To New York

Chapter 18 : Cue The Sad Music

Amanda's POV
(Sunday morning)

It's been 2 weeks since I've seen Leonardo or Mia, Mia was still away with her family and she said she'll return next week so I was holding things down at the office . I know I said I'd quit work but after thinking about it for what feels like forever, I decided to stay. The thought of job hunting again scares me and Reigns Inc pays well, it'd be ridiculous to give that up. I just finally got on my feet with a stable job and beautiful apartment, I just have to suck it up and put on my big girl panties. I have been avoiding Leonardo ever since the day we last seen each other, I was serious when I said I was keeping my distance from him. It's been hard putting on a front but it's something I had to do, I drowned myself in work to escape reality.

A knock on the door brought me back to reality, I set my book aside and dragged my feet to the door. I woke up early today because I couldn't sleep due to that so I've been reading my sorrows off.

"Who is it?" I said stretching, I feel like a zombie

"Girl if you don't open this damn door" I heard De'arra say on the other side of the door, I literally screamed before opening the door and jumping in her arms wrapping my legs around her waist. I missed my girl so much, it felt like years since I've seen her.

"Damn girl ! You look thicker from the last time I've seen you, this is the 'getting some good dick' weight" she said when I jumped down from her

"You haven't been back for 2 minutes De'arra " I said straight facing her, she smacked her teeth before waving me off.

"You know, I actually just got here like 45 minutes ago boo" she said in a 'matter of fact' tone, "but I wanted to check up on you and see how you were doing and stuff" she said with a gentle tone

"and stuff" I said mocking her before  chuckling.

"Bitch don't come for my vocabulary now, I'mma light your black ass up " she said before we both laughed our butts off in the hallway.

"I can't breathe" I said while leaning on the wall as D laid on the floor calming down from her laughter, I turned to look at her and I couldn't help but smile at her.

"I'm glad you're home D" I said as she turned to look at me and smiled.

"I'm glad I'm home too sista" she said before standing on her knees and opening her arms to me, I chuckled at her.

"Come on now, bring it ." she said waving me over, I got on my knees and threw myself in her arms holding on for dear life.

"I know you're not okay Mandy, and it's okay to be sad sometimes,it's okay to be angry, it's okay to cry, IT'S IMPORTANT TO CRY! you don't owe anyone a brave face. Don't bottle it up, let it go babe" I couldn't contain myself anymore, I burst into tears in her arms as she rubbed my back.

"I don't know why I'm feeling this way, I don't know why I'm sad or upset. I don't know what to do D, I feel clueless as in what steps to take next and it's a shitty feeling" I said while sobbing, De'arra held on to me reassuring me that it was okay but I couldn't help but feel depressed

"I think you know why you're feeling this way but you're just in denial. The sooner you accept or come to terms with whatever is troubling you, the sooner you'll feel better." she said before kissing my forehead and massaging my scalp, she knew that it would calm me down. I was so grateful to have a friend like De'arra, to comfort me when I needed comfort the most.