Blue POV
"A bitch like me woulda stabbed they asses too" Chloe said as we laid in the living room watching true crime documentaries.
I had created into a big fort in the living room for our family night. I know we weren't technically a family but I wanted us to be..
I loved having my sisters around... no matter what anyone had say about them, I knew they were good people despite their actions. They had hearts and i knew they loved me even when I get on their nerves
"See this why i said we shouldn't be watching this, we're giving Edward Scissor Hands ideas" dad said making me laugh and Chloe who was laying on his shoulder mushed his head
"You don't ever get tired of riding my dick? Like damn let me live bro" Chloe replied to him and I noticed mama was kinda zoned out
She had been like this for awhile around me and I hadn't said anything but now it was kinda obvious and I'm sure everyone was picking up on it
I heard the front door swing open and aunt solo casually walked in like she lived here or something
"Where my girl at?" She called out and we all looked around in confusion because who exactly was she referring too?!
"Yo who?!" Mama said snapping out of her daze with her country accent popping out.
"I'm right here under the whale!" i heard Lovie say as she struggled to remove Halle who was knocked out on top of her and I realized auntie had been referring to Love as 'her girl' which was outrageously confusing
We all looked around at each other wondering when the heck this happened? Since when did aunt solange start liking them, especially getting them gifts
"Well when the hell did this happen and where were we?" Dad asked My aunt as she helped move Halle off of lovie helping her back into her chair
"We had a talk and we're cool now." Aunt solo said vaguely and all I could do was scratch my head because what?!
"She's taking me to see the froot loops bird!" Lovie said happily, Chloe and I just laughed at her because she knew good and well..
"You mean A Toucan dummy?" Chloe asked her and lovie just looked at her. "Bitch that's the Froot Loops bird ain't it?" she snapped back at her
the way they speak to each other was so funny because they were friends but you would think they hated each other.
They called each other everything but their name it was crazy. It was cool seeing that dynamic so close and also see how differently they treat me compared to how the treat each other
They will be telling each other to kill themselves in gruesome detail while cutting the edges off my sandwiches. Like its actually insane but also hilarious at the same time
"You're taking her to the zoo tomorrow?" Mama asked Aunt solo and she nodded.
"I thought you said you didn't like the zoo, it's hot and stank remember " I asked my aunt remembering the time we all went to the zoo for my 8th birthday
"It is and I don't.. hell I don't wanna go at all but I was guilt tripped... you mind if I take her for the night?" Aunt solo asked my mom
"No she doesn't, take her please... that hoe been annoying me all day" Chloe begged and I watched Lovie flick her off. "Fuck you too slut" lovie replied and they both laughed
"Watch your mouth bad ass" dad said flicking Chloe's lips immediately getting her riled up and they began play fighting
The loud noise caused Halle to jump out of her sleep and I seen mama immediately catch her by the shoulders because she was about to freak out
"Calm down.. it's ok, go back to sleep" mama said cuddling her and I watched as she rocked her back to sleep...
I began to feel a pinch of jealousy in my spirit. Aunt solo and Lovie had left avoiding the mess that was happening in here
I don't know what it was but seeing Chloe and my day playing around along with my mom rocking Halle and aunt taking lovie out on a zoo date, I definitely felt some type of way...
I just simply got up and went upstairs... I didn't really feel like being down there any longer, I was gonna drive myself mad if I stayed
I went up to my room, grabbed my notebook and just laid down on my bed. I didn't care for movie night anymore, I was irritated
I just started writing, I had already read Halle's message to me and i wanted to understand where she was coming from but i just couldn't
She was basically just explaining to me how I needed to give my parents time. I was their first child and they didn't really know any better but I just couldn't get with that
Ive given them 11 years? How much more time do they need... they're grown! It can't be that hard to just be there for your child..
About 10 minutes after I got up here, I got a knock on my door causing me to groan in annoyance. "Come in.." I said and I seen both my parents
" oh no, she's adding more hate letters about us in her burn book" dad joked and my mom just looked at him
"can you act like you have some sense for once? everything doesn't need a damn joke" mama told him and he held his arms us in defense
"Calm down Jamal... don't pull out 9" he responded causing me to fall out laughing because why would he say that..
"There goes my happy Babygirl.. what's wrong?" My dad asked sitting down by me and I sighed. "Nothing" I muttered
I didn't like being questioned... it made me nervous. I didn't like feeling responsible for hurting someone's feeling and I knew it was a good chance of hurting their feeling if I spoke about it so I didn't..
