Finding Myself (Completed)

By NocteLux

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What would you do when you learn that everything you believe is actually a lie? Which life would you choose i... More

Endless Torture
Rejection
Parker's Pov...
Let the truth comes out
Unbearable Pain
Already 2 an half years
An Unknown Journey
Next Stop-Back to the Hell
I am back Bitches!
The Longing Mark
The Only Chance
My First Weakness
Hide and Seek
Wait for me
Lost the One I love
Upcoming War
Blessed With Blood
The War and the Comeback
The mating
Happy Ever After
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The Bonfire

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By NocteLux

Hey guys so I uploaded the new chapter too as soon as finished. I hope you like it. Sorry for the gramar mistakes and please vote and comment.

Love ya all :))

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Everyone was settling. My phone ranged. I opened it without looking at the caller I.D.

"Hello"

"Hello sweetheart, its dad." My father voice came from the phone.

"Hey dad, how are you? I really missed you guys."

"We're fine honey. But I need to talk to you about something."

"Yeah sure, what is it?" I asked

"Honey, the 400 knights will have to go to the other packs. The rouge attacks haven't stopped yet. And they need our help."

"Of course dad. Do you want me to go there too? You I would." I said meanwhile Jake and Laura came to my room and stopped in front of the door. I motioned the to come in.

"No honey. 400 will be fine don't worry and focus on your mission. See you in two months we love you."

"I love you too dad." I said and hung up.

"So what's up?" Jake asked

"Rouges, like always dad asked me to let go 400 knights so that they can help. I want to go too." I whined.

"Leia babe you have a mission. Finished that first. It will be good." She said

"Sooo...?" said Jake

"Soo.. what?" I asked

"Please don't kill us but your old pack giving a bon fire and I haven't been one for a long time. Please Leia, pretty please." Said Jake

I looked at him and he was really enthusiastic.

"Why do you need my permission anyway?" I asked

"Because this is your old pack and we hate them too but you know we want to go because it will be fun." Laura said. 

"Okay, we can go." I said and they hugged me yelling some things like "We love you. You're awesome." Yeah I know whatever.

"Soooo, Jake get out I have to make Leia ready." Laura said with a huge wicked grin in her face. I know that look oh God please stop her. Jake got out of the room to get ready and we were alone with Laura

"So my princess, let's make you awesooooome!" she yelled. I covered my ears and said

"Wow young lady, stop there, it's just a bon fire calm down." Well but she didn't.

She dragged me to the walk-in closet and started to force me to dress all of them. I swear the god she has the ability of finding things that I don't even know I had. So I stopped looking to the dresses after 10th. When I dressed into the last one I yelled to Laura that this is the last one. But of course she said something very usual for her, I decide that, so I walked out of the closet while whining and when she saw me Laura's eyes widened.

"Oh my god you look amazing. Okay let's do your make-up and hair then you ready." She said.

We walked to my mirror and where my make-up tool stays. She started to do some things I don't know. Because she covered the mirror! Can you believe that? Ugh!

Finally she said finished and let me look to the mirror. I saw a beautiful girl in her pure white summer dress just like my wolf's fur and wavy hair with a light make-up and gladiator sandals.

"So, you like it?" said Laura with an expression that like waiting for approval.

"I love it, its beautiful thank you honey." I said and hugged her. By the way when I was dressing she already dressed. She had denim shorts, a red tank top and red with black straps sandal and her hair was simply flowing through her back.

"Oh you look beautiful too. " I said

"So let's rock those boys' worlds" she said and we walked towards the field laughing.

Parker's Pov

Tonight there will be bon fire for Leia's arrival. My pain started to fade away but the rejection of our mate hurts us more than anything else.

"You made it to yourself. I always knew she was the lost princess but I wanted you to see her potential but you lost her, hurt her; now because of you I can't hold my mate in my arms too." Saron said, my wolf. He talked to me for first time in 2 an half years.

"Then why didn't you say anything!" I yelled

"Because you were and are the one who can make her completely happy but you're throwing it away." He said

He was right. She was powerful and beautiful. When I arrived to the field I saw everyone looking at the same spot. When I turned I saw the most magnificent girl I have ever seen. She was like an angel fell to the earth.

"Look at her she is such a beauty and a symbol of true power. I can feel the authority coming from her." My wolf said

"Yes she is. She is perfect." I said

When she caught me looking at her our eyes met. God she has such piercing eyes. I was about to walk towards her but she walked past me and sit next to her friends. I frowned and walked to my pack. Night were going uneventful suddenly my little sister Kayla ran to Leia and hugged her. Leia surprised but hugged back when she realized who she is.

"Leia, I missed you so much." She said

"Oh sweetie I missed you too. How are you? God you've grown up. When I left how old were you 5?" Leia said with a beautiful smile

"Yes but I'm 8 now. Sooo are going to sing for me again?" she asked. I surprised because I never knew she could sing.

