Y/n pov
it's my first time to see the marvel cast and oh my lord...if i saw Elizabeth olsen? I'm ready to die. just kill me coz my life is already worth it
"oh my god y/n....this is it" Maggie says also panicking coz she have a crush on Hemsworth
"i know.. I cant believe I'll act with eli----" I responded before someone fucking hit me in the shoulder making me drop the script i was holding
i immediately get on my knees to pick up the papers when suddenly i saw a person...her hands rather also picking up the papers helping me
"I'm really so so sorry i was just rushing...i didn't mean to hit you, are you ok?" she asked sounding worried and i jsut froze on my position knowing exactly that voice
i looked up to see the one and only lizzie olsen..she also stared at me for a while before she shake my thoughts off by her speaking first
"wait...y/n right?? y/n y/l/n?? oh my god welcome to the set..sorry that wasn't a good forst impression" she chuckled nervously before we both stood up and she gave me the papers
"you...uhmm know me?" i asked nervously my heart skipping a beat
"of course"
"can you pinch me?" i asked
"what???" she also asked confused but laughing
"sorry I'm so weird" i chuckled
"i like it" she smiled and i just found my self staring at her eyes
"lizzie??? lizzzzzieee" a voice says as we both glare to see Scarlett Johansson already wearing her black widow costume but still in blonde hair
"oh yeah, here's yours" lizzie says giving her a coffee
"hey...." i greeted extending my arm and she actually just smiled at me and left
kinda rude tbh
"sorry, as you just saw she's just now having her morning coffee" Lizzie giggled
"uhmmm do you maybe uhh wanna have....hmmm lunch later, outside?" i asked
"are you asking me on a date?" she asked smiling widely while wiggling both of her brows making me chuckle
"i mean i still Don't know anyone here and u seem nice but if u see it as a date....sure"
"ok no prob, 12pm...lets have a date" she stated can't help her smile while biting her lips and i just nodded
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lizzie pov
"hey babe?" i hummed getting y/n's attention while she's taking a nap laying on top of me her head rested on my stomach
"hmmm?"
"weve been uhmm together for years.."
"yeah..and?" she responded looking up to me pouting
"have you ever thought of settling down?...like moving together and maybe uhmmm babies?" i mumbled nervously
"you know i don't like kids" she sigh getting off me and just lay beside me as i glare my body fully on her side to face her
"i know but we're getting older...like imagine the kid is just y'know a child and we're already at the point where we can't really take care of him or her" i stated still trying to convince her
"you're overthinking, we're not even in our 30's" she chuckled
"why don't you wanna settle down? don't u see your future with me? you don't even wanna kiss me"
she clicked her tongue and just spread her arms signaling me to cuddle her as i bury my face on her chest and she just kissed my forehead
"not that i don't see future with you, you know i love you more than anyone else in my life..but lizzie life is great.. don't you wanna enjoy it before going in that stressful situations? i wanna spend my time with you only...at the moment" she smiled looking directly at my eyes while cupping my cheeks caressing em gently
"i just can't risk loosing these opportunities that were free to do whatever we want together" she added and i just nod
"stop overthinking ok?" she sigh
"that's like saying breathe to a drowning person" i giggled and she just also laugh before kissing my forehead again and just pull me to a tighter hug
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"THAT'S IT?? YOU'RE NOT EVEN GONNA DEFEND ME???" y/n asked furiously referring about her fight with Scarlett earlier
"y/n please stop, you're stressing me out" i sigh and literally just hold the table and looked down
"she fucking said i was using for my pleasure and youre not even offended? i can't believe you" she added still in a furious expression
"she's joking! sarcasms y'know?" i argued back
"WELL SHE'S OFFENSIVE, I FEEL LIKE AS LONG AS EVERYONE IS LAUGHING YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT WHAT I FEEL. LIKE IT'S OK TO MAKE OFFENSIVE JOKES ABOUT ME AS LONG AS EVERYONE IS HAVING THE TIME OF THEIR LIVES LAUGHING AT ME!" she shouted literally shaking in anger
"Y/n it's not even a big of a deal, JUST DON'T TAKE EVERYTHING SERIOUSLY!!"
"wow, ok lizzie it's ok to be offensive towards me as long as it's just a "joke" ok ok i get it!"
"i can't deal with this" i sigh and just turn my back on her to breathe and wipe my tears
in just a minute u suddenly felt hands wrapped around me as she bury her face on my back
"I'm sorry... I didn't mean to shout at you" she hummed kissing me on the cheeks
"i just....uh.. it's ok to make jokes but i jusg don't like the idea of you being involved on those ones that are offensive and crossing the line...i love you, i don't want people making fun of it" she added sounding guilty
i just remove her arms to turn around and face her as she's just looking down
"just don't act like this again ok? lets just enjoy things and don't be this serious in life" i stated cupping her cheeks as she nod
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y/n pov
"where are you going? you're not gonna sleep with us?" i asked noticing lizzie is packing her things up when in fact we all decided to have sleepover on rdj's place
"sorry, i have to meet a friend" she says still fixing her things
"do you maybe need a driver? i can drove you there"
"no, don't worry. I'll just drive.. I'll take the other car, you can bring the other one"
"ok..but like have you eaten yet before going??"