"If it's nothing, why did you leave? We were just about to find out how they dismembered the body and stuffed it into the suitcase.." dad said enthusiastically and I just looked at him in concern
He's so weird sometimes..
"Uhh.. I just didn't wanna be down there anymore" I told them shrugging closing my note book so they didn't see what I had just written about them
I noticed mama look at me and frown up a little, I don't get what's her problem with me... shes been acting so funny all of a sudden and I really was beginning to get sick of it
"What's your problem? Why do you keep look at me like that?" I finally asked her so she could finally tell me what I did to make her this stiff around me
"You know you don't have to keep lying to us about your feelings... we already read your journals, you could've just told us how you felt I promise we wouldn't have been mad?" Mama finally spoke to me and immediately I began to get angry
"You went through my things?!" I yelled shooting up to my feet.
I went under my bed seeing all my notebooks kinda scattered under there not stacked up how I usually have them, letting me know that they had been up here snooping through everything
"Well duh! you barely speak to us anymore, all you do is write.. we had to make sure you weren't planning a mass murder or something." Dad said and I scoffed at him
"Why would I be planning a-... ughh you're so annoying!" I said noticing the goofy smirk he had on his face, this is why nobody fools with him now... he plays too much!
I went to my closet and noticed I had a shoe box missing which scared me because I knew that I had a lot of bad things in there
"If you're looking for your little vape collection.. you can stop, Halle and I got rid of that" I heard Chloe's voice from my doorway and my head snapped back
"You were vaping?!" Both my parents yelled out and I just stared at Chloe in disbelief
"What the heck?! Why has everyone been in my room, what happened to privacy?" I asked them all slamming my closet door furiously
"We have been giving you privacy! Which has been a very bad mistake because we didn't even know you were smoking, when did this even happen?" My mom asked pissing me off
"Last year when everyone forgot about my talent show that i reminded you both of for weeks! Any more questions?" I asked not even caring anymore because they had no right to be going through my stuff
Chloe isn't even supposed to be up here! I couldn't believe her, why would she do something like that especially without even talking to me about it beforehand.
"Watch your tone little girl.. I'm not talking to you crazy, so don't talk to me crazy" she said and I just rolled my eyes at her
"It's not like you talk to me in the first" I snapped at her
"Don't do that blue... you know how hard I work! I do the best I can" mom tried to justify herself and I just crossed my arms
"You work so hard, you don't have enough time for your biological child but you have enough time for them.." I said pointing to Chloe who was still standing at the door
"that don't got nothing to do with me sista .. I'm smoking my cigarette" Chloe said referencing a TikTok sound as she shrugged
"Look blue... I didn't come up here to argue. I understand how you feel about us, and I apologize if I made you feel less than or neglected by your father and I's actions. We just came up here to show you that we do care and want to make things better" mama said taking a deep breath looking up at me but I didn't wanna here that right now
"Make things better?! How can we make things better when you don't even respect my feelings and privacy? How can you sit in my face and do things with them that you don't even do with me? you're own child...Your only child!" I asked them making sure to remind them that I was their only kid
They didn't respond which said a lot honestly. I had a lot of pinned up resentment towards them that was honestly beginning to spill out right now.
I was just so annoyed with everything that's been going on in my life lately, plus I was still trying to understand myself so this stress was just making everything 10 times worse than it already was
"You rocked Halle to sleep right in my face and you don't even do that for me... that's messed up! I get what you're doing for them and I really don't have a problem with it, I love it honestly. We feel like a little family but You're my mom... MY mom and you're treating them better than you treat me, you don't get how frustrating that is" I told her letting out everything that was on my mind
"I'm sorry Blue. I genuinely didn't realize I was making you feel like that, I promise I'm gonna do better for you. I don't want you to grow up hating us because we really do love you... we'll do anything for you" mama told me and truthfully I wasn't even in the mood for her crappy apology
It didn't really mean much if she didn't plan on actually acting on her words... I was over everyone and just genuinely wanted to be alone
"You can start by leaving me alone.."
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Chapter 25!!! Happy 4th y'all RAHHHH 🦅🇺🇸
The little family movie night? How do we feel about that?
Solange taking lovie to the zoo?
Blue feeling jealous of the new relationships between her family and the girls? Is she wrong?
Why do you think Blue snapped the way she did? Do you believe Beys apology was genuine?
Any Thoughts or Questions?