"If you want it, I'd love to." Leia said.

"You can sing with Parker. Your voices will be perfect together." Kayla said. I looked at her shocked because I thought no one heard me while I was singing in my room with my guitar and said

"Kayla, Leia came from a long journey why don't we let her rest huh?"

"Please Parker, please you need to hear her sing she is perfect." Kayla said

Just as I was about to turn Leia and tell her that she doesn't need to that, she said before me

"Let's do this, but only for you Kayla" she said smiling, I smiled too because I thought she doesn't want anything to do with me. Out of nowhere, someone gave me my guitar and make me sit next to Leia. It felt so right.

Leia's Pov

They made us sing with Parker and after that one of pack members said

"Sing Just a Kiss" Everyone cheered too. God it was a love song. But when Parker sat next to me I couldn't help but feel complete. I tried to control my feelings before my eyes turn to black with desire.

He started to play the song and I felt myself captured by the way he plays the guitar with his talented finger. I couldn't help but think all those things he can do to me in bed...

God snap out of, control yourself girl. Ok here is my part. Let's get this over with.

Lying here with you so close to me 

It's so hard fight this feelings when it feels so hard to breathe 

I'm caught up in this moment 

Caught up in your smile

I've never opened up to anyone 

So hard to hold back when I'm holding you in my arms 

We don't need to rush this 

Let's just take it slow

Just a kiss on the lips in the moonlight 

Just a touch of the fire burning so bright 

And I don't want to mess this thing up 

No, I don't want to push too far

Just a shot in the dark that you just might 

Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life 

So baby, I'm alright with just a kiss goodnight

I know that if we give this little time 

It'll only bring us closer to the love we wanna find 

It's never felt so real, no, It's never felt so right

Just a kiss on the lips in the moonlight 

Just a touch of the fire burning so bright 

And I don't want to mess this thing up 

No, I don't want to push too far

Just a shot in the dark that you just might 

Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life 

So baby, I'm alright with just a kiss goodnight

No, I don't want to say goodnight 

I know it's time to leave 

But you'll be in my dreams 

Tonight, tonight, tonight

Just a kiss on the lips in the moonlight 

Just a touch of the fire burning so bright 

And I don't want to mess this thing up 

No, I don't want to push too far

Just a shot in the dark that you just might 

Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life 

So baby, I'm alright

Oh, let's do this right with just a kiss goodnight 

With a kiss goodnight, kiss goodnight

 

Parker's Pov

When we finished the song I looked at Leia intently. There was a moment silence and then everyone started applauding and screaming. God she has an angelic voice. The way she sings, the way she closes her eyes through the music.

Suddenly she turned to me and we froze and lost in each other's eyes. I hold her hand and felt the most amazing feeling, there was sparkling in our touch.

"We need to talk." I said and dragged her with me towards the forest. She tried to pull her hand away but I didn't let because I need to tell her everything.

"Where are we going? What the hell?!" she yelled. I stopped and turned to her.

"I missed you" I said before another thought. Because I know if I think I won't be able to tell her anything. She stopped fighting and froze.

"You have no idea what I've been through. Every night I went to sleep maybe I could see you in my dream. I missed you Leia. I know you rejected me after all I did but please give me another chance. I can't handle without you anymore." I said 

She looked at me and I saw a one moment hesitance but it disappeared and her eyes hardened.

"But the problem is I don't want you anymore Parker. And I don't think I ever will. Just like you said, you rejected me and I accepted it. Let's get over it, okay."

I felt my eyes were full of tears. My wolf whimpered in me and started to cry. Being unwanted by his mate is the hardest thing for him, and for me.

"Why? Just one chance. It's not like I've done something bad after you left." I said

"Something bad? Something bad?! Are you fucking kidding me? I felt every single slut you've slept with. It was like a stab to my heart every time. And now are you telling me you didn't do anything bad." She yelled, tears were shining in her eyes.

"Y-you d-did? B-but h-how?" I stuttered. I can't believe she felt every one of them.

"Yes, I did. And sometimes two times in a day. You know what I did after all those painful moments." She was looking so hard that I had to look away.

"W-what?" I asked

"I shut down my feelings." She said I shocked and looked at her.

"You mean now..." I couldn't finish my sentence.

"I mean I don't feel anything for you anymore. So just cut it off. I came here to train you and take your blessing. If you continue like this I will go back to my home." She said. But I can't stand her being away from me again.

"Okay, I will stop but please promise me; you're not going to go without telling anyone. And you should know that you may not feel anything towards me but I do, I love you and I will get you back. I will win you Leia. We are meant to be together and we will." I said and without saying another word I kissed her hair and walked back to the house but not without smelling her beautiful orchid and rose scent.

That's right Leia. I love you and I'll make you love me too. We will be together at the end. I won't give up on you anymore.

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