Alcavar Dynasty: THE BLACK SHEEP [COMPLETE]

Thirty Eight: Pray For Me

L O R R A I N E

My mind, my body, and my soul just switched back into old me.

As I look into her eyes, parang she served as the missing piece of the puzzle in finding the old me. I can feel my heart beating again. I feel so alive and warm. But despite this warmth ay nakaramdam ulit ako ng pain. It hurts that I didn't apologize, it hurts na hindi ko sya kinausap ng maayos. It hurts now, that I told her all those disgusting things that I said about her. I cannot contain all this pain so my tears started to pour out.

Bakit ka ganyan Rosa, bakit mo ako pinapatawad? Why do you always have to be the kind one? Ah, right. Because I am the Black Sheep. Hah! Now I can see it.

"Hmmm"

She moaned then slowly pulled me on the bed habang hindi nag hihiwalay ang mga labi namin.

"Hmmmmm"

She keeps on moaning and I am already turned on.

"Hmmmm"

She moaned when I roamed my hands around her back, then paakyat sa batok nya. I pulled her head on me para mas lumalim ang mga halik nya sa akin.

Slowly, she planted small kisses on my face, my jaw and then my neck. Ni hindi ko namalayang natanggal na nya ang hoodie sa ulo ko.

"Touch me"

She said between our kisses. I slowly unzipped her dress on her back. Now I am touching her skin on her back. It's so warm.

She kissed me on my neck. Kissed my scar from the bottom, up to the top. I closed my eyes. I tried to let it go. But, the memory, of seeing her at that very moment. When I was gasping for air, coughing up blood, and fighting for life, just shook the hell out of me.

"No, no. Wait."

Bigla akong bumangon mula sa pagkakahiga at isinuot ulit ang hood sa ulo ko para matakpan ang scar ko sa leeg. My hands are in my head.

"I-I'm sorry, Raine."

I slowly looked at her, then looked down the floor again before I answered.

"No, don't be. It's not even your fault."

Lumapit sya sa akin at marahang hinawakan ang braso ko, na nakatakip parin sa ulo ko.

"W-what happened? If you don't mind me asking?"

Sa totoo lang aside from my family, Sid and Pat ay wala na akong ibang pinagsabihan ng nangyari sa leeg ko. Hindi man halata, I'm suffering from PTSD dahil sa mga nangyari sa akin sa kulungan. I just self-diagnosed dahil I refuse to go to a doctor, undergo therapies, or even take pills. I won't ever do that.

But what if I try? This is Rosa. I can trust her. Besides, I'm in her bed now. So maybe she managed to break one of my walls.

I took a big breath and held it inside saka nagsalita.

"Nagkaron ng gulo sa loob ng kulungan. I was held hostage and then she slit my neck but she missed my jugular. But that was life and death for me.

I just spilled it ng walang hingahan. Hanggang sa maubos yung hangin na inipon ko kanina.

"Oh, Raine."

Her tears are falling down her cheeks. She hugged me, tight. Like this is the first time we've seen each other again.

"I'm so sorry, kung wala ako
Kung iniwan kita. Sorry. Sana, sana umuwi ako. Sana--"

I hugged her back. Mahigpit. It just feels so good. After that experience, all I've longed for ay ang yakap nya.