A World of Silence

Chapter 21

Levi POV

After the basketball game I felt sick. Malia went home before the game even ended and Harry looked sad after they went back on the court.

I still felt sick to my stomach that Harry hated me. He didn't even show hate towards me, but his words still hurt. I really thought Harry and Daniel would love me but I was wrong. I felt like curling up and disappearing.

Walking back to the car with Carter and Daniel was awful. They kept kissing and touching each other as if I weren't there. I may be deaf but I'm not blind nor am I dumb.

As if things couldn't get worse once we got to the car they still kept kissing. Harry said he was going to go to a party after the game instead of joining me and Daniel for ice cream. I wasn't in the mood mostly because Carter is annoying. Every time I talk to her out loud she giggles. I know my voice isn't normal but she doesn't have to make it known all the time. Plus I don't like seeing her and Daniel kiss. It's so gross.

The only time they weren't kissing was while Daniel drove us to the ice cream shop. But he still had his hand on her leg. That bothered me a lot cause last time one of them had a girl over I saw things that should never be seen. I shivered in disgust when I thought about Malia and Harry being naked in bed. It was one of the worst nights of my life.

We got out of the car once we reached the cute shop and walked in. I already knew what I wanted but because of Daniel and Carter it took forever before we could order.

I asked Daniel to order for me but he just ignored me and told me to order by myself. He gave me a five dollar bill and went to go sit with Carter in the back of the parlor.

I felt anxious as I walked up to the guy. He was huge. A bit taller than Harry and the same skin color as Malia.

"Hi can I take your order?" He gave me a big smile but it didn't help ease my nerves. Instead I just pointed at the mint chocolate chip ice cream on the poster and handed him the money.

But because nothing ever goes my way he says, "A chocolate single scoop? Will that be all?" I blushed as I looked at the chocolate cone right under the mint chocolate one on the poster. Instead of correcting him because my nerves wouldn't allow it I just nodded. He rung it up and gave me my cone and handed me the change. I gave the change to Daniel and we walked out to the car again. I didn't like chocolate ice cream but I ate it anyways.

Today was just a bad day and I felt like going to sleep as soon as we got home. I could feel a headache coming on and Daniel and Carter's flirting didn't help.

Luckily we arrived home quicker than I thought and I ran up to my room. I can't believe I was excited for this day. It was awful. I took a shower and went downstairs to watch Garfield before bed to at least end my day a little bit better. Daniel and Carter were up in his room doing things I would rather not think about.

Once again I was alone. I hated it. Once I got that feeling of actually having a loving family I couldn't help but crave it now. I wanted people who would love me despite all the bad things about me. Before I knew it I was crying on the couch. Full on sobbing and I could barely even process why I felt this way.

I was probably loud, but I didn't care. I couldn't hear myself anyways. I just felt like curling up and dying because no one would miss me. My head started aching more and I couldn't help but cry even harder because it felt like my head was splitting open.

Before I knew it I was seizing. I fell off the couch and hit my head on the coffee table and suddenly I blacked out.

Harry POV

After the party to celebrate our win I went back home. I was slightly tipsy so I had one of my friends drive me home just in case.

Today was awful. I'm surprised I didn't drink more. I still can't believe I lost my girlfriend. She meant the world to me and I didn't know if I could ever get her back. I loved her and I couldn't help that I didn't like the thought of my brother dating boys. It made me uncomfortable. Like what if he thought of all my friends as hot. Even worse what if he had a crush on me. Just thought made me wanna barf.