Chapter 52 Bian Qing questions
Bian Qing's questioning voice was a bit loud, which shocked Su Ziyi and Su Yulang, and even attracted the attention of other guests at the table.
Su Ziyi was just about to say something when he saw the aunt next door with a yellow handkerchief tied on her head staring at them. He immediately shut up and didn't say a word. He just smiled at the other party, which made the aunt opposite him feel a little uncomfortable. Sorry, I couldn't look at it anymore, so I turned my head back angrily.
After Bian Qing finished shouting, he felt annoyed in his heart, so he pursed his lips tightly, lowered his head and said nothing more.
So, this meal, the family of three was a bit confused. Although Bian Qing didn't say anything else, looking at the displeasure on his face, Su Ziyi knew how much the other party's inner resistance was. Su Ziyi also knew that Bian Qing objected because he was worried about another accident. After all, what happened to him this time was too unexpected, and he was not a ungrateful person. He would definitely not lose his temper with Bian Qing because of this matter. .
It's just that this place is not a good place to talk now. If you want to talk to Bian Qing, you can only wait until you get home.
Just because they were in a bad mood, the three of them ate the meal very quickly, as if they could not wait to go home. After finishing the meal, Bian Qing held Su Yulang's hand and walked in front with a calm face. He waited for Su Ziyi to catch up at the oxcart that had been arranged. Then he silently held Su Yulang and sat at the back of the car with a look. Not even to Su Ziyi.
Bian Qing's passive resistance made Su Ziyi very embarrassed. After moving everything on the oxcart home and coaxing Su Yulang to go to the study to practice calligraphy, Su Ziyi went into the warehouse and found Bian Qing who was sorting out the debris.
"It seems like we haven't talked properly for a long time." After Su Ziyi came over, without Bian Qing's instructions, he grabbed the mouth of the grain bag on the ground, stretched it hard, and then tied the mouth of the bag with a string. , lift the entire bag of grain onto the partition to prevent it from getting wet from the moisture on the ground.
"I know what you mean, but it's just that it's impossible for me to never go into the mountains because of this accident." After saying this, he took the initiative to take another bag of grain from Bian Qing's hand. These are all Brown rice is what Bian Qing harvested this year.
Bian Qing has actually been angry with himself. He knows that he doesn't have much position to say anything to Su Ziyi, but he just can't help being depressed. You know, when Su Ziyi was in a coma, he had already thought about everything. From now on, the family can live a down-to-earth life. Of course, when Su Ziyi said that his cultivation foundation was not damaged, he knew that his The plan has basically come to nothing.
But he didn't expect that Su Ziyi could be so impatient!
Because he was a little angry, his tone was a little tough: "Do you think you are invincible?" After hearing Bian Qing's words, Su Ziyi breathed a sigh of relief and was finally willing to speak. "How can you? I'm just a simple body of flesh and blood." Su Ziyi smiled at Bian Qing, but it didn't make Bian Qing's tense expression ease any more.
"I saw that your injury hadn't healed yet, so you wanted to go into the mountains. I thought you thought you might be able to endure it." As soon as he said the words, Bian Qing felt that his words were a bit harsh. He was shocked for a moment, and then calmed down. After a while, his face became a little better. Su Ziyi didn't feel angry because of his words. He just explained patiently: "I don't want to go into the mountains right away. I have to wait until I recover from my injury." "But it's October now
. ." Bian Qing stood up and looked down at Su Ziyi who was still squatting on the ground. The dim light in the warehouse cast a shadow on his face: "When you recover from your injury, it will be almost the twelfth lunar month. Do you still want to go into the mountains?" "Of course I have to spend the twelfth lunar month well, and when the snow closes the mountains, I won't be able to go in." At this point, Su Ziyi felt a little funny.
"Are you too angry?" He looked at Bian Qing with narrow eyes, which made Bian Qing feel uncomfortable. He warned with a tigerish face: "Be honest." "I am being honest." He said to Bian
Qing After knowing each other for such a long time, Su Ziyi naturally knew that Bian Qing was hard-spoken and soft-hearted, but in fact, he didn't know how worried he was about himself. Such sincere friendship really touched Su Ziyi. After all, no one wanted to be with a hard-hearted person every day. Dealing with people, right?
