Strings That Binds Us

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She died because of you!

I was awakened.

It's just 3 AM in the morning. I was having cold sweats and my breathing was irrational. This is new, this was the first thought that came to my mind.

For three months, I always dreamed of walking at a sidewalk with a girl I don't even know. The girl who died at the end. For three months, I never found out who that girl is. For three months, it keeps recurring.

It has been also three months when my last year as a senior high school student began. Three months have passed and for everything that has happened in my life, I was slowly getting the hang of waking up at 3 AM.

Besides, I've been lacking sleep because of all the papers I have to do and study. I never knew that graduating from high school was like this. Maybe, that's also the reason why I've been having those weird dreams.

Weird and vivid dream, I must say. But except for the faces of the people who are in that dream, because I didn't clearly saw who those people are, those new people. All I could perceive from it was their conversation (just like from my previous dream), the only difference is that I'm not in this dream anymore.

There are two people. One was blaming the other one because of what happened which gave me the idea that the other person is the person I am with before. It seems correlated with my previous dream and I feel really disturbed for the person blaming Lucid (let's call the girl I'm with before that name from now own).

I was bewildered, am I the person who died and not Lucid? Did I miss something? But I've been dreaming about her for three months, I know she's the one who was killed.

But then again... Why am I even overthinking about this? I sighed deeply and stood up. I turned the switch on of the lights in my room and went to my comfort room to wash my face.

As I was walking out of my comfort room while drying my face with the towel resting on my shoulder, I got startled by my phone's beep. I exhaled heavily before I snatch my phone from my study table.

Rocky: Everything alright?

I smiled upon reading the text, he really knew already that I'm awake at this moment and after split seconds of reading his text, all the thoughts running inside my head quickly vanish.

Indie: 3AM's my other best friend, what could go wrong?

Rocky: Sure, but you know, nightmares aren't even a friend to us.

And just like that, I called him. "Aren't you getting tired of waking up at this time Braxton?" I questioned him while raising my brow even though he couldn't see me.

"Won't you get worried if I, your best friend have been experiencing such nightmares for several months, Ingrid?" A husky voice on the other line asked a back, emphasizing my name.

He knew that calling me Ingrid is enough to make me shut up. I shook my head and sat on my chair, leaning onto the backrest of it. Ever since he found out about my dreams (that for him are nightmares) from our friend Liv, he also wakes up at 3 AM to accompany me.

"Whatever Rocky," I finally spoke after a minute of silence.

"Sungit! Let's just go and study."

"Sure," I responded while I was silently getting out of my room to get some coffee at the kitchen downstairs. After making coffee, I came back to my room. Then Rocky and I started studying which we called sunrise study.

For some, this is exhausting.

But I'd rather choose this. I'd rather make myself busy instead of entertaining thoughts that will perplex me from moving ahead.

Above all, life isn't about moving reversed.