I'm So Exhausted

I said no

I said no.

I said
no.

But you still proceeded

I was crying
And held down to pavement by my neck
I could feel my body giving up

You were so much bigger than I was

Your weight crushing my body with every thrust
I couldn't help but dissolve into my head to forget it

Taking advantage of me.
Leaving me there on the ground.

I try so hard to push it far down until I don't remember
Never speak of it
Never let anyone know

I was left Bruised
internally and externally

Except the internal will last the rest of my life
While I blamed the external on falling off a swing.
All because you were selfish.

I was wearing a jumper and jeans
If it happens because of what a girl is wearing,
Why did it happen?

If I looked like a slut I apologize

But I said no.