"Hi love." Zara said on the other side of the door.
She looked like she had a right to be at my front door. She looked the same as she always did. Her hair was still cut the same, she still had a smile on her face like she did when she saw me. Her hazel eyes still shined like they used to.
A year ago now, I'd be the first to welcome her home. But now, I have a pit in my stomach and even looking at her is making me sick.
I've been having the best ten months of my life without her here, spending four of those ten month with the person who showed me so much love, more than I was ever used to.
"Are you gonna let me in?" She asked me with a raised eyebrow.
"What the fuck are you doing here? Banging at my door at two in the morning." I asked her harshly in a low voice not to wake my girlfriend upstairs.
"I'm coming home." She said with a smile.
"What makes you even think you're welcome here?" I said coldly to her.
"I thought I'd give you a few months to calm down and realise we're us, we're messy and chaotic but we love each other. I mean we would've been married two months today, getting ready to start our little family like we always talked about. A little boy, named Khai and a little girl, Elana, we chose those names together." She said with a smile.
I hate that she was bringing up the life we could've had, the one she destroyed. Zara and I were going to have a family, it made sense to us back then, but then she cheated and honestly I don't even think I want to have kids anymore.
She's ruined that for me entirely.
"I haven't calmed down because you fucked us up. We aren't married, there's no kids and you aren't—"
"Let her in Val." I heard Collette's voice behind me. "She has things to say so let her in." It was subtle but her voice held so much irritation.
I stepped aside and Zara came in. With every step she took into my house I felt like my space was being invaded by an unwanted presence.
"You're still dating her?" She asked sarcastically and it took everything not to slap her right there and then.
I went to speak but Collette spoke before I could. "Yes she is. What are you doing here?" Collette asked as she folded her arms.
I stood beside her because honestly the last thing I want for my present and past to be interacting. So the sooner Zara is out of here, the sooner Collette and I could go back to bed.
"I could ask you the same thing." Zara said.
"I'm wearing vals clothes, have her hair tie around my wrist, what do you think I'm doing here? Take a wild guess." Collette said calmly, this pissed Zara off and I wanted to laugh. But I didn't.
"Just go—" I got cut off by my girlfriend.
"Don't talk." Collette said calmly with an ounce sternness to her voice.
I instantly shut up.
"This is ridiculous, I came here because we're us. Mes—"
"Messy and chaotic, I've heard. Do you know her favourite colour? Or her middle name?" Collette asked. I turned to her confused, why was all this relevant?
"That doesn't mean anything, I love her." Zara said and I couldn't help but roll my eyes.
"If you can tell me her favourite colour or even her middle name, I'll go. I'll never speak to Val again and you guys can get married. I'll back away. Tell me that and I'll leave." She said calmly.
I didn't like where this was going. First of all, I don't agree to Collette leaving. I don't want to marry Zara. Not now and definitely not ever.
"Collette—"
"Keep quiet." She said. And again I pursed my lips and shut up.
"Her favourite colour is blue or purple and she doesn't have a middle name." Zara said as she held a smug look on her face. I wasn't even surprised she didn't know the answers.
Collette, however, held a smile. "Valentina's favourite colour is cherry red and if she's feeling it a scarlett red. Her middle name is Sofía."
"She drinks black coffee with one shot of espresso Monday to Friday but on the weekends she drink a vanilla latte and if she's in a good mood she adds two and a half tablespoons of almond milk into her coffee. Her favourite show is orange is the new black but her comfort movie is oliver and company. It may be a cartoon but it's good."
"Her favourite book is the colour purple. She loves any song by Mac Demarco but if you tell her your favourite song, she takes the time to learn the lyrics so you aren't the only one screaming them with the windows down while you drive a long way. And she has a soft spot for animals only. But you didn't know that." She said firmly.
"You don't get to bang on her door at two in the morning trying to repair what you know you broke without a second thought. But because I'm being kind and I don't think you brought your car, you can sleep in the guest room." She said.
My heart jumped, something that's never happened to me before, for a moment I thought i was going into cardiac arrest. She knew the little details about me. Ones I didn't even think would matter. But to her they mattered.
I felt the blush creep onto my cheeks quickly. I couldn't pull my eyes away from Collette, she was standing in my oversized T-shirts that hung slightly off her shoulder falling to her mid thigh and her hair was still so frizzy, in my eyes, she'd never looked more beautiful.
"You can take the offer or go home, walking should be a long way from here I can imagine." She said calmly.
"I'll take the offer." Zara said in a cocky tone.
"Great, I'm sure you know where it is. Don't disturb Artemis he's sleeping in the living room." She said before taking my hand and walking us upstairs.
She had something she wanted to do and I didn't know what it was. I couldn't exactly tell either.
Once we reached my bedroom she closed the door behind us. "Darling are you okay?" I asked her softly.
"More than," she slipped her hands underneath my shirt placing her hands on my torso. "I'm going to give her a reason to...not come back." She said with a smirk on her face as her fingers inched lower and lower to the band of my shorts and underwear.
"Baby it's almost 3am." I said cupping her face.
"Tomorrow's Saturday, we'll sleep all day. I think you'll need it." She leaned up and placed a kiss to my lips. I kissed her back instantly.
