Meant to be Yours

Chapter 11

𝙈𝙄𝙍𝘼𝘾𝙇𝙀 𝘼𝙇𝙀𝙓𝙄𝙎

[From: Kaiden] 7:45 AM
How are you? Are you still sick?

[From: Kaiden] 7:48 AM
Miracle Alexis

[From: Kaiden] 7:52 AM
Are you ignoring me? You didn't talk to me after Tagaygay.

[From: Kaiden] 7:53 AM
Just answer my calls, please.

Basa ko sa sunod-sunod na text ni Lincoln. I sighed while turning off my phone, ignoring his texts.

Nakaiinis naman si Lincoln, e! Ang aga-aga pa. Ginugulo na naman ang utak ko.

After akong ihatid ni Lincoln sa bahay nang pumunta kami ng Tagaytay, which was 5 days ago, hindi ko na muna siya kinausap.

He always sends me messages and calls me, but I never answer. I wasn't completely ignoring him. Slight lang. I know mali 'tong ginagawa ko, but I have to figure out how I feel about him.

Alam kong kapag nakita ko siya at nakausap, baka mas maguluhan ako sa nararamdaman ko. Kaya I did my best para iwasan siya. I know na sobrang busy rin niya sa training dahil 2 days na lang ay game na nila.

Balita ko, hindi na sila pumapasok sa mga klase nila dahil puspusan na ang kanilang training. Maybe after training nag-aaral pa siya on his own just to catch up. Kaya sure ako na he's really busy too.

After sorting out my feelings, marami akong na-realize. Sobrang dami kong inisip at sinigurado just to come up with the best explanation about my feelings for Lincoln. It wasn't easy. It even took me 4 days.

I realized that what I feel for Lincoln is not love. I know it isn't. But... I have a little crush on him.

Or maybe a big crush.

I still have to figure that one out.

I'm planning to talk to Lincoln tomorrow before his game on Saturday. Or maybe I'll just text him later after my class if we could meet up. Nami-miss ko na rin kasi siya.

My class ended earlier than usual dahil hindi pumasok ang prof namin sa last subject. I am so stressed because my project is due tomorrow. Hindi pa nga ako nangangalahati sa ginagawa ko.

I went home right away so I could finish my project. I asked Manang to prepare me a coffee, kasi mag-all nighter ako. Hindi ko kasi matatapos 'to kapag matutulog ako.

I woke up the next morning feeling tired. I was able to finish my project earlier than I expected kaya nakatulog pa ako ng 2 hours which I'm thankful for. Baka hindi ko kayanin ang antok kung hindi ako nakatulog. Ilang araw na rin akong walang maayos na tulog.

I gathered my things na nasa higaan ko pa saka inilagay 'yon sa bag ko. I was about to take a shower when my phone vibrated.

Kaagad kong kinuha ang cellphone ko sa bedside table saka tiningan kung kanino galing ang text.

[From: Kaiden] 8:47 AM
Good morning. Can we meet today? I miss you, Miracle.

Shit. I forgot to text Lincoln yesterday!

Nakaiinis kasi, sobrang stress! My teacher in one of my classes has no mercy. She enjoys torturing her students. I have a lot of respect for teachers, but sometimes I feel like some of them don't empathize with their students. We're only one, yet we're dealing with eight to ten subjects, each with its own set of activities. We just want them to understand our situation too. Because we're trying.