Therefore, Su Ziyi was quite patient with Bian Qing's temper.
The atmosphere suddenly became less tense after being teased by Su Ziyi. Bian Qing's face also fell. He felt a little bitter in his mouth: "It's too dangerous. If there is a next time, you let me and Yulang What should I do?" When he said this, his eyes did not meet Su Ziyi's, but he lowered his head and looked at his toes.
What? What does it mean to let him and Yulang do something?
For a moment, Su Ziyi felt a rare embarrassment. He felt small pimples popping up on his skin, but he couldn't tell what was wrong. After a long while, he said awkwardly: "What do you mean there will be a next time? I will be more careful and won't let something like this happen again..." "If I pay attention, this won't happen
. Is that so?" Suddenly, Bian Qing raised his head and exploded, causing Su Ziyi to lean back in fright. If he hadn't been holding a heavy grain bag in his hand, he would have rolled on the spot. So as soon as he calmed down, he looked up at Bian Qing angrily, but his dissatisfaction was instantly shaken by Bian Qing's red eyes.
"Do you know how worried Yu Lang and I were this time?" Bian Qing's voice was full of tears, and his whole chest was rising and falling violently with his breath. But he kept holding it back, so he didn't let the tears really stay. Down. "Yu Lang stays by your bed every day, afraid that you won't wake up. I lied to him and said that as long as he did his homework, you would wake up, so he endorsed it desperately. While he endorsed it, he blamed himself. He always felt It was me who caused you to get hurt, and I became very quiet. Even when I was eating, I had to watch you eat so that I could eat more."
"I don't blame him..." Su Ziyi said.
"But he blames himself in his heart!" Bian Qing yelled. At this time, tears finally fell uncontrollably, which made him feel a little embarrassed. He immediately covered his face and turned away to prevent others from seeing, and his voice was also because of He was covered by his hands and was a little unclear: "The doctor said that your cultivation foundation may be damaged. I just thought that you should rest more in the future, and I will do the work at home. When the time comes, I will do more, be more tired, and be more Earn some money and maybe I can cure you."
"And you?" Bian Qing wiped his eyes with his sleeve and turned back to glare at Su Ziyi: "You just want to get better and go into the mountains. Have you ever thought about me and Yulang?" He came closer to Su Ziyi and squatted down, looking at Su Ziyi so that Su Ziyi could clearly see that his eyes were bloodshot.
"Yulang and I don't need you to have a big future, nor do we want to live a luxurious life. We just want our family to be healthy." Bian Qing said this in a low voice, but it was very interesting to Su Ziyi. The impact was no less than the other words just spoken. "Su Ziyi, can we stop being so selfish?" In Su Ziyi's eyes, Bian Qing was begging him.
Me, you...what exactly happened here?
Su Ziyi, who was stunned by Bian Qing's words, lost the ability to think for a moment. When his brain could function again, he reacted belatedly. Why does Bian Qing seem to be very important to him in his words? Did he really consider himself his husband? This thought instantly made him tremble, and then an incredible expression appeared on his entire face.
Yes, people might actually regard him as their husband.
Just like what he thought at the beginning, Bian Qing may not have thought about the change of person in his body at all, but only thought that Su Ziyi's temperament had changed. Therefore, he can calmly accept Su Ziyi's "getting better", he can also calmly accept money and care from Su Ziyi, and he can even allow Su Ziyi to get close to Su Yulang.
But all this is based on Su Ziyi being that "Su Ziyi".
What if it's not? As the original owner's family, can they tolerate others taking over their husband or father's body? And is it acceptable for this outsider to use money to buy out all relations with them? Even if the original owner was a scumbag, Su Ziyi didn't dare to ask himself these questions, because he was not Bian Qing or Su Yulang, and he was not qualified to answer these questions.
