a/n
this is a reminder that y/n is still dying EHE
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y/n pov
"you're telling me i have 3 years huh?" i asked
I'm in this doctor right now to get test since maggie begged and he just told me that i somehow have this cancer and i have 3 years to live
"sorry but yes"
"are you serious? are you fucking serious?!?!" i asked grabbing his colar getting outrageous
"y/n..calm down, please.. you're making a scene" maggie whispered trying to get my hand off him
"p-please lets be professional" the doctor stuttered as i was looking directly at his feared eyes
"professional? MY WIFE IS PREGNANT! I HAVE A TODDLER..that is as mentally unstable as I am AND YOU'RE TELLING ME I HAVE 3 YEARS?!?" i asked shouting still furious gripping his collar tightly both of my hands shaking
"y/n...please calm down, come on sit down" maggie says calmly
"THIS DAMN DOC---
"SIT...DOWN"
i huff before doing what she said releasing the doctor and just came back on my sit
the conversation ended and i just can't get my shit together
"let's go to a shooting range" i mumbled as Maggie drove
"no"
"JUST DO WHAT I SAY! DAMN IT!"
"are you shouting at me?"
"no..just saying" i sigh mumbling
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SCARLETT POV
"you ok now?" i asked kissing y/n's forehead as she's wrapped around me, face buried on my neck
"hm hmm" she responded but i can still feel her catching her breath
she's been feeling really light headed to the point that she can't even sit properly.she also can't stop vomiting all day and the thing is she can't eat anything because it triggers the vomit and its making it worst
"you'll be ok...i promise" i smiled sniffing cupping her face to look at me
she weakly raised her hand just to also cup my face and wiped my tears by her thumb before giving me a reasuring smile
"i-i know i w-will" she says before dropping on my chest to rest her head
"well u should..because if you won't there's no point of continuing these chapters of my life..my story won't continue without my y/n y'know" i said seriously but i just heard her chuckle
she suddenly grabbed my hand intertwining our fingers together and just stare at them
"it's funny how long we fought for this relationship to last...the trials, the arguments..the cheating.....but i guess it was all worth it at some point because it made us stronger and learn a lot..the thing is it will end like this..i thought till death do it's part means growing old.." i mumbled
"y-you know my..uhmm person from the past..u-used to say, Everyone is g-gonna die and no one will remember y-you so do whatever y-you wanna do... I'm glad i settled with someone i know w-will remember me until s-she can"
"and will never replace you with anyone..again. i promise you're the last one" i responded hugging her tightly
"i can't wait till you meet cosmo... we're gonna be the happiest, we will spend every minute and second we can together" i chuckled still sniffing, i know her soft spot are the kids and this is just my way of comforting her and giving her a reason to fight
"what if i didn't g-got the chance to meet him?" she asked and by the look of her face I just know she already accepted this as a fact
"no..no, don't say that please. you're gonna meet him ok? we're gonna be the happy family we planned when we we're just planning our future"
"red, I don't wanna go...i wanna stay on your side... I'm scared" she said suddenly looking directly at my eyes..tears escaping her forest eyes
"you won't go...you will stay, i promise...i need you to believe on mh promises ok?" i asked also crying can't handle seeing her be this fragile
"we will start our day as usual when you're healed..we're gonna drink boba in the morning...flirt everywhere we go, hold our hands whenever we feel unsure, not sleep and just watch Netflix all night, get a dog again, were gonna do that when everything is fine"
"and i know..i c-cant go.. who's gonna buy you f-flowers and wings when I'm gone?" she chuckled weakly making me also chuckle
i adore her so much that she can make me laugh in times that i can't even smile.
"that's right, i need my necessities" i responded also sarcastically
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Scarlett pov
y/n is still at the hospital.. it's already night both me and rose lay beside y/n letting her be in the middle so we can both cuddle her
i was just about to fall asleep and my dream was about to start but i suddenly heard y/n and rose talking
"mama can we go to Disneyland again when you're ok?" rose asked whispering. i felt y/n moved on her position to glare her whole body to rose
"yes baby...we will go to Disneyland"
"promise?"
"promise."
they both stayed quiet for a while before y/n cut of the silence with a question that really just broke my heart
"baby, mama have a question"
"mama no, i didn't make those kids cry.. don't believe my teacher"
"what? what do you mean? who cried?"
"my teacher didn't text you?"
"no"
"oh ok..lets just forget what i said.. what do you wanna know mama?"
"rose...do you think heaven exist? do you think there's happiness in there?" y/n asked making me open my eyes but i stayed quiet and listen
"mama that's not important, no one knows if it's real or not....but I'm just thinking why does people wait to go to heaven to be happy? why cant we just make our own present world as happy as we wanted to be when we go to heaven?" rose responded making me actually realize things
i felt y/n's smiled as she just wrapped her arms around rose kissing her forehead
"i love you cacti"
"mama it's rose"
"cacti"
"rose"
"shhhhhh"
"fine"
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