Unbind the Strings

Nineteen

"Anong nakakatawa? Hindi ako natutuwa!" I shouted at him and he pulled me closer to him.

"Baby...I'm sorry. Come here na. Be open and tell me everything starting from now on, okay?" he kissed the side of my head and hugged me tight.

"Jay! Tumigil ka nga. Akala mo lahat biro! Hindi mo na ako madadaan sa mga ganyan mo! Alam mo kung bakit ayaw kita makita at makausap?" I looked seriously at him and raised one of my eyebrows. 

"Kaya nga you tell me what's going on." I reached for my bag and took the paper the doctor handed me a while ago. I showed it to him and he looked at me cluelessly like he doesn't know what to do with it.

"Ano 'to?" he asked.

"Papel." I sarcastically said. 

"Anong gagawin ko rito?"

"Kainin mo." his brows furrowed and looked back at me.

"Cali, ano nga 'to?" his voice sounded serious.

"The doctor gave me that a while ago. He said my mom's cardiologist is giving her medicines na hindi naman dapat niya tine-take because of her condition. That paper was the consent na pumapayag si Mommy na bigyan siya nung gamot, with a sign from her guardian- which is your sign. Pirma mo 'yan, Jay. Hindi ako pwedeng magkamali." I told him.

He brushed his hand through his hair and stopped for a while like he's thinking how did that happen. "I didn't do this, Cal. I would never sign a consent like this..." he explained while holding my shoulders and hugging me close.

"Impossible, Keane! Tangina, siguro noong pumunta ka ng hospital saka mo 'yan pinirmahan 'no?" I pushed him away and stopped myself from crying.

"Cali, hindi ko magagawa sa Mommy mo 'yun. Para ko na kayong pamilya, please maniwala ka naman sa 'kin. Kakausapin ko si Mommy, itatanong ko kung sinong gumawa nito kay Tita. Please, Cali maniwala ka naman sa 'kin..." hindi niya parin binibitawan ang kamay ko at nilagay niya iyon sa kanyang mukha.

I shook my head and said, "Hindi ko na alam...umalis ka nalang muna, please." I wiped my tears and started to turn around to walk away but he said something that made me stop.

"Hindi mo na naman ako papatapusin, eh. Please don't push me away and let me explain. Let me figure this out, Cali." niyakap niya ako at pinipigilan akong kumawala. "Please baby 'wag mo naming gawin sa 'kin 'to...I love you, Cali...Please..." I removed his hand from me and walked away.

I need time to think and process a lot of things. Hanggang ngayon ay hindi parin gumigising si Mommy. I wasn't able to go home kasi baka bigla siyang magising at wala siyang bantay. I have to be there when she wakes up. Si Mommy lang ang priority ko ngayon, walang iba. Sa susunod ko na aasikasuhin 'yung sa Nanay niya dahil baka kung ano lang magawa ko.

 A few minutes later, the doctor came and told me that my Mom was already transferred to the ICU for extra care. I went to the unit and saw my Mom with so many apparatus.  I cannot take a single step properly kasi hindi ko kayang makita si Mommy na nag kaka-ganon. I went inside and held her hand.

"Mommy, gising na. I'm here na. Hindi mo kinain 'yung breakfast ko ang daya mo." I started crying and put her hand on my face to feel her warmth. I was trying not to cry and be strong for her but I can't help it kasi sobrang hirap.

Nakatulog na ako sa gilid ni Mommy kakaiyak ko kagabi. I spent the night there and when I woke up, hindi parin siya nagigising. I smiled and greeted her a good morning. I looked around the room and saw a basket full of fruits, there was a letter inside. 

"I heard your Mom is sick. Please tell her to get well, my deepest condolences. - Dra. Ocampo."

I never had a worse insultation in my whole life not until I saw this.  I quickly wrecked it and threw it in the trash bin. I also threw the fruits away. Get well tapos condolences? Nasisiraan na talaga ng bait 'yung pamilyang 'yun. 

"Ma, uuwi lang ako. Kukuha ako ng mga damit, babalik din po ako kaagad, ha?" I kissed her cheek before going outside the room.

"Nurse, uwi lang po ako. Paki tawagan po ako kaagad if magising si Mommy. Thank you." I smiled a bit and started walking outside to drive myself home. 

I turned the doorknob and sadness went into my body quickly. I went to the dining area and saw the breakfast I made for my Mom yesterday. I went to her room and get some clothes for her. I also went upstairs to get some of my clothes since I'll be staying there until she wakes up. I was running down the stairs when one of our picture frames hanging on the wall, fell. This is not a good sign. 

I hurriedly went to the hospital and went to her room. I asked the nurse if something happened while I was gone and she said everything's alright so far. I put my bags down and asked her how is she. Lagi ko siyang kinakausap kasi for sure naririnig naman niya ako. 

"Kumain ka muna, kahapon ka pa walang kain." Jay entered the room while holding a paper bag. He grabbed the table and put in front of me while removing the foods inside the bag.

"Anong ginagawa mo rito?" I asked him, coldly.

"Nandito ako para bantayan kayo." he said before handing me the spoon and fork so I could eat.

"Hindi ko kayang kumain habang nakikita si Mommy na ganyan." tipid kong sabi.

"I'm sure magagalit si Tita sa'yo kapag hindi ka kumain. 'Wag ng matigas ang ulo, kumain ka na." he opened my food and started preparing it for my first bite.

I'm not talking to him but I can see his concern and care for us. Gustong gusto ko na siya ulit yakapin pero parang may pumipigil sa 'kin. I don't want to be rude so I also opened his juice for him to drink it easily.

"Do you want me to stay here? Are you okay here?" he asked me while we're eating.

"Oo, okay naman ako. You can't stay here, malapit na recitals mo." I said while getting a food by my fork. 

"I can stay here if you want me to. I can say it's an emergency," he said while chewing.

"Baka ma-emergency din ako ng nanay mo, 'wag nalang. Kaya na namin 'to." I refused and threw my meal box in the trash can. "Thank you sa foods, after mo kumain you can leave." I placed my chair beside my Mom's bed and rested my head on her hands. 

"Please be strong, baby...I love you so much." tumulo na naman ang luha ko matapos marinig 'yun sakanya. I wanted to turn around and hug him pero mukhang umalis na siya.

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