In particular, Bian Qing's question just now was so heavy that even Su Ziyi, who claimed to be a rational person, was a little shocked by the emotions inside.
In fact, if he only considered his personal opinion, he would definitely reject Bian Qing. But now, because of Bian Qing's outburst, Su Ziyi really realized that the whole thing had become complicated... Not to mention that he had occupied the body of the original owner, just after he came to this world, especially when he was injured several times and was in danger, It is no longer easy for Bian Qing to take care of himself and be busy doing things.
This young man who had been subjected to violence for ten years used his not very strong body to help him time and time again. Not only did he take good care of the injured man, but he also provided him with new clothes for each season and no need to worry about housework.
Under such circumstances, it would be very heartless to refuse without even thinking about it.
As for myself, the most disgusting person is this kind of person.
So, do I have to completely inherit everything from the original owner and be responsible for Bian Qing and his son for the rest of his life?
This is too ridiculous! Su Ziyi knows better than anyone else that he has no regard for Bian Qing. Although he loves Su Yulang, he still lacks some feeling of blood connection, so he must really agree with him from the bottom of his heart that he becomes Bian Qing's husband. The identity of Su Yulang's father is almost impossible at this stage!
Moreover, Su Ziyi is not a person who lacks love, and he will not be discouraged by the true feelings that Bian Qing and Su Yulang have for him during this period.
All of this made Su Ziyi regretful. Why didn't he explain everything to Bian Qing from the beginning?
Until now, not only have they lived under the same roof for nearly a year, but they also really rely on me as their husband, and their children may actually treat me as their own father.
For a moment, Su Ziyi's eyes were a little unclear, and the way he looked at Bian Qing became complicated. He knew that he had no love for Bian Qing, but because they had known each other for so long, he loved Bian Qing more. There is some appreciation and heartache, but overall, we can only be called friends.
The change in Su Ziyi's expression was clearly seen by Bian Qing. Seeing that Su Ziyi was about to regain his calm look, Bian Qing couldn't help but feel a little panicked. He narrowed his eyes slightly, thought deeply, and jumped in before Su Ziyi could speak. After talking, "Think about Yulang." His voice was a little hoarse from crying just now, and it sounded a little heart-wrenching.
"I -" Looking at Bian Qing's averted eyes, Su Ziyi felt inexplicably that he was really a little cold-blooded? But after blinking, he calmed down: "Yulang is a good boy, and I like him very much. If I can do him good, I am willing to do it to him." He said this sincerely, because he loved Su Yulang The feelings for this child are indeed very deep, and I hope this child has a good future.
"Then what do you think is good for Yu Lang?" After saying this, Bian Qing seemed to have exhausted all his energy. He stood up with a tired look on his face and walked around without waiting for Su Ziyi. Su Ziyi walked out, but before going out, he paused and said: "You are too self-righteous and always think what you think is what others think." Then, he left without looking back. .
But his words hit the spot, and revealed what Su Ziyi was most worried about.
For a moment, Su Ziyi, who was turned against the general by Bian Qing's words, was completely stunned.
Was he wrong? So where did he go wrong?
Was Bian Qing wrong? So where did Bian Qing go wrong?
For a moment, Su Ziyi didn't know who was right or wrong. After all, for him personally, he has no direct relationship with Bian Qing and his son, but for Bian Qing and his son, the person occupying Su Ziyi's physical body should be their husband or father. It is only natural that this family should be responsible.
Therefore, there is nothing wrong with him, Su Ziyi, longing for the outside world and breaking away from the current environment.
However, it is not wrong for Bian Qing to have appeals to her husband from her husband's perspective.
So, who's wrong?
After a while, Su Ziyi stood up unsteadily. He relaxed his already aching legs and feet, placed the unfinished things in the warehouse in their proper places, and then looked thoughtful. I left the warehouse thoughtfully. After leaving the warehouse, he did not go to Bian Qing, but went straight to the study. He leaned against the door frame and looked at Su Yulang, who was lying on the desk practicing calligraphy, thinking about his problem.
