he had me .
He wiped his head on my chest before kissing my neck .
" Remember this position ?" He whispered in my ear
He had both of hands in hand . I tried to head but him but he moved back witch made him mad . He slapped the fuck out of me . I literally had to rethink I how the slap felt .
" That was from when you smacked me the other day ." He said " Man you know you pretty as hell Nae . Seriously you would make somebody want to rape you ."
" Please get off me "
" That's what you said that night . I remember when I saw Nicole go to the bathroom and I just knew I had to get in them pants . You felt so warm inside " he said while kissing me
I didn't say anything else or even kissed him back . I just laid there I shock that he just admitted to raping me . I laid there frozen I couldn't do nothing for once in my life I wasn't goin fight back .
" You did put up a fight but I just had to have you . You had to be like fourteen at the time . You had a shape like a goddess . I tried to fuck with you but you so was so stuck up . Whatever I wanted I got and if I didn't I took it . I wanted you but you was playing . Ski took you and man was it worth it he said running his hand along my body
" You is a sick bitch . " I said
"Thank You I try . "
I couldn't just sit there although all the pain I had back then slowly came back . I had to get out of there . I had to think quick but I couldn't take my mind of the fact that he took what was mine away from me .
" WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME ?" I yelled
" Nothing . See it's either kill or be killed . And you and your friend are going to be killed . See what I don't understand is why Yall would think Mya on Yall side . How dumb . Ma I thought you knew better . How did you think I knew who your sister was ? How did you think I knew where you was at all times ? How do you think Indo got a key to Yall house ?Tell Snake next time he want be so lucky . Neither will Nicole . You... I got some In store for you ."he explained licking me
" Get the fuck off of me "
" Get off me Swanney please get off me " he mocked me "Jusy want to let you know Once I'm done with you . Your Bestfriend than you boyfriend and Snake goin join you . After Yall long and gone me and Mya goin raise my kids"
I swear I wanted to really just kill him right then and there . I ain't let it get to me to much not to were he knew it was fuck with me .
We stared at each other for a long period of time . Those eyes I remember like it was yesterday . The flashback was coming back .
Please please . Don't let this nigga end me . I can't let a fuck nigga take my life ain't no way In hell .
I faked like as if I was drifting in and out . As soon as I did that he kissed me one more time in the neck and eased off me . I opened my right just enough to see what he was doing . I heard him walk over to the stall . I heard a lot click and clacking . I knew that sound that was the last sound I heard before ending Rugger life . He was grabbing the back part of the toilet .
" Soorry baby you ain't cut out for this life . " he said lifting up the object
Just before he brought it down I moved . I got up and rushed him against he wall . I heard something droop but it was the thing cause he was still holding it . I looked around as quick as I can to see what it was . He grabbed my hair swinging me to the floor I laid in the floor . A spotted a gun it must of been the thing I heard fall . I crawled over there as fast as I could to grab it . He grabbed my legs dragged me back . I cuffed the gun under my chest as he dragged me . I turned around sending two shots out . It was one if those guns that didn't make a sound when you pulled the trigger . He fell to the floor instantly . I'm not sure were I shot him at . I ain't care either I wiped the gun off and dropped it by his head .
"I am cut for this baby ." I said walking out .
I felt like a true boss . Don't talk shit and get defeated . I walked casually putting my head down cause I knew my face was fucked . I walked up to the table I grabbed Noonie and Nicole got up and grabbed Brielle .
" I will explain later " I said walking out the door
My thoughts was once again everywhere . I can't believe after all these years my past has came back . He took a part of me . He knew after all of this time . Swanney was Noonie father that was a big pill to swallow . Seven long years I was face to face with the person who took my innocent . Not once but on so many occasions .