Jayson POV
Her demeanor was cold and impolite. We had enough of history to know that she wasn't much of a gray person. It was either black or white.
I could understand that her attitude might be caused by my intrusion but she was different, something was off and it might be in my favor.
Since she came here, Volker was on edge, feeling her energy going all over the place, as if she was somehow unstable, unable to distinguish her own unity. Perhaps, I was simply deluding myself, still in denial of the instant rejection.
Blaming her was not even an option, I wronged her and an apology was not enough to redeem myself. And she promised herself to remind me every single time.
I was set on asking for forgiveness the moment I left Red Crescent and so did I. I longed for her, and I found her. My heart was pierced through when her eyes reflected nothing but contempt.
It wasn't even hatred, it was simple annoyance.
Why did he have to show up?
She treated me like bad weather, she didn't hate it but if it could stay out of her sight her day would be better.
She was done, she said. And I almost believed her...
If she was done, she'd ignore me, she wouldn't be all distracted by my mere whereabouts, I could sense it, she was changing.
She was no longer the human Serah that couldn't perceive the privileges our Moon goddess gifted upon us.
She saw it all, and my smell. I had a few weeks on her on how to conceal the maddening need to bathe in her scent, I learned how to compose my urges, when foremost, it was a human I had to deal with. Now, she was more accustomed to the words holding back.
However, I was now facing a resentful half wolf half human, but I liked her better now. I hoped she would forgive me, I'll do whatever I could for it to happen but if it didn't work, I believed in the Moon goddess, she would play with her strings and I was willing to pay any price for her intervention.
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"I don't care if it wasn't her story to tell but I have to hear it."
Jeorgia was such a wholehearted being and she should stop pouring the irritation she'd feel towards me onto her.
Words I dared not to utter as I was trying to be in her good grace.
"Serah, this letter, is simply so much more than you would think. There is a reason why they didn't tell you anything."
Her knuckles lost their innocent colors as her teeth grinded to her pressure.
"I will not wait, they've been hiding a whole part of my identity, a whole part of my history and I refuse to calmly wait for those half assed answers. Not when it affects me in ways that makes me hate myself."
The meaning she hid was vague, was it about our bond or was it about her outburst. Either way, she was made perfect, her instinct called to protect and to step on those who disrespected her blood.
She was perfect.
White for those who deserved it, and black to those who chose a path, they wished they didn't.
Jeorgia, stood out of her chair and went to the room. Serah tried to mimic her actions but Kamil kindly took her hand and she sat back right after. Impatience was emanating from her breath so she tried to breath in slowly and breath out seconds later. After adopting the rythme, Jeorgia was already back but with a phone in hand.
She sat but not before giving the phone to Serah.
Her eyes widened at the gentle voice that called her name, she darted out of the table and went out of the house, banging the door as hard as she could.
Silent painted the walls of this warm house until the bundle of light decided to break this awkwardness.
"I tried to get to the house, I'm not doing it again."
"You did well my cherry pie."
Cooed her mom as they playfully giggled together.
"How did you have her mother's number?"
Kamil asked, still facing his plate.
His mother sighed and started her long story.
"I didn't, I tried for her uncle, Eos, he's the last recorded lycan of the continent, if she wanted to know about it, it was better to have the same likes of her explaining. But, I didn't have his number either, so I called your uncle, my younger brother. The last we talked, he told me that Eos was staying in their territory for you know, Kevin so I tried but Ritha answered, his mate and per pure coïncidence, her mom was next to her."
This was why I hated Ice Moon, they had information we were not allowed to get and they had no intention to share any of them.
Since when, lycan were not an extinct species and how did their family were in contact with one.
We exchanged a knowing look with Kamil before he spoke.
"She lets you hear it because you're mates but all matters regarding lycans are dealt with by our territory or more specifically by our family."
I scoffed. Being in the same room as Kamil was never easy, my wolf demanded respect and he wasn't one to bow. His blood made him hold his ground and this internal tension came back to the surface as Volker could only be tamed by his mate.
"Don't forget who you're talking to."
I tried to swallow the growl coming up but I didn't forget that I was in his house in a territory foreign to the one I ruled.
