You must begin "healing"
The therapist had said
Cross legged
Lips pressed
Pen tapping
Lines & lines of my
Heartache and distress
Wrote by her in
Short-hand
Oxford-note
FormI had only met her once
On my release from
The A&E hospital bedI don't know why
I thought this time would be
Any different?
Perhaps the mental health team would
Understand me by
This point?My hands shook
My words
S
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I didn't notice
But it was in her
Formal letterIn her notes she
Detailed that
I held eye contact
'A good sign'
Did she not see
That I was begging for
A lifeline?Show me how to heal
I don't want to keep
Dreaming of black endless
Nights
And wishing for
SilenceI know life is beautiful
Please
I want to
Feel
It allInstead I left hospital with a
Letter to my employer
Describing how I tried to
End this book of pain
& a recommendation to my doctor
Not to prescribe me
Unsupervised pills
AgainSo, I sat in the ice walls of
Home
& read & read & read aloud
The voices of others
To warm my soulImagining
That if they can
Keep on writingThen surely
I can
Too- The start of healing is of course: Hope
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詩歌Darling, to be Perfect Is simply not real. True tellings of domestic abuse in poetical form. This is the true story of a Fairy-Girl. By, The Fairy Queen #poetry- 13 #poembook- 2 #spokenword- 1 #10,000 reads 10/01/20