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𝕶𝖔𝖗𝖆𝖊𝖙𝖆 𝕹𝖆𝖒𝖎𝖉𝖆 𝖌𝖆 𝕬𝖋𝖚𝖗𝖊𝖘𝖔𝖚 𝖓𝖆 𝖓𝖔
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Tw// self harm, angst
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The crystal figure of Douma rushes through the forest at its blinding speed, heading back towards UA while carrying wounded Y/n.
The teen let out a low sound in despair causing the ice Uppermoon glances down at Y/n.
Holding the boy protectively in its arms before accelerating its run.
After running for an hour, they arrived at UA, sneaking around towards Height Alliances and jumped to Y/n's room window.
The ice Douma set carefully the wounded teen on the side of his bed.
Y/n panted heavily, staring down at his chest.
After Y/n took a few deep breaths, he placed his hands on Kokushibou's flesh blade.
He clenched his teeth to brace himself for the pain before starting to pull the blade slowly out of his shoulder.
"Aaahh....hahh.. Hahhh.." Y/n spoke haltingly from the agony.
He was in so much pain that he could hardly hold back his tears.
There was suddenly a knock from his door and a familiar voice called out to him.
"Y-Y/n?"
The said name realizes it was Yuga. As he stand up, a burst of pain on his wound made him drop to the floor and curled up.
'Damn it..! Get up! Get up Y/n!' Enduring the endless throb, Y/n pushed himself back on his feet.
The crystallize Douma assists him and went open his door, peeking his head through to meet with Yuga.
"Yes Yuga?"
Y/n clutches tightly on his shoulder, and clenched his teeth.
Yuga was surprised to see his classmate back.
"You're back..! We heard from All Might that you-" Aoyama paused when he notice how exhausted Y/n is. "Tell us everything what happened tomorrow. Get some sleep for now."
"Right... Goodnight, Yuga."
Aoyama smiled at him. "Goodnight Y/n."
Y/n closed his door and leans back to it. His hand still clutching on his bleeding shoulder with the flesh blade still on it.
'What is going on... Why does it hurt so much..'
Realizing that this was Kokushibou's flesh and it's attacking him from inside.
Without warning, Y/n pulled the flesh blade out of his left shoulder abruptly. He cries out, not too loud to not disturb the others.
Shutting his watery eyes as some of Kokushibou's flesh were destroy him. If it's a demon flesh...
"Nichirin blade.. It will stop that Uppermoon's flesh.. From causing me in this pain." Y/n uttered before he stood back up.
He went to grab his nichirin blade, removing his from its scabbard.
Y/n also took a clothe, rolling it before he puts it in his mouth.
The teen sat back down on the center floor of his room with wide eyes. Picking up nichirin blade, and positioned it by pointing the blade part on his shoulder wound.
Shaky, shallow breath as Y/n struggle to keep himself from trembling while he felt his tissues on the wound part are being eaten by the demon's flesh.
'I can do this... I'm just gonna get rid of Uppermoon one's flesh... I can handle this..
Nice and rationally... With any without hesitation..!'
With that, Y/n thrust his nichirin blade on his wound. He's clenching his teeth on the clothe and shut his eyes close to prevent his tears to fall.
"Mmmrrgghhh..!!.. MmggHhh!!...." Y/n lets out a muffled scream through the clothe. His face was twisted with pain.
"Urmmgghh!!... Mmfgghhh...!" He continues to whimpered on the cloth, until the Uppermoon's flesh died down.
After a few minutes later, Y/n pulled his nichirin blade that was covered his own blood and drop it beside him.
Some of his blood on the blade splattered to the floor. Y/n leans his head back on the edge of his bed as he's catching his breathe.
"Haah.. Ha..hh... Haahh.."
After removing his bloodied shirt, Y/n began to rinsed the wound using a washcloth, and gently scrubbing it off. He then apply an antibiotic cream on his wound, and covers it with bandages.
Y/n cleans up the blood on the floor and his nichirin blade using his bloody shirt, before he sat on his bed and lays down.
He blankly stare at the ceiling.
".. So tired... When will... this... end..?"
His heavy and tired eyes slowly closes, as letting the darkness takes over his sight.
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"Aizawa! Young Aoyama told us that Young Tomioka is back and he's at his room, resting."
All Might said through the Erasure Hero's phone. He let out a sigh in relief.
"Thank you All Might-san. I'm glad to hear that. Yamada and I will be back there shortly." Aizawa said.
"Right. You two be careful on your way back"
He ended the call before he look towards the devastated area where Kokushibou and Douma fought.
"Hey Aizawa. What is happening to Tomioka? Why can't he remember us?" Yamada asked.
Aizawa recalled what Shinsou and the Big Three told him.
"It's the same as he doesn't know Shinsou and the Big Three..
