I'm In Love With My Killer

Monthly Explosion

He never starved me though. I always woke up with something to eat and LaToya always came in to help me. I started talking after a day passed by but my voice was just barely there. So I just stopped talking and waited for the next day to come. I never saw Michael leave or come back for work, but I knew that he was unstable. Michael felt so bad about what had happened that he wouldn't even see me or anyone for that matter.. As far as I knew at least. I want to help him. Maybe I should get him a book for his birthday or a simple 'gift for no reason.' Just not on Christmas because I do not want to go through what went down on Halloween.. That was one shitty day. Does he really hate holidays? Him of all people.. I couldn't move for two days and couldn't walk for three. Normal walking is four.. Michael had me bad.. He messed me up real bad. I woke up to find Michael next to me in bed and I was surprised, alarmed and happy.. Michael was looking down and wasn't moving.. Not even breathing. I moved slightly and Michael's head shot in my direction.

Michael: You're up..

Suesie: Yes..

Michael: And you can speak...

Suesie: Yes. Are you alright?

Michael: Why do you ask that?

Suesie: I haven't seen you in two days and then you started to let me see you go to and come back home from work. Michael, I want to help you with your problem.. I know what can help you. It helped me and I want you to do this so that you can be non provocative for at least a week or month.

Michael looked at me funny..

Michael: Are you on your..

Suesie: Why?

Michael: You become very understanding when you are.

Suesie: And that's bad?

Michael: No.. Not really.

Suesie: How is it bad.

Michael: It's not.

Suesie: Why'd you say it was, then?

Michael: Suzanne, stop it. You're getting moody now.

Suesie: You are not, nor have you ever been or will ever be, my father!

I was upset.. Okay, so maybe I am on my cycle.. But let's face it. Every girl gets moody when she's on it. I'm not the only one who gets like that here!

Michael: I know, and I don't want to nor have I ever wanted to or will ever want to be your father. Have you ever called me 'daddy'?

Suesie: No.

Michael: Exactly.

Suesie: Oh please. I wouldn't call you that if you told me to.

Michael: I don't want you to.

Suesie: Good.

Michael chuckled lightly and took my hand into his. Michael kissed my forehead and smiled.

Michael: Do you want me to get you something for your personal problem?

Suesie: I think I have enough.

Michael nodded.

Michael: Then let me get you something to eat, sweetie-pie.

Suesie: Alright.

Michael: I'm making you a big breakfast so you can calm down..

Suesie: Michael Joseph Jackson.. I am calm.

Michael shrugged.

Michael: Alright honey..

Suesie: Thank you.