Chained Memories

Chapter 21

Darkness

"Will you please let go of my hand?!"  nagpupuyos sa galit na sigaw ko kay Dave. He looks taken aback seeing me in rage but his hold on my arms only tightened.

Marahas akong suminghap at sa nanlalaking mga mata ay bumaling ako sa kaniya. "How dare you drag me out from there?!"

After Don Romano left, Dave forcefully drag me out from Leonor's mansion. Probably saving me from our family's hysteric and absolute remarks about my manner awhile ago but save it Dave, because I don't need your heroic act today.

Ramdam ko ang pag init ng gilid ng aking mga mata dahil sa galit at sa luhang pinipigilan kong kumawala.

He panicked when he saw me almost crying as his eyes turns bloodshot.

His eyes says that it was also hard for him. Of course, he's in the middle between holding on or telling me the truth.

"Natatakot ka ba na malaman ko kung ano ang ibig sabihin ni Don Romano sa mga binitawan niyang salita? You are so damn obvious. You are keeping me from behind!" He purposely drag me here because if he hadn't, alam niyang gagawa ako ng paraan upang malaman kung ano nga ba talaga ang ibig sabihin sa likod ng sinabing iyon ng Don.

His words held a deep meaning and it bothers me a lot.

Dumagdag iyon sa listahan ng mga tanong na kailangan ko ng kasagutan.

"What? What are you talking about, Hera? Inalis kita roon dahil halata naman na wala nang patutunguhan pa ang pag uusap na iyon!"

"But that doesn't what it seems to me... stop lying..." sabi ko sa pigil na hikbi. "Why, Kuya? Why..." hindi ko na mapigilan ang pag garalgal ng boses ko.

Masakit kapag pamilya mo mismo ang naglilihim sa iyo. Para kang tinatarak ng matalim na kutsilyo diretso sa puso mo.

I really don't get why the need to keep a secret. People might say that it's their way to not hurt their loved ones but didn't they realize that keeping it was painful enough? Lalo na kapag nalaman na ang katotohanan.

Like the old saying goes, 'Walang sikretong hindi nabubunyag'. There will always a time for everything to unveil the mask of secrets.

I don't know what happened for them to act that way to me, but whatever their reason was, I want them to know that I am extremely hurting.

I don't need their protection, if that's the case. That doesn't apply to everyone dahil paano naman iyong mga tao na gusto lamang malaman ang katotohanan?

Like in my case. I only want the truth. Was it that hard?

Sometimes, we don't need protection,  what we need is the truth in order for us to move forward and to become stronger.

"I'm sorry..." aniya at pinunasan ang luha na tumulo sa aking pisngi. "I'm sorry if I can't do anything to stop you from hurting..."

"Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit kailangan niyo pang ilihim sa akin kung ano man ang bagay na iyon. Do you like seeing me in the shadows of our family?" may hinanakit na tanong ko sa kanya.

Paulit-ulit na umiling si Dave sa akin, tila  desperado nang paniwalaan ko siya.

"It's not like that—"

"Then tell me!" I shouted. "Do you know how hard it is for me to patch those secrets just so I could cope up with what's happening around me?" I said painfully. "Ganoon ba kahirap para sayo ang sabihin sa akin kung anong alam mo? Pinagmumukha niyo akong tanga—"

"Shut up!" sigaw niya. Natigilan ako at naluluhang tumingin sa kaniya.

There was never a time where I saw Dave had lost his composure. He's always been this proper and confident. Kailanman ay hindi niya ako pisikal na nasaktan, maging ang sigawan ay hindi niya iyon kailanman ginawa sa akin. And him, acting this way means something big must've happened and they had to hide it for god knows how long.