Ever since we broke up, I've imagined you briskly walking towards me
Kissing me
Saying that you miss me
Just so I can break up with you all over again
Ever since we broke up, I find myself replaying the beginning
Before I tell you swiftly
That we were never meant to be
Because I'm still addicted to how you made me feel
Because I'm not as strong as I think I am
Because the truth is
I don't think I'd let go of you again
If you gave me this second chance
This feels like an emotional step back from healing but
It's not a relapse if you never wanted to stop in the first place
It takes 10 hours for alcohol to leave a persons system
And it takes 5 detox days to rid themselves of an addiction
But being able to get to that point isn't the first step in recovery
I too deal with daily temptations
Reminders
Memory triggers
Unfortunately
On An average of 5 days a week
I get the absolute pleasure of seeing your face
As if getting over you wasn't hard enough
Now at 17 I'm experiencing what i assume to be
Mini heart attacks
Every day at 4th period
So tell me Stephen
How am I supposed to begin
My detoxification
If you have yet to leave my mind for a whole day
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And After of month and a half of sadness
You somehow still know how to keep me begging
Ignoring me like you do
Just like how you used to
It's honestly almost as if I never even left you
I mean Nothing's really changed
Except for the fact that
You don't have to lie to me anymore
By saying I love you
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I think I have a fetish
For unhealthy relationships
So many red flags practically blinding
That shit is like cocaine for me
It takes several weeks for cocaine to leave a persons body
And that's not including when the withdrawals begin happening
Within 24-72 hours
You'll begin to feel remorse and depression
But after a week
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ESTÁS LEYENDO
My Inner Thoughts
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