Chapter 53 Determining the plan
"Father!" After writing another big letter, Su Yulang raised his head and relaxed his neck. He saw Su Ziyi standing lazily at the door, and his eyes suddenly lit up.
"Father, have you finished your work?" Su Yulang politely placed the pen on the pen washer, and rushed over to him, causing Su Ziyi to stumble and completely interrupting Su Ziyi's train of thought.
Looking at his innocent and careless look, Su Ziyi couldn't help but sigh.
"Yu Lang." As usual, he put one hand on Su Yulang's head and rubbed it, and Su Yulang obediently let him touch his head, "Huh? What's the matter, father." Su Yulang especially liked his father touching his head. Give him a warm feeling. "I was wondering, your tenth birthday is coming soon, is there any gift you want?" Although Su Ziyi held Su Yulang's shoulder with one hand, her eyes did not fall on him.
"Birthday? Gift?" Su Yulang, who was leaning closely against Su Ziyi, blinked, looking like a confused little animal: "Why are there gifts for birthdays?" His unintentional words made Su Ziyi hold his hand. His hands couldn't help but tighten for a moment, but then they immediately relaxed. "Because I want to celebrate that Yulang has grown one year older."
Su Ziyi squatted down. However, because the quality of life of the Su family has skyrocketed this year, Su Yulang's height has also grown a lot, so Su Yulang looks better when he squats down. It's more than a head taller than him.
"Is there anything you want?"
"Well -" Looking at Su Ziyi's smiling face, Su Yulang stood up straight, slightly pursed his lower lip and tilted his head, as if he was thinking about Su Yulang's question seriously: "But, I don't There is nothing you want."
After a while, Su Yulang whispered: "It's good now. We can all have enough to eat and wear new clothes." As he spoke, he flexed his fingers He started counting: "Amu won't be so tired that he faints on the ground, and he will laugh often; father, you won't be angry anymore, you will buy me delicious food, and you will teach me how to read..." Here, he showed a big smile to Su Ziyi and said in a cheerful tone: "I think it's very good now. If there is anything I want, then I just want the family to live happily like this forever. "
Family?" Su Ziyi's voice and eyes were a little weak, and the hand on Su Yulang's shoulder shook.
"Well!" Su Yulang was young and naturally didn't understand what was going on between the two adults in the family. He leaned his whole body into Su Yulang's arms and said in a sweet and innocent voice: "I heard Erdan next door say, In spring, there will be a flower festival in the town, and there will be many beautiful flowers and a lot of delicious food. Father, can you take me there?" After saying that, he still nuzzled into Su Ziyi's arms.
"Want to go?" Su Ziyi hugged Su Yulang tightly. Although he stood on tiptoe, his whole body was stable. Even though he was still carrying the weight of a person, he did not shake at all. "Yes." Su Yulang nodded fiercely: "Erdan said that at the flower party, there will be an old lady selling delicious sweet soup. I want to eat it! I also want my mother and father to try it." After saying that, he raised his head At first, his eyes met Su Ziyi's, a pair of bright black eyes.
What a child.
Leaning on Su Ziyi, Su Yulang was like a happy bird, talking about the Huahui. It was obvious that he was yearning for it. Su Ziyi also listened to him patiently, until he got tired of talking, and then asked in a voice that only two people could hear: "Can you let Eminem take you there?" "Emma?" Su Yu
Lang was a little confused. You know, although Eminem was very kind to him on weekdays, his father usually took him there for outings like this. Because Eminem would always refuse, he didn't quite understand Su Ziyi's words. : "Father, are you busy with something? What are you going to do?" He thought for a while and added: "Are you going to the mountains?" After speaking, he pursed his lips and said coquettishly: "It's so dangerous in the mountains. , father should go to town with me."
These childish words made Su Ziyi laugh. After laughing for a while, the depression that had accumulated in his chest was swept away. He hugged Su Yulang and asked softly: "Shanghai Were you scared for the first time?" Hearing his words, Su Yulang suddenly felt aggrieved. He turned around, hugged Su Ziyi's neck, and asked angrily: "Will father blame me?" "What are you blaming for?
