38. Broken star

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Your words don't have the same effect anymore,
They don't break me like they once did before.
Because you can't break something that's already broken.
I've learn to accept them and learned go grow.
And embrace with open arms the words that you throw.

You tell me not to commit suicide.
Maybe you can't see how dead I am from the inside,
They only thing left is to bury me alive.

It's like telling a corpse to to live again.
Maybe in your fantasies they come to life but in mine they don't bother with a reply.

I've learned to lose the things I've loved,
And face my fears whenever they appear,
But it still scares me when you say "I'll be there".
I know I've heard those words before, maybe an illusion or in a dream long ago.
But I know about how false they are.

You say I deserve the world.
But I can't help think it's a lie.
Because I've been told otherwise way too many times.

I know from experience and have learned from pain.
I said "broken stars don't light the sky".
"They help give others life." Is what you replied.
I thought about it for a long time,
And maybe I was worth a try.
That's when I decided that I may be broken but I won't fall apart.
Because I don't know how long I have.

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I haven't written in a while so I just needed to let this out.
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