Her hands pushed my pants and underwear down letting them pool at my feel.
The kiss was messy and all over the place leaving us breathless. She moved from my lips to my neck as her two fingers slipped between legs onto my clit drawing smaller circles.
A low moan vibrated in my throat. Rarely ever did we find ourselves where Collette had dominance in the bedroom. The last time we were in such a position was Valentines weekend.
"No, that's not gonna do." She completely removed her touch from me in an annoyed manner.
"That's okay we can—"
"Every time we have sex, you muffle every sinful sound you make. Tonight, if you hold back, we'll keep going until you can't hold back anymore." She said firmly, she's irritated and annoyed.
Even if the room is only dimly lit I can see her ears are turning slightly pink and her eyebrows have lifted a little.
Clearly Zara showing up unannounced not only irritated me too but her as well. I'm not complaining but I am willing to see how far she'll go with this.
"Baby it's almost three am." I said with a small smile repeating what I said either.
"And tomorrow Saturday." She said in a matter of fact tone. "I want everyone to know that you're mine. So give them a show." She said placing her hands on my torso underneath my shirt.
I didn't argue as she started moving us back towards the bed. She was on top of me and she wasted no time in placing her lips to mine.
We kissed each other breathless as her hands traveled between my legs to my core, two fingers over my clit rubbing small circles.
She moved to my neck sucking and leaving small bites along the way. I couldn't help but moan out softly.
"Louder baby." Collette said muffled against my skin.
Her fingers ran further down towards my entrance. Her fingers slipping inside and began curling at the perfect spot. Something about the way she was curling was new, good new, I let a moan slip out unintentionally.
"Oh shit—" I moaned out a little louder instantly slapping a hand over my mouth.
"No, don't do that." Collette said moving my hand away from my mouth.
She interlaced our fingers with her free hand and continued to move at the perfect pace inside me.
Louder moans slipped from my mouth. Growing louder each time she curled deeper and deeper into the spot.
I was growing close. I could feel myself tighten around her finger.
"I want her to know whose you are." She kissed my lips softly as her finger moved inside me.
"Oh god—fuck." I moaned out louder than I intended.
"No baby, me. The same way I did it for you." She said looking into my eyes that were threatening to roll closed.
"fuck, I'm coming." I said in a whimper.
She pulled her fingers out of me and I panted breathlessly, looking at her in question.
"I want to be sure you say it loud enough." She let go of my hand and travelled down my body.
She slid my T-shirt off my body so I was bare beneath her.
I held eye contact with her the entire time as she kissed down my body and placed her mouth over my core.
She lapped her tongue once, then twice and by the third time I couldn't keep the eye contact anymore.
Moans flew out of me at a louder volume. I've never been loud but god did this girl do it for me.
I felt her one finger slip into me with ease. And then another, thrusting in and out at the perfect pace with the speed and strokes of her tongue. "Fuck, Collette, I'm gonna come." I moaned out loudly.
My hands were grabbing the sheets around me, clutching them on my fists, my legs threatening to close the only thing stopping them from doing so is her head between my thighs.
"Collette fuck I'm coming." I moaned out in a whimper as I came all on her fingers.
Her tongue slowed down and so did her fingers curling pattern. Slowly my grip on the sheets loosened as she stood up and her fingers slipped out of me.
My eyes opened again to see her chin glistening in my wetness. She placed her two fingers into her mouth.
She moved up the bed as I regained my breathing pattern. She kissed me, allowing me to taste myself on her tongue.
"I knew you could do it baby." She said with a smile, like she hadn't just made me scream her name.
"Clean your mess darling." I said with a smirk, opening my legs for her.
She kissed me once before returning between my legs to clean up the mess she made.
She helped put my underwear and T-shirt back on and crawled into my arms.
"You get jealous don't you." I said with a light laugh. I could feel her smile against my neck.
"I do but just for you." She kissed my cheek and I chuckled before we fell asleep.
The next morning when I woke up and had seen the array of hickeys Collette had left on me. I couldn't help but smile. I wanted to go downstairs and do some work for a bit so I left Collette sleeping upstairs.
When I walked downstairs, Zara was there. And surprisingly this time, I didn't feel anything for her. No hate, no anger just nothing. I could confidently look at her and say "I feel nothing."
"Is what she said yesterday true?" Zara said to me in a low tone as she sat on the living room couch.
"Yes it is." I said calmly to her.
"I could hear you last night. It's not exactly the best 'white noise'" she said distastefully.
"You shouldn't have come then." I said to her shrugging my shoulders.
"She gave you hickeys, wow." She chuckled.
"I hope you're happy Val, knowing she could never give you what I can." She said standing up.
"I am happy with that." I said with a smile, knowing Zara could never give me what Collette did. Not like last night—or the last ten months anyway.
"I—"
"You should go home Zara." I said calmly.
She didn't say anything else and just turned to leave in a huff. Once she left I finally said morning to Artemis, fed him and went to my office to do some work.
After two hours, Collette did come downstairs grumpy, so she spent the rest of the morning sleeping on the small couch like chair in my office while I worked.
This is what I mean when I say I don't need anything elaborate just each other's presence. In the same room, comfortable silence, just us together side my side, letting the silence between us speak for itself.