"Y/N CAN YOU STOP??? PLEASE ASKING QUESTIONS I CAN'T FOCUS ON WHAT I'M DOING. WHERE'S MY PHONE! UHH!!" she complained furiously and i just nod and stayed quiet
she's been like this lately, she always seem exhausted and always gets mad on little things... specially little mistakes i do and i just don't know why
she eventually find her phone and just started texting before kissing my cheeks not even looking at me and just left
it's just tiring..she don't seem to be interested anymore and it's killing me
i just fix my self and get ready for the sleepover. i wear sweat shirt and pants before hopping in the car to drove
i arrived and i actually didn't enjoy the talks and games we we're doing earlier because of thinking about lizzie...i just slept to the side near the window because stars always comfort me
*timeskip*
*thunders*
i hid my self under the sheets and just hug this pillow tightly imagining it was lizzie to comfort myself. I'm astraphobic.. I'm scared of thunders and lightnings because of a childhood trauma
i just can't help but whimper and just flinch everytime a thunder hit when suddenly i felt the bed moved and someone just go inside the sheets and wrapped their arms around me pulling me closer
"it's ok...just breathe, I'm here" a feminine but deep voice says and i looked up to see Scarlett actually looking worried...i thought she hates me but her hold is actually working
"d-dont leave please" i mumbled hearing it's getting louder
"i won't"
"thankyou scar"
"don't call me scar we're still not that close"
"oh..ok"
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my work just finished and i directly goes to my girlfriend's house because obviously she just takes the exhaustion away
i went inside locking the door behind me and i literally explore the house but she's not here so i decided to check the CCTV footages
turns out she's in the guest room's bathroom and she haven't come out there in 2 hours...
worried, i immediately run my way downstairs and barge in the room and quickly tried to open the bathroom but all i hear is her sobbing
"LIZZIE!! LET ME IN!!!"
"no...go away"
"please!!! what are you doing there? let me in!!"
minutes of begging and she didn't let me so i decided to grab the keys of the bathroom and just open the door with force
she was just at the floor sitting down hugging her knees...i went on her and just pull hrr in a hug kissing her forehead
"what happened?? tell me" i stated worried cupping her face and honestly she looks defeated
"h-hes g-gone" she stutter and just sob
"HE?? WHO??? LIZZIE COME ON!! WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT??????"
"o-our..baby..h-hes gone" she says bringing confusion to me before she hugged me tightly crying her eyes out on my chest
"b-baby?"
"i-im sorry, I'm sorry" she sobbed agin and I'm just there still stunned
"y-your pregnant?" i asked shaking
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry..sorry i didn't know what happened but the doctor said he's gone" she stated again but I'm still lost
"why didn't you tell me about this?" i asked swallowing thickly
"i just wanna surprised you on your birthday...but he's gone..." she burst out crying and my jaw dropped as tears also started to fall on my eyes because of how heavy my chest feels.
"I'm sorry..i didn't mean to lose our baby"
"it's ok.. it's ok it's not your fault" i cried pulling her tighter kissing her forehead to comfort her but i found my self in nowhere can't imagine how she hid this from me and i didyeven had a chance to atleast appreciate my own child's existence..
"I'm sorry, you don't deserve this...you don't deserve me" she says pulling out of my hold staring directly at my eyes
"what do you mea--" i asked but quickly cut my self off getting her point
"no..n-no i-i" i panicked but she's just shaking her head still crying
"l-look i will n-not leave you in situations like these" i begged trying to hug her again but she's just pushing me away
"y/n please..."
"lizzie, i need you..i love you i-i can't lose you" i sobbed but hugging her stomach but she just sit there not moving
"Don't leave me..please" i cried catching my breath but she stood up and just left me at the bathroom crying sobbing on the floor
*timeskip*
i stir awake laying at the bathroom floor wondering what happened but quickly realized it. i just sigh and force my self to stood up to look for her but she's not around
i just decided to drive my way to my comfort rooftop..i was gonna leave seeing someone is there but i also realized that someone is crying and she seem familiar
more seconds of stare and i realized it was Scarlett...i sat beside her and gave her handkerchief for her tears
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"i knew you're just gonna break her heart"
"she broke mine.."
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a/n
for some reason i was crying while writing this and now my head hurts, GRAAAAAPE