Please don't think
That I don't love youPlease don't think
That I did not want youI'm terrified
Please understand
You happened by a point 1 of a
ChanceThe doctors didn't expect it
I was supposed to be
Barren
From all the beatingsI still can't comprehend
That you are
Inside of meI find myself resting my hand
On my bloating stomach already
Out of
InstinctI know though
That instinct
Is not enough
To make a
Great MumThe doctor told me
They don't know how
Big you are or
How old you are
Until a scanI imagine you already with
Dimples and closed eyes
I imagine you already in
My armsBut the sky has to take you
My life has to take yoursI'm not safe now
You are not safeI can't bring you here
Into a place that is so
Dark
With people surrounding me
That are so cruelIt's a rainy day &
I'm outside without a coat on
Picking all the dasies off the
Earth
Pulling petals
I want you
I want you
I want youI can't have you
I can't keep you
You have to leave mePeople
Think I'm evil
Think I'm disgusting
There is no need to remind meI already feel
Below the Earth
& I wonder
How I ever deserved to
Briefly be crowned- A mum.
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PoetryDarling, to be Perfect Is simply not real. True tellings of domestic abuse in poetical form. This is the true story of a Fairy-Girl. By, The Fairy Queen #poetry- 13 #poembook- 2 #spokenword- 1 #10,000 reads 10/01/20