" It was exactly what Bian Qing said - after hearing Su Yulang's words, Su Ziyi felt a little distressed in his heart: "That's not your fault." "But if I hadn't followed, my father wouldn't have been injured because he had to save me. "Su Yulang closed his eyes and leaned on Su Ziyi's shoulder to prevent himself from crying.
"What's the matter?" Su Ziyi touched the back of Su Yulang's head: "Such things are unpredictable, no one can blame you. Then if I don't protect you, do you have to blame me for not having the ability?" He just said this As soon as he fell, he was immediately strongly opposed by Su Yulang: "No! Father is the most powerful!" He puffed his mouth and rubbed Su Ziyi's shoulder in dissatisfaction.
"So -" Su Ziyi felt comfortable listening to the child's childlike words. He hugged Su Yulang to his knees: "This matter is neither my fault nor Yulang's fault." "But. "——" "Still feel uncomfortable in your heart?" "Yeah." Su Yulang said dullly, one hand unconsciously pulling on the thread on Su Ziyi's lapel that was scraped out by firewood branches.
"It's normal to feel uncomfortable." Su Ziyi felt that all his patience in this life was devoted to this child: "If Yulang was injured, I would also feel very uncomfortable." "But I feel so useless." Listen Su Yulang felt better after Su Ziyi's words, but he was still a little unhappy. He picked at Su Ziyi's clothes with his fingers: "If only I could help his father." At this point, Su Yulang became a little self-pitying
: "I don't know anything, so I can only stand aside and hide. If Amu is there, then Amu can definitely go up and help father." His words made Su Ziyi a little bit dumbfounded, but also, although Su Yulang knew that some practitioners were following The difference between ordinary monks, but the specific difference is still not clear, so they say such ridiculous things.
"When will I grow up? When I grow up, I will definitely be able to help my father." In the end, Su Yulang sighed melancholy like a little adult.
After hearing this, Su Ziyi did not continue to laugh. Perhaps it should be said that he could no longer laugh.
At this time, he only felt that his chest was swollen and sore.
All along, he thought he could treat the father and son with a detached attitude. But how can we be ruthless if we are not just grass and trees? Bian Qing and Su Yulang told him clearly with their true confessions that Su Ziyi was not an insignificant person to them, but a person who was closely related to their lives and inseparable.
This made Su Ziyi feel a little scared, because it went against his expectations, but at the same time, he couldn't bear to cut their hearts. After all, human relationships are the most important thing between you and me. When the father and son showed their dependence and trust to him, didn't his heart melt a little because of this?
Su Ziyi couldn't tell the answer "no" at all.
At this moment, even without holding her hands, Su Zi could feel that her heart was beating eagerly because of Su Yulang's words. It was really moved by the child's sensibility and thoughtfulness, and was eager to respond to the child. Even if this answer went against Su Ziyi's reason, he would not look back.
"Yulang, do you really want to grow up?" Su Ziyi heard himself asking in a daze.
"That's right!" Su Yulang didn't notice the difference and nodded. Although his tone was childish, the will contained in it was absolutely determined: "Only when you grow up can you grow taller and stronger. In this way, you can do many things, not only help your father and son. By doing housework with Eminem, you can also learn to protect Eminem and your father." The child's words are the most sincere, especially for children like Su Yulang who have lived like a blank slate since childhood.
"That's it." Su Ziyi didn't dare to ask any more. He felt that his heart was already beating abnormally. If it weren't for his desperate patience, he would have burst out of his chest long ago.
He must calm down! He must think clearly!
Su Ziyi's eyes were full of struggle as he hugged Su Yulang. His inner pursuit of the path of cultivation has not been extinguished, but has become more intense because of these encounters. So take Bian Qing and Su Yulang with him? This thought made him hesitate, because once he embarked on the path of cultivation, he could never come back. It was a completely different path from that of ordinary people. He did not dare to bet, and could not bet, on whether Bian Qing and Su Yulang would succeed. Suitable for this path.
