Unbind the Strings

Twenty Six

"Hindi ka na nahiya sa guest natin? Can't she wait? Antayin mo munang umuwi yung guest bago ka umalis. Don't be rude, hindi ka namin pinalaki ng ganyan. She should understand na you're a busy man, how disrespectful." Napapakamot nalang ako sa ulo ko sa sobrang yamot. Wala akong magawa, napaka wala kong kwenta.

"You never told me you were having a hard time, baby..." I was so confused, hindi ko alam kung saan nanggagaling 'yung sakit na nararamdaman ni Cali. I can totally understand her situation right now pero bakit parang sa 'kin niya sinisisi 'yung nangyari kay Tita? What did I do? I gave her the time and space she needed. I was bringing her foods and also checking up on Tita everyday. Natakas ako sa rehearsals kasi I can't afford to see her like that, she's been through a lot and she needs rest not stress.  

I was so excited to wake up today, not only because it's my birthday but also I have a surprise for Cal since it's our first month being an official couple. She called me and I was so excited to hear her birthday greeting but instead, I heard "Ayoko na." 

Mas mabilis pa sa pagpapalit ng ex mo sa'yo 'yung pagpapatakbo ko ng sasakyan this time. I told her not to say anything she doesn't mean. I was shaking while driving, ayoko dumating 'yung time na 'to. I swear tatalikuran ko lahat para lang hindi ako iwan ni Cali. 

"Baby, I love you." I said while lifting her face up. I want to see her face to see if she's dead ass serious about breaking up with me. Tinanggal niya ang pagkakahawak sa 'kin at nag pupumiglas pa. Hinding hindi kita papakawalan, Cali. Try me. I knelt down and held her knees, begging her to not leave me. 

"Am I that easy to let go?" tears streaming down my face and I don't mind. All I care about now is 'yung hindi ako iwanan ni Cali. Where did I go wrong, love? Sobrang desperado ko na talaga. Hindi ko talaga kakayanin na mawala siya kaya please Cali, not this time. 

Noong mga oras na 'yun, I was willing to give up everything para lang hindi niya ako iwan. Just so I could focus on her and us. Sobrang gulo at hindi ako makapag-isip ng ayos. I asked her if may chance pa ba para maibalik namin sa dati 'yung relationship naming. Sobrang sakit, Cali. Sobra. Alam kong may reason ka at kailangan kong tanggapin 'yun. 

She turned around but I grabbed her hand.  "Can you at least hug me one last time?" Sobrang hirap magpigil ng iyak, parang gusto kong sumigaw at huwag nalang kumawala sakanya pero hindi naman ako selfish. I've been pulling her close but she's pushing me farther. I've been hurting myself to stop her from leaving.