Unbind the Strings

Thirty Three

"Please let me know kung ako parin ang gusto mo, ha?" he said, still not letting go of the hug. 

At that moment, napaisip ako kung sino talaga pipiliin ko. I feel so fucked up. Okay naman kami ni Liam even before Jay came but now that he's here, I'm kind of confused. Sophie excused herself to see Jay and hindi na sila bumalik pa. I guess he was too shy to show up after what he did. What is his purpose ba? Why does he have to be that aggressive eh siyang 'tong hindi nagparamdam at magpapakitang may girlfriend na. 

"Akyat na ako guys, bukas nalang." I said and stood up to leave. I heard them saying that I should go and take a rest.

"Uh, samahan ko na si Cali, guys. Eat up, see you tomorrow!" Liam said at tumabi na kaagad sa 'kin habang naglalakad ako papunta ng hotel. "You don't look okay, what's the matter?" he asked, trying to comfort me by putting around his hand on my shoulder. 

"Nah, I'm okay. Let's just sleep, baka jetlag lang 'to." I said and looked straight to where we're going.

"You want me to go get you some desserts?" he asked softly.

"I've had too much carbs today, Liam. Thank you so much for the concern." I said and pressed the elevator button. I felt his gaze the entire time we're inside the elevator. I'm sure he's wondering why I'm acting off lately.

"Do you want me to go inside?" Liam asked, when we reached the hotel room. 

"Bakit hindi? You're supposed to sleep here. Come in." I said, opening the door. He gestured me to enter first and so I did. He is very gentle and understanding that's  why I can't take advantage of his kindness.

"Thanks, Cali. Just tell me if you're feeling uncomfortable so I can leave." he said while closing the door. 

I fixed my bed and he went to his bed, too. I am not in the mood to talk nor entertain anyone at the moment. Alam mo 'yun? I don't know why I'm being like this, I'm shocked and I can't process any information right now. I should be over him na eh, what's happening Cal.

"Pa room-service tayo ng beer?" Liam said, while getting out of the restroom after he changed his clothes. I thought of it as a nice idea so I agreed. He called the front desk and asked if we could get some drinks for tonight. "They'll be here in a few." he said and went back to his bed.

I went to the small refrigerator and grabbed some ice pack para ibigay kay Liam dahil sa pasa niya. "Saan masakit?" I asked him while standing in front of his bed and he just gave me a sweet smile. 

"Dito." he said while pointing out his chest. My facial expression suddenly changed that why he said, "Hey, that was a joke. Dito lang sa cheeks ko, but it's okay, hindi naman ganoon ka-maga." he said. I placed the ice pack onto his cheeks and I heard a bit of his groan making me loosen the pressure of placing the pack.

"I'm sorry Liam." I said while slowly pressing the ice pack to his face. "Thank you for understanding me, I'm just wired up and I can't think, but I know I shouldn't be feeling this way I just-" he stopped me by looking straight and said, 

"Hey, Cal. Listen to me. Hindi mo pa naman ako sinasagot, that's fine. Wala naman akong karapatang magselos at ipagdamot ka kasi hindi pa naman tayo, just clear your mind and focus on yourself. Saka na ako." He smiled while holding my hand.