Now, right after he uses his Quirk, Y/n doesn't know anything about us. We're just a stranger to him." Aizawa stated. Trying his best to hide his pain.
"It's his Quirk." The two UA teachers turn to Gran Torino who approaches them. "When Tomioka got rid of Kurogiri using his Quirk, we detected a very faint pulse from him."
"What do you mean?"
"There is something living inside the boy's Demon Quirk, and it's slowly killing his humanity." Gran Torino stated.
Tsukauchi went to them, holding a tablet. "Eraser, you need to take a look at this too."
Aizawa was confused but he look at the tablet, showing a cctv video of Y/n and Eri hugging at the sideways.
Before he could ask what's wrong with it, Aizawa couldn't believe when he saw Y/n lift this hand with a sharpened nails.
"No. He wouldn't do this." Aizawa said.
"Of course he won't. Tomioka is a kind-heartened boy. All of this was his Quirk's doing, that I feel it might went on rampage someday." Gran Torino said.
"You need to find a way to prevent Tomioka from going out of control of his Quirk." Tsukauchi said in a serious tone.
"For now, I won't send this information to the Hero Commission." He added.
"Why?"
"Because some of them will not hesistate to take Tomioka down and put him on Tartarus."
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An expanse of land covered by grotesque features of land surrounded by an endless blue spider lily, which is shrouded in a thick mist.
Unware of the same demon woman staring at me from a distance, smirking.
I gaze around through this foggy area, filled with silence. As I wonder my situation, I sensed a presence behind me.
Turning around and my eyes met with a mint-green one.
"T-Tokito-san?"
"How pathetic can you be?"
This startles me, confused why did he say that.
"Tch! I can't believe we wasted everything on this worthless kid!" I glance to my side and saw Shinazugawa, looking disappointed at me.
"W-What? I don't understand.."
"You failed Y/n." I turn to see Himejima. "Because of your failure, the poor souls will face death. It's all your fault."
Failed? But I haven't failed anything yet. What are they talking about? I..
Shinazugawa grabbed my head by my hair and made me look at thousands of dead people below.
"Is this what you promised to us?! Ha! Is this it?!" Shinazugawa yelled at me.
"N-No-!"
"Unflamboyant as ever. You're not my tsuguko." I heard Uzui's voice, and felt his instense stare at me from behind.
"I.. I can't believe this..! How could you!" I saw Kanroji cries out while Iguro comforts her.
"K-Kanroji-san, please don't cry- I-"
"Shut it brat. Don't you ever say our names with that mouth of yours." Iguro said with a harsh tone.
"W-Why? I... I don't understand! What did I do wrong?!" I asked desperately. Shinazugawa kneed me in the gut causing me to cough out saliva.
I curled up on the ground while clutching on my stomach.
"You ran away from the Uppermoon one." Tokito added whilst walking around.
"But I don't have anything! I wasn't ready!" I said, struggling to sit up.
"You could've used your damn Quirk!"
"Exactly! Now people will die because of your cowardness!"
"Not to mention how you look weak in front of the Uppermoon, How unflashy and disgraceful can you be?"
There's a heavy feeling in my stomach. Himejime, Shinazugawa, Iguro, Kanroji and Uzui were disappointed in me.
"We shouldn't have chosen you as our successor. You're nothing but a worthless and failure brat."
Flinching at every words they said, my lips were trembling as I slow, disbelieving head shake.
"No... Wait please.. I can still fix this.." I spotted Rengoku and Shinobu standing with the other Pillars, both of them were looking at me disappointed as well.
"Rengoku-san... Shinobu-san... please.. I swear I will defeat the Uppermoon one and Muzan! I promise!"
"You're the one who's Muzan is after."
"Huh.."
"It wouldn't be a problem if you weren't there in the first place. All in all, nobody really needs you." Shinobu said while looking daggers at me. All of the demon slayers were staring at me with full of hatred in their eyes.
"..N..No one needs me?"
"That's right. Not even your own family."
My mouth falling open and arms hanging loosely at one's sides, I turn my head around to find my ancestor, Giyuu and his family-friend, Tanjiro and Nezuko.
"G-Giyuu-san.."
They didn't said a single word, they only look at me with hate.
"This.. This had to be a nightmare.. right? Please tell me this is just a nightmare." I said, sounding desperate to know that everything that happening right now is a nightmare. There's no way they would say those words..
I gasped and taken aback when I saw my parents with angered expression.
"No.."
"You're a disgrace in this family, and to everyone. Your not my son." My father said, giving me with a hateful eyes.
"It should've been you that died. Our life would be so much better if you were never born." My mother stated.
Hearing those words from my own parents... was enough to brought tears to my eyes and hunching over as if choking down a sob.
"Enough." Giyuu said in a very dark tone that it cause me to flinch.
"Giyuu-san.. Please, don't be mad at me.."
