[English is not my first language, sorry for any grammatical error.]
It all starts from a simple dare.
Chaerin likes to play with them.
Taehyung, Jimin and Jungkook, will they play along?
What will happen if they all join the game?
It's supposed to...
I register those words and the thousand different meanings they could have.
《He-he is gone?》
That word springs tremors in my whole body. I move my gaze to the half-empty glass but Jin's voice catches my attention again.
《No no, wait, he's not dead, it's just that ...》
I get up from the sofa.
《Jin, where's Yoongi?》 I ask in a shaky voice.
His full lips move. 《He ...》 is hesitating, he touches his face, he looks tired.
This whole scene has already happened, it's all happening again for a second time.
《Tell me where he is!》 A knot was choking me, I have difficulty breathing and my tachycardia increases by every second that passes.
He is still hesitating, I swallow hard.
That feeling of before is widening, it becomes heavier.
《Tell me the truth, don't-don't sugarcoat it.》 Sobs were already running from my mouth, tears marked my cheeks.
Without realizing it I clench my fist until I stick my nails into my palm.
I want to hear him tell the truth from his mouth, I know he knows it. Even though I already know the truth inside me. I feel. I see it from how Jin behaves. From how he is hesitating and from his gaze of pity on me, the same gaze he had the other time.
Silently he looks at me. Then everything stops accompanied by silence, then his lips move.
《He left.》
I close my eyes, my breath freezes, the world freezes, my head turns and I have to keep on the table so as not to fall, Jin immediately jumps towards me to grab me.
His words fall like concrete bricks on my head. Heavy and aching as if they were real. But they don't break my head, but they break my heart. Again. He's gone, again. It's not fucking possible, is it?
《You're joking right?》
《Chaer-》
《Why?》 I squeeze his arm desperately. 《Why did he go away again?!》 I yell at him like a desperate, I couldn't see his face, my eyes are clouded by the huge amount of tears.
It's not possible. It's not fucking possible that he did it again. He can't kill me like this like the first time.
《Did he tell you why? And if he had only gone away for a while?》 yes maybe it's like that, the problems of his family did not give him time to warn me. Maybe he was in a hurry.
It can happen, sometimes you don't have time to send a message because there are urgent things to think about. Yes, it must be so.
《He didn't warn me because he knew he would be back in no time, did he?》
He stops me from my frenzy and takes my face in his big hands.
《He left.》 Jin remarks that phrase as if it hurt more him than me.
《No-no he didn't go away. Don't say bullshit, he just left for a while. He said he had problems in the family so-》
《Chaerin.》 His tone is now harsh, reproachful.
《Is it my fault? Did I do something? Please tell me what you know Jin ...》
Jin looks at me with a sorry look, he doesn't know what to say to me.
《Please...》
My crying becomes desperate, I collapse on the ground wrapping myself with my arms. It hurts so much that it seems to me they are dismembering me alive. My throat hurts and I no longer see anything with all the tears running down my eyes.
Jin takes my phone out of his pocket and types something.
《Hwasa I'm Jin, come to my house as soon as possible, I will send you the address by message.》
I hear Hwasa's voice asking why in a confused way.
《I suppose it's called red code in the language of you girls.》
Jin approaches me and takes me in his arms. His arms that I know and in which I have already cried other times. Nothing changes in the end, it's always the same story.
I 'm always the same stupid little Chaerin.
He promised me, we were about to live together ... He promised he would stay ... that he loved me that he would never leave me. Why did he say it if he didn't keep those promises in the end?
Why must all this be repeated again?
Why does it always have to end up like this?
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Yoongi: * leaves *
Chaerin:
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don't hate me lol. or maybe you are happy?
but it had to happen.
i feel bad for Chaerin, but it's one of the turning points in her life ...
Comment with 🦄 if you read till here u.u purpelo you 💜
