Scars

Chapter 26

I sit on the side of my bed, sulking as I wait for Ryker to pick up his phone. Jayden and Christopher had decided to pull their trusted contacts and see the ends they can bring this to.

With Jayden refusing to acknowledge me at all.

And it hurt, so so bad.

But I can't even blame the damn guy, after all, I was no better.

"Hello," my friend's deep voice answers. I clear my throat before giving back a greeting as cheerful as I can. Hearing it, Ryker lets out a low chuckle.

"Really Ash? No need to be so fake girl."

Hearing it, I let down my guard, letting a small smile come on my face. "How are things there?"

"As they were before you guys went away. It's the boys' day to trail after Abby, I will trail after her with Ace tomorrow. What about you? How are things here?"

I huff, "As they can be. Nothing good seems to come out from this visit."

And that's where that topic ends. We talk for a few more minutes before we say our good bye-s. After that I lay on my bed, thinking and just staring at my ceiling.

My door opening stirs me awake.

I had no idea when I fell asleep, but I stretch, sitting up to see Jayden coming towards me. I look at him through my lashes, watching as he comes up to me. The tray he has, he passes it up to me.

"You missed lunch." He whispers, almost as if afraid to say anything louder in fear of breaking the serenity.

I hum, taking the tray from his hands almost expecting him to leave immediately, but he makes himself comfortable next to me.

I stare at him for few minutes before he motions me to eat.

I nod at him before doing so.

It stays like this for a while before I speak, unable to handle not knowing what he is thinking about. "So what are you guys planning to do now?"

He thinks about it for a second before answering, "Well we can't go straight out on him and kill him. That will be a declaration of war, something that is unnecessary as well as not something that anyone of us want to get involved in right now."

I nod, making him continue.

"And going over as will also pose a threat. If we take him out from the town, that will be useless too, considering they will send in someone else. At least, with James we know how he looks, who he is and where he stays."

"That means we can't do something?"

"Not really," he shakes his head, "It's just, we can't do anything directly against him."

I sigh heavily, keenly aware of his eyes on me.

I place the tray on the floor on my side before turning to face him. Not sure what I am trying to say, I start speaking, "Jay... I know I hurt you. And not just from my disappearance but even with the way I treated you since we have met again... I can't apologize enough about it."

I see him try to stop me, but I can already feel myself go hysteric, "I mean, I could've trusted you... I should've known you won't do something like that. But it was... I couldn't control my emotions okay?"

My eyes leave his face, looking around the room as I feel frustration start to build up in me.

"For me, being there and watching you live this dangerous life. It wasn't easy. It hurt each time you left, it hurt each time people flinched away from you. I don't know what came over me... I can't explain it an-"