Strings

When Hurt Takes Over

LENA POV

"You did what?!"

"Lena what's the big deal? You guys really need to meet and talk." Kelly said as I grabbed my phone from her seeing what she had done.

"I can't believe you did that! I can't believe you texted her pretending to be me! I can't, I can't meet her!"

"Why? Come on Lena tell me you weren't going to text her anyway."

"I would have but not tonight! Now I just seem desperate or something!"

"And? I saw the way she was looking at you Lena. She still loves you and she wants to rip your clothes off. Plus I saw how you were looking at her. Whatever you two had is clearly still there."

"Kelly..

"Look if you don't want to talk to her why did you give her your card? MM?"

"I, I planned on asking her about Callie." I partly lied as I sat on the bed totally frustrated.

"Ok that might be true but either way you would need to talk to her. So I just did you a favor. Look she's probably asleep anyway and will see it in the morning so chill out."

"I still can't believe you did that. I have no idea what to say if she answers and I have no idea what to think if she doesn't now. Thank you for creating a major stress Kelly!"

"Lena relax! I'm sure she will answer. Believe me she will answer."

"What makes you so sure?"

"Hello I just told you. I saw how she was looking at you tonight and I saw how you were looking at her. No matter how much you try to deny it from what you told me you both had a very strong and deep love for each other for a long, long time. You can thank your mother for fucking it up."

"It wasn't my mother who fucked it up. I can't blame it all on her even if I wanted too. I mean I could have tried harder." I sighed throwing my pajamas on. "I could have saved up money to fly back here when I knew she was having problems. I fucked it up."

"Don't blame yourself Lena. Shit happens and it wasn't an easy time for either of you. I mean maybe you weren't the person who could really help her the way she needed. It's possible." She said taking a seat next to me on the bed as I could feel the tears fall from my eyes.

"I don't know. I was the only person she had Kelly. She had no one. She was living with that horrible Jenna and lost custody of her daughter and I went and left her. What kind of person does that? Then I go off and get married to a woman that.."..

"To a woman you don't love?" Looking to Kelly I just shook my head as she pulled me into a hug.

"I was so dumb Kelly. I was. I'm in love with her still. What am I going to do?"

"Go talk to her."

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STEF POV

Sitting at the coffee shop my stomach was killing me by twisting and turning. It had taken me two weeks to respond to Lena's text for every time I did I ended up deleting it unsure of what to write. Aside from that I really wasn't sure how I was going to feel or how awkward it was going to be. Maybe I would offend her, maybe she would offend me for I knew both of us had many things left unsaid. How could we not for we didn't end on the best of terms. In fact we never really officially ended our relationship anyway it was more something that just faded out over time. Looking down to my cell I could see I was early for I had come right from work. I had thought of bailing out thinking it would be the easiest thing to do but my mother had gotten it all out of me before I left.