So what should he do?
——"You are just too self-righteous and always think what you think is what others think."
Suddenly, what Bian Qing said before rushed into his mind again, making him wake up instantly. Yes, what he thinks is always his own thoughts, so what do Bian Qing and Yu Lang think? What if they want it? What if they had the courage? That's right, you shouldn't make choices for them.
At this moment, Su Ziyi was completely relieved. He loosened his hold on Su Yulang. He straightened Su Yulang's body with both hands and said with a questioning look in his eyes: "But it will be very hard and painful. Maybe It's many times more painful than now."
"Well -" Su Yulang was stunned after hearing this. Although there was some hesitation on his face, he still nodded: "But haven't Eminem and father experienced it too? If you want to go through it, Only by doing that can we become like Eminem and father, who can take care of and protect their families - since Eminem and father can do it, then I can definitely do it too." After saying that, the last bit of hesitation on his face disappeared, and his
hands He looked at Su Ziyi with piercing eyes: "And father will teach me, right?" His eyes were full of trust and admiration. Even if he didn't know what Su Ziyi would teach him, it did not prevent him from putting his deepest trust in him. Put it on your favorite father.
After hearing what he said, Su Ziyi laughed. He stood up, pinched Su Yulang's armpits with both hands and picked him up, then walked around the yard a few times, making Su Yulang scream a few times, but he laughed when he heard the screams.
That's all, who can say clearly what will happen in the future? Since they care a little now, it is better to cherish it and let nature take its course. If they have to part ways one day in the future, it will be fate and cannot be forced. And he has made the most guilt-free choice. Whether it is for himself, or for Bian Qing and Su Yulang, he can always say "I am worthy of them."
And that's fine.
Su Ziyi was not a procrastinator. After he thought about it clearly, he immediately went to Bian Qing to make it clear, but Bian Qing didn't give him a chance and even started to hide from him. Except for meals or other occasions when Su Yulang was around, he rarely spent time alone with Su Ziyi, which gave Su Ziyi a headache.
But this is obviously not possible.
His injuries are getting better day by day, and the duration and intensity of his training are also increasing day by day. Su Ziyi personally feels good, but at the same time, he also knows that his behavior will aggravate Bian Qing's inner anxiety. Therefore, that night, he estimated that Su Yulang had been put to sleep by Bian Qing, so he walked to the door of Bian Qing's bedroom, ready to have a chat with Bian Qing.
But before he stood in front of the door, he heard a noise coming from the room.
"Oh, Eminem, it's not like that." The voice was not very clear through a door panel, but Su Yulang's voice was too loud, so it was still clearly heard by Su Ziyi outside, and as soon as Su Ziyi heard Su Yulang's words There were some anxious voices, and I couldn't help but wonder, it's so late, why is Yulang still not asleep?
But the mystery was soon revealed.
"Ah——" This was Bian Qing's voice, but because his tone was very gentle, Su Ziyi had to concentrate his spiritual power on his ears to hear it clearly. "Is it written wrong here? This shouldn't be written over here." Bian Qing's voice was a bit embarrassed and self-blame, which was very different from his usual generous and neat temperament.
"Well, it's like this..." Su Yulang took over, but Su Ziyi didn't listen to the rest of the words. He walked to the window and secretly used his spiritual energy to push the window open from the inside to a gap of two fingers wide, allowing him to I can just see what's going on inside clearly from here.
And he moved his eyes forward, just in time to see Bian Qing biting the penholder and frowning.
Looking in front of him, a table originally used to place miscellaneous items had been sorted out. On it were a book, a stack of white paper, and a pen and ink inkstone. On both sides of the table, the older one was drawing on the paper with tangled eyebrows, with a somewhat frightened face as if he was frightened by his own writing, while the younger one was no longer as cute as before and was looking at a picture seriously. His face, his eyes were fixed on the words written by his own mother, for fear of missing any wrong place.
This amusing scene made Su Ziyi unable to hold back any longer and burst into laughter.