Strings

Facing It

FLASHBACK

"Fuck this and fuck everyone!! I hate this! I hate it!!" Sharon suddenly hears from the kitchen as she runs into Stef's room seeing her toss everything in site. The room was now a complete mess as Stef had ripped all her clothes out the closet, her dresser draws and her  sheet music was all over. She was two seconds away from smashing the guitar when Sharon grabbed her from behind holding her close.

"Stefanie no. No baby! No baby!"

"Get off me heffer! Let me go hoe!!"

"Stefanie we don't use that language. I have no issue letting you go but you need to talk to me. Remember we talked about this baby. We talked many times about this and if something is wrong I want you to tell me." The red head said in a calm manner for she knew how Stef was. She knew at times the young girl had outburst of anger and sometimes it took hours to calm her down.

"Fuck you."

"No. I told you we aren't using that language baby. You need to talk to me. And talk to me like you know how. What is wrong." Speaking to her in a calm manor Stef tries to struggle out of Sharons grip but the 13 year old is just not able to.

"Why can't you just buzz off and leave me alone! Leave me alone Sharon!!"

"Sharon huh? Since when do you call me Sharon? I'm not your mom anymore? MM?"

"Get off me!!"

"Stefanie I will let you go if you calm down. I want you to breath and relax. Can you do that for me? MM?  Just take a minute."

Stef wanted to fight back so badly, she really did but Sharon's voice always had a way of getting her to relax, getting her to calm down and bring her back into the moment. Today had been a bad day for her to the point she didn't want to speak or talk to anyone. Not even Lena.

"Just leave me alone! You and stupid school!!"

"School? What happened at school? MM. What happened honey?" She asked kissing the back of her head as she could feel Stef's body begin to relax. "Come lets put the guitar down and talk in our spot. Ok?"

"I don't wanna talk to you!"

"You don't have to. But lets calm down. Ok? I want you to calm down because I know you can. I'm going to let you go ok? I'm going to let you go now but I am not leaving the room."

"Fine!" Stef shouted as Sharon let her go and girl sat on the floor by the window with her knees pressed against her chest.  She was so angry for so many reasons and sometimes she herself didn't even understand why. "Don't hug me or nothing! I don't like you!"

"That's ok. I won't touch you." Walking slowly over to the girl Sharon took a seat not to far from her and not to close for she knew how Stef could be when she was like this. Not many people understood the young blonde but Sharon always had a way with her and Stef knew that. Sitting with her for what seemed like almost an hour she leaned her back against the bed as Stef now looked at her.

"Why don't you just leave me be!"

"Because I can't do that baby. You know I can't and you know I love you. I will always try to help my daughter."

"I'm not your stupid daughter. I belong to no one and you know that! I never will."

"Honey, I know it's not legal, but I don't need some document telling me you're my daughter. I don't need that at all."

"Why do you want me anyway?  I don't want you." The girl snapped knowing it wasn't true. Of course she wanted Sharon to be her mother. More than anything.