This cutlery clashed louder in this tense situation, Serah did not come back, Kamil and his stepdad didn't utter a word and Kesa was thoroughly concentrated on her piece of meat.
Only Jeorgia, from time to time, she'd ask about Red Crescent, my sister, the rogues...
"Mom, what was the deal with aunt Inhana."
Again, words I could not comprehend but his mom did not bat an eyelid before responding.
"Sister, it's quite a long story, I'd rather talk when Serah gets back, but one thing for sure, she was the one who was the most involved with them."
"What do you mean by that?"
Her words were full of riddles, people from here were not taught how to properly convey information. How did they survive for god's sake?
"You could say, she was the reason Serah's grandparents met."
Both Kamil's eyes and I went wide to the revelation but my mind had been clouded by the angry steps I felt from my chair.
"Kamil, deal with her, I feel her anger in my blood and my wolf is frightened."
"Mom, I'm the same, you know. Kesa, you should go, it worked once."
"I won't, you promised me a piggyback ride and you lied. Kamil is a liar so I don't care if she shouts at you."
"Babe-"
Her husband abruptly left the table, never letting his wife finish her question. To say less, no one wanted to deal with her not so positive vibes.
"I will."
I cracked into this mess of an atmosphere she created.
Kamil laughed at the idea.
"Please feel free, I think she would open her arms wide to hug into a warm welcome."
I followed the husband's steps and I went to reach the door. I ignored his sarcasm knowing that if I talked it wasn't words I'd be using.
"Dear, he's right, she needs to calm down and you won't-"
I growled at Jeorgia's insinuation, she was someone I respected and it needed to go both ways.
"She's my mate."
I left them with only one thing in mind, finding her. It wasn't hard, she was down the first storey.
Our eyes met, and I expected her to turn away but she went right forward not sparing me anymore attention.
I positioned myself to be right in front of so she'll be confronted with my frame. She knew I was blocking her way so she stubbornly tried to dodge the obstacle but I was as determined as her.
"Jay, if you're going, just go, you breathing next to me is irritating enough."
Her golden hues never reached my blue ones as she was looking far behind me. But I got closer and forced our gazes to be one.
I could feel the mixture in stomach and I imprisoned her hands so she wouldn't run away.
"Look at me Serah, don't you feel irritated and all over the place?"
"If you weren't this close I wouldn't be this agitated."
I went in closer, face to face, her breath fanning my skin and her heartbeat erratic, lost probably like mine.
"Think again, how do you feel right now?"
We were inches away, both our animalistic side on edge to the sudden closeness. My hands in hers, working our fingers to intertwine them.
To my surprise, she closed the gap between our bodies leaving nothing for our brains to proceed. My hands gently traveled to her face cupping her soft cheeks. I make some air between us, to have a better view on the zone I would dive in. And I did.
Her lips tasted the same, heaven. The pace was slow, our tongue did not dare getting involved but it was enough. Enough for her at least, so her mind would be at peace.
She broke away from the contact, with her eyes still in daze. She paused for a moment to regain the air her lungs needed and I could perceive her inner turmoil.
She was supposed to hate me but I was the only one offering this type of comfort.
I kissed her again, not leaving her the chance to count all the pros and cons of my action. I would probably lose all my rights for skinship then.
This time, I slowly pull my lips away still grazing hers but she didn't miss a beat to suck on them. Our supposedly innocent kiss was on its way to be indecent but I managed to pull away before my whole body put a claim on her.
I acted on my instinct to ease her nerves, not to trip her into having sex outdoors. Not that I would complain, but I was sure she would regret it. Her body surrendered to our bond but I broke what our heart built with my foolishness, until I mended our connection I would not force her affection.
"Do you feel better?"
Her ambers fluttered through her eyelashes, but her regard did not waver.
"I hated not hating it."
Her voice was poised leaving nothing but a blatant truth.
"I feel better too."
She ran away.
But Volker was content with the little skin ship she allowed. There was still a chance between us and I was ready to work for it.
She was really confused, for once, it was neither black or white, she was in a place foreign to her habits and I was there, in that place where she had no control over.
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