"I'm not mad, I'm disappointed. To think someone so worthless and failure like you had a same name as me. You deserve to lose everyone. The world wouldn't change if you disappeared." Giyuu said.
I drew my head back while I stare in denial at my ancestor, trying to process what he said.
"I.. I.."
I lowered my head, gazed down on the ground with wide eyes. Suddenly, everything around me goes dark which I ignored it as I'm overwhelmed with mixed feelings of sadness and hate.
The first time in my life, I'm having hatred towards my own f̴̥́̊̂͛̀̏̄ͅȧ̸̝͈̹̦̏̿̌̇m̸͓͊́̀̇̽͊ȉ̷̼̥̹͓͇̬̔̈̏͐͑ĺ̴̡͙̼̩͖̎y̵̮̼̣͔̩͙̍͛̈́̃̔͐͗
Don't cry. Stop shedding tears. I'm done with this. Being weak. Please. This has to be a nightmare. Well, it's not like I'm not used to this by now.
"Y/n-kun, it's all right to cry."
I looked startled for a moment.
"If it hurts, you can cry."
No. It doesn't hurt me. There's no use crying over spilled milk, as they say.
"I understand you're strong... You're strong.. It must hurt. After all, those Demon Slayers and your family disowned you for bringing shame to them."
I look up and saw the demon woman, silently cries as she walk over to me.
"Right now, you're putting up a front and try to act strong. Your heart is aching and your very existence is painful."
My vision is starting to get blurry and getting dizzy, my breath rasping in my heaving chest. She's right. I can't endure this anymore.
I lowered my head and covers my eyes with my arm. Shoulders begin to bounce whenever I shed tears.
Until I felt arms wrapped around me and pulled me towards their body.
"That's right. Let it all out. That so full of tears endured. So.."
Her skeletal claw hand travels down and unbuttoned one of my demon slayer uniform,
"Show me your neck."
It causes me to flinch and look at her in confusion. "What..?"
"Let me do something to cheer you up."
"What are you talking about?" I watch in horror as she was hold a small carving knife.
"Allow me to give you the blue spider lily mark like on my neck. I'll carve for you."
"No. No please."
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At the other side of the room, is Midoriya's room. One for all begins to activate as Midoriya's arm start to glow, sensing danger.
Y/n winced as his eyebrows furrowed, moving his head from the side to side.
"..Stop.. don't want..."
"Stop! I don't want it!" He screamed while being hold down in his subconcious realm.
"...hurts.." His eyelids were twitching as he groaned.
"No! Please stop! It hurts! Stop!"
The sharp blade carving through the side of Y/n's neck, crimson liquid spewed out from his cut neck, dripping to the ground below. He helplessly let out an anguished scream as he felt the stinging pain from it.
The woman was smiling sadistically at the suffering boy before she continue to carve a spider lily flower on his neck.
Displaying a silent yet apparent possessiveness and sadistic over Y/n.
'That man.. Yoriichi and the others.. won't stop me now.'
His hand unconciously grabbed the side of his neck and curled up to the side.
"..Stop.. Help.."
Icy air spread around the room, the Crystallize Douma emerges from it and turn its attention to the distressed sleeping boy.
"Enough.. already...!"
Douma quickly walks over to Y/n, grabbing his shoulder and start shaking him to wake him up. Sitting beside the bed, as it still attempting to wake the distressed boy.
"....Stop..!"
Without warning, Y/n woke up and swung his arm accidently destroying the crystallize Douma's head. Gasp rips through his lungs, struggling for air.
The head begins to regenerate and seeing Y/n's panic state, holding onto his neck. He checked to see no blood or felt a carve wound on his neck.
The crystallize Douma wrapped its arms around Y/n, the gesture was comforting despite Y/n's panicked state.
The young Tomioka slowly calmed his breathing and his posture went slump. Tears streams down from his eyes..
remembering how his father, mother, ancestor, mentors and the others disappointed in him..
"..Why... I did everything I could... It wasn't enough?" Y/n muttered as his voice breaking and a slight of ẖ̸̜͔̣̥̦̲̝̐͒̑a̞͇̱͕̙̓ͥ̀t̵̹̝̏r̢̺͓̦̂ͭͣ̃e̸͙͕̥̟̒d̢̺̭̰̜̘̪͆ͥ start to develop in him towards the demon slayers.
Y/n glances towards the wisteria flowers and his unfinished poisons. He leans down and place his hand on his forehead.
"Damn it.." Y/n muttered with exhaustion, before he glances at the crystallize figure hugging him. "You can let go of me now. I have to work."
Douma shook its head 'no'.
"For someone who is strong and tough outside, you sure a very fragile one on the inside, Y/n-kun."
The woman smiles at glowing sphere with an blue spider lily flower inside. Y/n's spiritual core has a crack.
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